Shadow Boxing

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You're welcome to synchronicity, holy shit, I'm back in the United States in New York. It's a different place than I was the past 44 days or so in Turkey. It's good to be back. The United States seems pretty much the same as it was. When I left, I think people are more relaxed from what I can see, at least here in New York. Is that the general vibe? I think that's what's going on. I guess people are freaking out about election stuff and all of these things underneath everything, but this is, I think what Labor Day weekend is that was coming up. People like that here for something. You get a long weekend if you're into that.

Everyone's long weekends all the time. It's infinite long weekends though for a lot of people at this point, right? Reality is breaking down, things are getting weird. Things are getting, we're so past the point of things are getting weird. Things have been just objectively and subjectively insane since the beginning of 2020. What a shift that was. Holy bajole, how are you? We're going to do a Shadow Work episode. It feels like one of those. It's a lot of themes. I was on this podcast, Life Economy. I think it's coming out the audio version in a couple of weeks, but I think there's a Facebook Live version of it, and these guys were great.

Summer and Cosmo, really sweet people, and there was a part where I think summer asked me, "What do you actually do for Shadow Work?" We hear everyone saying, "You got to do Shadow Work," and I was saying, "One of the things that bothers me most is when people pay lip service to Shadow Work." You got to confront your Shadow, and it sounds amazing. It sounds kind of cool and badass, and it is when you really get into it. But also what it's like is you actually have to go through all this shit that is your Shadow, which is usually uncomfortable stuff for a lot of people until they figure out a perspective on it that maybe is a little bit healthier and doesn't kind of negate and push things away.

But anyway, we're gonna do a lot of Shadow Work stuff in this episode. It's just the energy. I think Mars is going retrograde now. It's still in Aries, it's home sign, but very aggressive, war-like. I think there's Saturn, Mars, is that still a thing that's going on? Is there an opposition? I think that's, it's just, yeah. I think it might be a square. It's just fucking intense, and that energy of kind of like the learn your lesson in the world-type shit and like wanting to move and kind of transcend that, but not being able to do it as quickly as possible. That type of energy has been going around a lot, and I think the challenge, not the challenge, but like the task area is to not get off track and not lose your shit for too long.

And then if you do lose your shit, I say for too long 'cause you've lost my shit a fair amount of times in the past couple of weeks, it's, you know, there's a lot going on. So you can also forgive yourself without being too lax and just being like, you know, whatever, whatever's gonna happen, it's no big deal. Which ultimately is true, but you wanna still be aware of what's going on so you don't, you know, miss something. You know, basically, how do you cultivate a lot of awareness and still take accountability for what you're doing, but not be too hard on yourself? That's that fine line that I think a lot of people feels difficult to achieve, and really it's just the feeling of being like, "Oh, I do that.

"I naturally gravitate towards that." And once you instill that type of belief and confidence and faith, and that's how things actually work, then you can actually start using these experiences rather than kind of like intense fucking things that bind and ruin your life, which sometimes it can feel like that. Sometimes we just wanna feel that too. You know, it's a part of being human and having these emotions. I'm probably a part of also not being like, this is something that I feel like humans, non-humans also go through, right? It's an emotional wave that some of us put ourselves through. For whatever reason, I don't know.

It's fun, it's cool, I guess, at the end of the day. Can you maintain that perspective? So we're gonna talk about shadow work. Let's talk about some other stuff before we get into that, 'cause I have a few things. I have very little written down. It's gonna be a pretty rambly episode. It's gonna be mainly, you know, for me coming into contact with energies that I absolutely felt that I had completely transcended and then noticed that there are still echoes and shadows of it that if not kind of dealt with it and looked at, honestly, could actually not go away and just kind of hide until the right opportunity.

And these are things like, you know, anger, fear, rage, even, these types of things. And if you look at your astrological chart, I really just, like, the astrology stuff right now is just so fucking on point. It's like really like, it's like, that's my weather at this point. I'd rather look at an astrological reading or breakdown of what's going on than like actually the weather outside. That's nice too, who also like the weather, but I don't watch that or look at that too much anymore. I definitely care about the astrology of what's going on. And it's like everyone's been predicting for a long time that 2020 is gonna be this crazy year.

I just think people are embedded with that idea, right? It just seems like people chose to incarnate in this timeline, like recognize the specialness of what is happening, what we're in the middle of. And, you know, potentially if you can see it, what the likely outcome is for this timeline. This is also where I'll take a little bit, this is also where I'll take the opportunity to say, like, this is still the best timeline. Like if you're listening to this, you're still on the best timeline. The more you can remember that, regardless of what your external circumstances are saying or showing you, 'cause those are your sensory input, it's not as powerful as your imagination, your consciousness, your awareness.

As long as you can remember that, like, you good, you're totally good. Okay, here's a couple things, then we'll get into the shadow stuff. Now we'll got our thing. Really, this is good, that's all I can say. Because of your belief in external things, you think power into them by transferring the power that you are to the external thing. Realize you yourself or the power you have mistakenly given to outer conditions. This is super important. If you don't understand that, there will always be something external to you that you think is running your life. And that's like, what's the Carl Jung thing?

Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you'll call it fate. And that's really what's going on here. So this also has directly a lot to do with shadow work because that's what this is. Shadow doesn't necessarily mean bad, right? We perceive it as bad, which is often why it falls into the shadows 'cause we've relegated it. It's like dungeon in our mind that we can't deal with a lot of these things. But truthfully, those are the things that show us that we actually have the most power to transcend things that previously bound us. And really latching onto that is like a worthy endeavor and something that I think everyone should aspire to, not because it's like some right thing to do because when you actually do it, it feels good.

You can actually feel qualitatively progress being made as an individual being like, oh yeah, I actually understand this shit now. So that's pretty cool. I think that's a good thing for people to work on. But back to the Neville Goddard quote, like don't give your power to something out there. That means a person, conditions, situations, how much money is in your bank account at the time that you're perceiving with your senses. None of these things really recognize that you, your awareness, your belief in what is happening is actually shaping your reality. And if you're just jumping into this podcast and this is sounding like too fucking easy, just you have to test it.

That's the only thing that I would ask that I think anyone would ask. You don't have to believe anything that any type of like manifesting thing, I haven't listened to it yet, but yeah, but I'm really, I said yes, I haven't listened to it yet, but Jess is episode on manifesting. I'm looking forward to it. I saw a lot of people posting about it. And she spoke, I didn't even listen to it. This is an adjacent thing. I don't know what is. I haven't listened to it, but I saw a lot of people posting the quote that whatever you, it's called paying attention for a reason 'cause you're investing your time and your awareness and you're creating something from that.

And that's really how all of this shit works. We think about things that are in our immediate surroundings that would theoretically alleviate stuff, states that we don't wanna be in, right? Legitimately, maybe that we wanna feel a little bit, but we don't wanna say stuck in. We look at those like immediate things that we think would improve those. And as you go and prove to yourself that yes, that is actually how things work. A lot of people start with money. A lot of people start with relationships and think, all right, this thing. And it very well may be the thing that unlocks like the key to your eternal happiness, but it's still gonna be a process of evolving and growing through that, right?

Once you're done evolving and growing, you die. And you probably have a pretty clear awareness most of the time that this is something you're doing. You're either cutting against your values or doing something that doesn't feel authentic, or you've just made the decision that you're like, all right, I'm done with this game. Okay, I think I covered that one pretty good. Here's another one. Claim yourself to be the thing desired. Claim it in consciousness, not in words. And consciousness will reward you with your claim. This is like the whole art of prayer thing, right? If you're actually doing this, you're just claiming something you're like, this is what's going on.

This is what's happening. This is how things work. And if you really understand that, you will find that yes, indeed, this is how things work. This goes back to what I was trying to say before, and I lost my train of thought, 'cause I'm high. Have I mentioned that I got smoked weed again? In the United States, holy shit. It's fucking great. I forgot about smoking weed. It's a good thing. I'm glad I get to do it and love it. It's pretty wonderful. But yeah, if you can empirically prove this shit to yourself, that I think should satisfy pretty much everyone on the spectrum of what they wanna believe in, right?

If you wanna believe that things are just biologically dictated and that consciousness doesn't really have an impact, I doubt you're listening to this podcast at this point. But if that's what you believe, you still have a way of testing it, right? And it doesn't have to be through a laboratory. You can keep records of what's going on, but you try certain things with an open mind and an open perspective. And if things keep happening, at a certain point the direct experience will prove to you something, it could be years, it could be decades, it could be lives. But at a certain point, you'll be like, all right, this is it, I get it.

So essentially, it's the same process over and over again. You conceive of yourself to be a certain way. You reshape that kind of every second of every day, in between seconds, you're constantly stitching together this identity. And as you do this, you basically are going to be doing it in a way that is convincing you you're a solid entity going through something. But when you dissolve that and kind of recognize what's actually going on, you have this kind of in between point, this like nexus point, this meeting point, like on a Venn diagram where you can implant the types of realities you wanna live in.

And really start to think about what you want in those realities. If you actually could get whatever you want, legitimately, what would you do? What would it look like? How would you feel? Those are the states of consciousness that you basically wanna live in. Those are worthwhile. Those will be the things that actually carry and propel you forward because they're gonna be such a shift emotionally, psychologically, spiritually, that you're gonna be like, all right, I get it. And you're also claiming this for yourself. And this can sound kind of like ruggedly individualistic and like, you know, if there's not this interconnectedness and that has nothing to do with not being connected with everyone.

Essentially, you are a facet of everyone. They're a reflection of you. You're a reflection of them. But your level of being, your level of awareness that you're actually creating this version of reality. You're pulling it from like the infinite space of what's going on. That's gonna be the thing that actually gives you kind of, I wanna say the power or the control to actually do this in a way that feels good to you and still know that you're a good person. This is why we use this stuff lovingly. That's basically the whole situation. If you use it lovingly, if you use it for your best outcome, regardless of what that looks like, you'd usually end up with pretty positive results.

If you use it to try to manipulate people, it's not that this can't work, right? This is something that I think is a little disheartening to people who are overly optimistic about it at first. Like there's no rule that says you have to use imagining or your belief or your prayers or your faith for like good stuff in only a positive way. You could be really angry and use it aggressively, knowingly, and it's very destructive. And it's not to say that's bad. There could be a perfect place in reality. There is, 'cause everything is perfect at the end of the day. Where it fits in, but if it's not comfortable for you and you don't like to do it, then it's worth investigating what is that feeding?

Why are you doing it? And this is where we get back into the shadow work stuff. So I've noticed a lot of people are bringing up old patterns that they feel like they've transcended but are kind of reviewing them at this point in 2020 to kind of weed out what is there, what's not productive, what's comfortable, what's not comfortable. And there's a lot of boundary testing, there's a lot of clashing going on, not just in personal relationships, but also big entities fighting with each other, whether it's politically or globally or economically. There's a lot of things going on in confrontation with each other.

And if we look at this as a bad thing that is only destructive and there's so much conflict, think of it like five of wands energy in the tarot, like the people almost coming to blows are arguably striking each other and like kind of a melee, that's like an energy that a lot of people would be like, I don't know if how long I wanna be in that. Now, in the grand scheme of things, we're probably not in this for at least this acutely. I don't think for more than another four or five months, that sounds long, that sounds super long. But it is a necessary component of kind of destroying aspects of reality that are no longer serving people.

And when I say people like individuals, if they're like, I don't like this, this isn't something I wanna participate in, that's basically all it takes to kind of change a system. And I don't, it can be either as metaphysical and woo-ee as you want or as practical and like analytical as you want. But either way, everyone does have that power and ability to kind of shape their reality. So as we're doing this, a lot of shit is gonna come up. For me, I think I've spoken about this, a fair amount throughout the podcast, even before I kind of really knew what I was doing with shadow work. And again, shadow work will feel like shit is coming, like you're going through it.

You're going through like painful shit. You're being versions of yourself that maybe you don't wanna be. You're playing out patterns that you can recognize maybe even aren't yours that you've picked up and you just kind of are a slave to them for a certain period of time. But you're not going through these things to show you that this is something that's always gonna happen. If you start to believe that, you start to bind yourself to a certain reality. And that's possible. That's cool. A lot of people do that. They crystallize into versions of themselves. There's nothing wrong with that, especially if it's a very cool version.

But if it's holding you back, that's not me with the best thing to do. So before it gets to that point, you can be like, what is going on here? So for me, this is what it's look like. And I'm trying to make a conscious and subconscious effort to kind of deal with this behavior. Whatever that looks like, whatever that plays out in this reality is looking like I'm open to. But like, when I'm driving, this is like the constant refrain from every partner I've ever had is I'm kind of willing to take when I drive. Not in like a dangerous, too fast, aggressive way. But I got comments for everything. I'm very hyper aware of what's going on in the road.

And this is anywhere from the range of exhausting to super fucking annoying for the person next to me. Apparently, for me, it's normal, it's just how I kind of have, you know, learned to drive and just, you know, it's how I, in my mind, stay safe. But this is a behavior that now I've gotten enough feedback from, from enough people that I love and respect that this is probably an issue that's worth investigating at the very least. And what I've noticed in this is I kind of drill closer to the idea of what's going on there is a lot of different things come up related to things that would be seemingly unrelated, right?

I think this is a reason that Freud was pretty popular. And a lot of, you know, later Jungi and stuff was popular. It's like, if you start with mother and father as archetypes as masculine and feminine energies and then as actual roles crystallized in people's lives, typically, there's a lot there. There's just a lot of energy where you can deduce kind of where things are coming from and patterns develop from. And you can get insights subconsciously archetypally to kind of get to the root of these energies. So for me, what I realized was like, when I really lose it in a car, which is infrequent now, but it did happen in Turkey once, driving from Baudram, you know, I really fucking get mad and like I say fucking horrible shit to people who I feel are demonstrating unsafe behavior if someone almost hits me or like they cut me off or something, really bad shit.

So basically, I feel horrible after I say it, I feel really bad, like I kind of go into this like vulnerable emotional state where I realize like how powerless I actually, because it's not a very powerful thing to do or like scream at someone driving. Do you know what I mean? It's not like you're really in control of your reality. You're nailing it. But what it does do is it provides me an opportunity to be like shit, I have lost calibration a little bit. I think this is something I would not want to deal with anymore. And so when I find those opportunities, luckily I have a partner who is more than patient and forgiving to kind of deal with these things, but it's also ultimately up to me, whether I actually want to prioritize and deal with these things.

That's a big part of this. Sometimes there's a behavior that you just haven't either acknowledged or maybe you just want to construct a narrative and it's gonna work for you that isn't an issue or you don't see it as an issue where other people could be saying it. And so I'm not saying every single time someone is reflecting back to you that you have a problem in that area. It's just use it as relative feedback, relatively helpful feedback as a reflection of you. This is how I look at other people, not in like a, through me, everyone is me in like this weird fucking creepy way, but just recognizing their running energies that I'm resonating with, through them, through me.

And if you can kind of understand that, then you probably have a better degree of patience and understanding for people around you and yourself, which is just like a good way of navigating life. Okay, so that's a few reasons to do shadow work. I don't know why I'm, okay, no, I'm talking about personal issues. Also, for me, I'm the type of person who goes like very high extremes. I'm sure you can tell from this podcast, like I get very excited about things, I get very passionate about things, but that also means I have the tendency to really get fucking emotional about things because I have that ability to go like very far to the either extreme.

And not in like a bipolar way, it was labeled bipolar at one point, but just like in terms of feeling the depth of feeling. One of the things that's helped me tremendously is recognizing when I'm doing that and then choosing the duration of time that I wanna stay in that state. If I recognize it's a choice to feel kind of like sad or hurt or upset or angry, if I really recognize it as a choice, then that at least gives me the platform to deal with duration. How long do I wanna stay in that? Is there something valuable there for me? You could use it creatively. There's tons of things that you can do with these states.

They're not bad. If you label them as bad, you're probably gonna be bound to them. But if you say, all right, I just wanna be in it for a little bit or you're like, no, I'm done with that one. Doesn't feel great to me. Not looking good, not dealing with it. Not in like a, I don't wanna deal with it, but just like, I think I'm done with that type of shit. Not super interesting to me. Those are all valid things to look at when the similar types of patterns evolve or show themselves in your lives. And in your relationships, right? That's like the most important aspect. Like you wanna use these things, use people in your life, use situations in your life, even zooming out to political situations.

If you're getting bound by these things, there's usually an imbalance. Unless you're consciously choosing it because you like it and you know why you like it energetically and like all of the ways that check the boxes for you, just start to question certain behaviors. I think that's gonna be a big theme of what's going on, especially in 2021, is A, a lot of people will have come to the realization that reality works by whatever you focus your attention on, that is actually created, you can use your feelings in a very powerful way because of that. And then these bigger questions of like, okay, how do I use this?

What are the pitfalls? Where are that? Again, the pitfalls don't really exist if you use it lovingly, if you apply the golden rule. So those are things that you can basically have handled just from like an ethical or moral standpoint. And when you do that, you start to develop the kind of confidence and freedom to really like use this shit like a badass and do things you actually have always wanted to do in your life and not feel restricted because you don't feel worthy, you don't feel deserving. And like those are things that just, A, as a fact, aren't true of anyone, period. So to even waste time thinking about them is just like, it eats up too much of your time and your mind.

And that's what like framing your mind is about. It's just like free up some space. I've spoken about this before. It's a pretty awesome thing to do. Okay, let's do a little Turkey recap. All right, I think I've spoken about several of the death defying escapades that happened in Turkey. There is a fire also at another point, a forest fire that came really close. We were gonna ride it out, but then it got too smoky and we had to go. It's a wild place. I highly recommend it. A lot of people are asking me, you know, like what? What was it like? I'm still decompressing and kind of like reviewing it.

Denise's family is amazing. They're incredibly nice people. The last day we were there, there was like the biggest Derby, horse racing Derby in Turkey. It was a big deal. And there's this horse called a victory. And, you know, this is Denise's dad and mom's horse. And it was, I've only been to one race. This was it. And it's surreal because there's no audience. There's no crowd because of Corona there. And basically, this horse came out and like the last, you know, little bit of the race, like 400 meters of the race just like tore up and won the race and it was incredibly exciting. And I don't use the imagination technique like all of the time, but I did use it for that.

I know everyone was kind of imagining the same thing. And to see it happen in such like a dramatic way, it's like the little things like that that really show you that there is a way to approach reality where you actually accept that this is how things work. And you can, A, are capable of basically summoning for the reality you wanna enjoy. And B, like you're basically designed to do that. And I love that the horse's name was called a victory. And I just think that's fucking awesome. That's basically the stage that we're at. If you're ready to accept victory, if you're ready to accept that you're really capable of doing the things you wanted to do in your life, no matter what it is, and then take like an honest, heartfelt approach to it, like it's gonna happen, you know?

And I don't know if it's always been like this in history, or it's been this easy. It seems like the wheels are kind of greased in this one. Like we're ready to go, you know? Jamaica's got a bub sled team. I don't know what made me think of that, but basically we're ready to go, ready to go down the fucking Bob sled. It's gonna be super intense. It's not to say there's not objective suffering and turmoil in the world. No, like I mean, far be it for me to say that. It's just deal with your inner stuff first. When you straighten that stuff out, the likelihood of you kind of getting unhinged with external things is probably like, that value goes way down.

It's easier to deal with shit. That doesn't really seem like it concerns you so much, even if it's a big deal to a lot of people, and you'll figure out a platform in which to discuss those things with people. But yeah, Turkey was fucking wild. The food there is incredible. Just the geography is amazing. The Mediterranean Sea is just, I don't even know how to describe it. And you know, a lot of people were looking at this and they're like, you know, how are you traveling internationally, even as a US citizen, how is this possible? And like, I don't know what people think, but at least for me, what it feels like is, my imagination is batting 1,000.

Like I'm really fucking believing this shit and it's happening and it's not logically thought about. That's one of the reasons I think I have so much confidence in this is like, if I was plotting this out in a very specific way, I don't know there would be as enjoyable as just being like, wow, another one, another one. Holy shit. And I think this should just be a testament that like whatever it is you're getting, I'm getting more and more emails from not only the people who are getting readings, but just people who send me emails after like asking me to imagine something for them. You know, they're like, oh my God, it happened.

Oh my God, it happened in the craziest way. And I hope that everyone understands what they're doing there is really recognizing their own power, right? If I or anyone else has the ability to imagine something for someone and then it can become true, then you have that power too. When we all kind of wake up to that, you know, we're really gonna be in a powerful position, which again, it's coming up again, deal with the shadow work. You don't wanna wake up to this power and then start manifesting and creating realities for yourself that are tragic. Unless you're into that, if you're into that shit, then fucking have at it.

But you wanna probably enjoy your life to a high degree. At least the people I surround myself with or the way I engage with in life is I certainly don't cut myself off from emotions that are like heavy or painful sometimes. I'm beginning to actually appreciate that. I appreciate that energy as like an effective teacher, but you know, it's still on fun and cool and fun. (laughs) That's like pretty much a good axiom for how to deal with this stuff. And you know, I don't know what else there is to say about it. Like just recognize at this point, literally, whatever you believe to be true, like it's that simple, will actually come to pass.

And you can delay it, you can question it, you can doubt it, which is just essentially delaying the process and sometimes it's not even delaying it. Sometimes it's just something you have to go through and you need to deal with, but you don't have to. And if you have shadow stuff that's really like intense, you know, just make the commitment inside. Imagine the end of having dealt with it. That doesn't mean you'll necessarily be saved of all experiences of it, but I know I do a lot of shadow work in the dreams. And it's not particularly comfortable, by the way. I've woken up from plenty of dreams in the past month where I'm like, holy shit, that one's still with me for like a good chunk of the day.

So I mean, there's a lot of ways to process this stuff. Find the one, make a deal with yourself that you're gonna do the one that feels best for you, but allows you to honestly do it. And then you'll start doing it. And again, what it's gonna look like is like, shit will probably happen in your life that makes you deal with it. And you're gonna get those opportunities. Make sure you made that deal that you're gonna have the support system internally and whatever it needs to look like externally from your kind of belief in that. So like boo you during these circumstances. That's been incredibly helpful for me in a lot of situations that are objectively difficult.

I got a good question in the Patreon that I'll address here. We do the Q and A twice a month in there, but someone's like, hey, I'm about to be a new dad. I have all these feelings about being a new dad. You're a dad. I don't hear you talk about fatherhood that much. And it's true. I don't talk about fatherhood that much. For a few reasons. One, I've been away from my kids for a substantial period of time over the past two months. But also, a lot of people are just figuring out my stance on being a father is the same as being like a good friend who cares about people in their lives, which is you can offer them support and help and guidance as they wanna take it.

If you really trust the person, allow them to kind of find their own way, especially even if they're a young kid, I think that's really a helpful thing. I also remember what it was like when I was a kid and the things that I liked and I responded to. And maybe some of them weren't traditionally accepted. You know what I mean? Maybe it wasn't something that a little kid should be doing. Maybe you shouldn't be introspective and quiet and not answer questions or just kind of have an internal world. So I basically allow whatever kids. My older kid, Eli, he's very emotionally sensitive, but really outgoing and social and engages with people, but also has his internal worlds.

And it's always been very cool, internally dealing with this stuff. I'm gonna have Eli on in the next couple of weeks. So come on for an intro. He's super fucking cool, just totally badass, but he's really got his inner worlds. The younger one, Gabe, you could tell just like right from the beginning that he's like really outgoing. Like he's just got like an exuberant personality. He's engaging with the world. Like there's already like a really like keen awareness and how to engage with the world there. So like, I don't, I think fatherhood is different for every situation that you would find yourself in, but as long as you're kind of there as a loving support and make sure that your kids know that you love them and are there for them, whatever they need something, I think that's kind of my stance on fatherhood.

You know, in terms of specific tips, I don't really gait behavior. I mean, I don't like go crazy in front of my kids. Like I don't, I'm not a drinker. I don't know. Like a lot of people are like, do you smoke weed in front of your kids? Like, no, that opportunity doesn't really arise, but I don't think it's like the worst thing to do. I don't think it's worse than someone having like a beer in front of their kids, but I don't have like strong parenting stances that aren't kind of like, I intuitively feel what's good for the kid. And sometimes you have to make the kids, sometimes you have to make hard decisions.

Like I left, you know, a marriage with a young kid, two young kids, one very young, and it was a really difficult decision. I had nothing to do with my ex being a bad person or me being a bad person, although I objectively look like a shithead in a lot of ways. But this was also a way of me doing really intense shadow work. Like I had to do hard things. I had to be the villain in this case and do something that objectively looks bad, but ultimately I know it's gonna be best for the kids, for my ex, for me. And that's really like sometimes those things aren't easy to do, and we look at them and we go, oh shit, like this makes me a bad person, but that can be just shadow work.

That's something that you can maybe actually see that when you do it, but you do it authentically, and you do it from a place of love, that it's not actually a bad thing. It doesn't mean you won't have feelings about it. It doesn't mean you won't go through difficult experiences and situations, but it does mean you're gonna show yourself something about it. And I know after making that decision from a place of love, I truthfully, my life really started to get better in a way that I can't conceive. And it doesn't mean it's been 100% positive the whole time, but it means I'm kind of stupidly optimistic a lot of the times, 'cause I kind of recognize how this reality works for the most part.

I don't know everything. I know some shit. I know that's not a popular scene of people who are like, "Well, the true wisdom seekers are those who say they know nothing." And it's like, "Yeah, totally." I definitely know a very small fraction of what is possibly out there, like an infinitesimally small. I'm totally aware of that, acknowledging that, but I wasn't, "Oh, some shit." I'm gonna share that stuff. Kind of a dick if you don't. Oh, I know nothing. It's like, "Cool, you're giving me a tip or two?" So I kind of fall into the camp where I think we should be giving tips or two, and not making people bend over backwards to get those secrets or buy into an ideology.

I find that to be not super helpful. If you want to have fun, you want to have cool times, you can do that. That's cool. All right, what is this? What is this episode? What a weird one. I think we'll attack on the crypto thing that it's gonna be too jarring of a transition. We got a little shorty episode. Forgive me as I readjust to Eastern Time Zone. I think I beat jet lag? I don't know, I really don't know at this point. I think I did. It's a seven hour difference, the time zones. But it was a really great trip, guys. I do hope that if you're going through some shit, which if I use myself as a barometer, the shit is definitely a flowin'.

There's a lot of bouncing back, like oscillations, from like, "Wow, this is really pleasant to holy shit. "This is really intense." I think that's just strength, like expanding us and contracting us to kind of loosen. It's like giving birth to a new reality. That sounds super new, A.G. and hokey. But I really think that's what it's like. And say this is a doofus man who hasn't physically given birth, but that really does feel like what's going on. And it's these quick oscillations sometimes where we can feel like intense, like, "Oh, I'm totally getting this shit." It's amazing to be like, "Oh my God."

I fucked up. I fucked up. I did not, I did not a good job. So, basically, don't be too hard on yourself, but use those experiences as opportunities to really transcend some aspect of yourself that you know, you maybe isn't serving you, or maybe never served you, or maybe served you a little bit, and now it doesn't. You know, trying to find that proper perspective on that is certainly worthwhile. So, yeah, that's an episode. I'm back, baby. Gonna have some guests. I'm gonna see what I can realistically do. I still don't love the remote ones, but I think we can do some in-person ones over the next few weeks.

But, yeah, there's gonna be more stuff. Stuff's going on. We have the live stream coming soon for patrons. We're gonna have two this month. We're gonna have two smoke sessions. The first is tonight, Thursday, 7.20 p.m. Eastern. That's gonna be a Zoom smoke session. We do that. I'm finally back in the smoking saddle, loving that. So, that's tonight. Patreon is probably the coolest place to be right now, just 'cause of the Discord server with crypto sync. I just posted a recap of another intro talk for cryptocurrency, and then we'll be doing some more intermediate and advanced stuff in the coming weeks.

And again, the main selling point with that, just not that it needs to be sold for monetary gain from me, basically, you're gonna be plugged into a community of people who have been through a lot of different shit. This is what I was saying in the recent thing. I recorded there, or someone recorded it of me, which is very kind of them to do. You're just beating people who have a variety of different perspective on things, and sometimes you just go, oh, this person seems like they know what they're talking about. They taught me some shit. I can now research things and use my intuition. And we're in a world where this shit actually works.

It's kind of mind blowing, but it does work. It's pretty nuts. So anyway, that's going on over there. Readings are open. My sister sent me an email where they're gonna be, I think the 2021 readings are gonna start opening up in advance, and there's a whole thing that I have to read there, thanks, Tess. But those are cool. Those have been really great in Turkey. I'm finally back on a regular time zone. So at least, if I flaked on you, like, not flaked, but hit you up and be like, "Hey, I don't have Wi-Fi," or, "Hey, I'm on a boat," or, "Hey, I don't know what time it is." That shouldn't be happening anymore.

So I'm back to a regular schedule. So I know we have a lot of make-ups coming up, but other dates are opening up there. Those are fun. People like those. That's it. I think we've done an episode. What a hurt you. This feels like, also, by the way, if you're gonna travel internationally, if you're gonna travel at all, it's kind of a great time to do it. Everyone is abundantly safe. Everyone's wearing a mask. It's one of the few places where it's absolutely mandatory to do this, like, pretty much all of the time. It's very hygienic, and there's just no... None of the bullshit that comes with usually traveling, right?

It's really quick. It's really fast. Fluent to JFK. You don't have to circle, like, a million times. Usually when you fly into JFK, just write in. Boom, write in. Fucking right after a 10-hour flight. It was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. Write in. No wobblies from the turnings in the JFK. So anyway, it's kind of cool. I would say, like, be safe, be smart. Don't be silly about what you're doing. But don't be restricted in a way that makes you kind of not do the things that you maybe could take advantage of right now. That's all I'll say. It's certainly, I think, if you have that perspective and maintain that belief, it can work out for you, too.

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