Chaotic Opportunities

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All right, we're here. I'm gonna grab some water. (gentle music) (gentle music) All right, so do we start the video? (gentle music) I think we should. (gentle music) Oh, man, guys. See me? Hello. I'm gonna smoke some weed. (gentle music) How's everyone doing? We had a doozy tonight, guys. (gentle music) I'm not a commission, I was on vacation. It was my oldest son's birthday, then my wife's birthday, then the fair for the school, then the birthday party for my oldest son, then it's Mother's Day. It's been a cluster of luck. I call it the gauntlet. Every year it's gonna be like this. (gentle music)

But look, we have the cards. (gentle music) Not too shabby, right? We finally got it going. Moonstone, I don't know what this is. I don't know what that is. Lapis Lazuli. So we're gonna cover, oh, congrats on it for your birthdays. Happy birthday. We're gonna talk about a bunch of stuff. Some not really crypto related, but I don't know if you guys have been going through this cycle of kind of utter despair and then laughing at the ridiculousness of just how crazy everything is recently. It's like we're really winding up for some crazy shit. I mean, we're in the crazy shit. It's pure chaos, but it's been to another level.

I, it's such a frenetic manic energy that yeah, it can be personal, but it is a collective thing we're all going through right now. And I'd be remiss if I didn't point that out. It's just been so wild. So if you're feeling that energy and you're feeling kind of just overwhelmed, just take a step back and laugh at it at this point. It's all you can do. Personally, the financial stuff has been wild for me. Up 100K, down 100K, up 100K, down 100K. And just like wild swings. And it's just a reflection of just kind of the energy in general. I gotta say, like you're saying you've been happy too. I've also been incredibly happy.

Like it is not, you know, there are, there are down days of course, but overall like I've been really, really good. But the energy is just absolutely bad shit. And the despair comes in just because I think it's like a way we process some of this stuff. You know, there's just collectively, like I said, there's just something afoot and I think we're all trying to get our bearings on what that is. I don't have a clear sense. I will say as silly as this sounds, like spirit guides are definitely trying to communicate things to us right now. So if you have any semblance of awareness for who or what or how your spirit guides communicate to you, pay attention, oh, their solar flares are off the charts.

I didn't know that. That makes a lot of sense. It's just like it's been, I don't ever actually remember a period in life where it was this nuts. And that's really saying something 'cause I've had some wild rides in times, but you know, it's just one of those things. Like we go through these, we experience them, enjoy it as best as possible. I mean, there is the downtime, there is the relaxing that comes and I love that. You know, my vacation was that in a lot of ways, but I think we're really being asked to process a lot of, when I say past life stuff, I don't necessarily mean like you were Tibetan monk, you know, hundreds of years ago.

What I mean is it's like you process things cyclically, not only in this life that you would incarnate into and if experienced, but just there's a lot of collective karma, which is just energy, right? It's just, you could call it debt, you could call it just energy that needs to be worked through. Yeah, and wild is really fun, Grimms Express. Like it is really fun. It's not a bad thing. I think when it becomes uncomfortable and suffering late in is when we resist it, when we push back against it, when we really try to like control it in a way that just isn't helpful. So one thing I noticed for myself, and I wonder if you have any of these catch 22 type of situations in your life, like money for me is a very revelatory energy.

It's why I like crypto, it's why I like dealing with money. It really kind of exposes your core, your relationship to money can tell you a lot about yourself. And one of the things I realized I'd been doing is like, okay, well, you know, I'm gonna make all this money so then I can do what I want, which is the ultimate trap. And then I realized like, well, what do I wanna do? Well, I wanna have time and space for my family. I wanna create things. I wanna, you know, do the podcast. I wanna creatively express myself, make music. But I was like delaying that until I make money and making that kind of my priority and losing touch with the things that are actually important to me.

So like it was a catch 22. You're gonna make the money to do the things that you could do right now that doesn't make any sense. And this goes for everyone. Whatever you think you need to achieve or be able to have the ability to achieve what it is that you really wanna do, your true heart's desire, if you will, if we're gonna put it like that, I'll silly like. You know, that's just the game. It's a three card money. The card is not where you think it is or the coin is not where you think it is. So it's like, you gotta know that letting go, surrendering, relaxing into situations is not, they're not just platitudes.

They're not just mystical, navel-gazing bullshit. It really is an active process that you wanna learn how to cultivate that skill because you're going to need to do it over and over and over again. Honestly, death, right? It would be the final mortal aspect of letting go. That's what death is. It's a letting go not only of your physical body and your life, but the relationships, the energy, like all of these things that are weaved into the web of life, you know, you gotta let those go to either move on or whatever, just be dirt in the ground, I don't believe that. But I mean, this is an active process of surrender that we have the opportunity to practice throughout our lives.

And that's something that I think right now that's surrendering process is probably like the theme, right? If we look at the cards that came up, we'll start with the page of pentacles here, right? This is again, like starting that path of abundance, really focusing in on what it is that we wanna be doing in the material world, right? We have pentacles, that's the earth element. So in the world, right, what it is, your path, like this is a good time to focus on learning the things you need to learn to really pursue that path with joy, with equanimity, with passion, all of those things. And then we have the hermit here reminding us that like, this is solitude time as well.

Take time for yourself. Move slowly as you pursue your goals, your dreams, your desires, whatever they are. Don't move quickly right now. You have a little lantern in front of you that only allows you to see a little bit in front of you. But being alone with your thoughts, with your mind, with your emotions, this is an incredibly beneficial time to really work on that. And then we have the check-in with the emotions card the night of cups. That's again, taking that beat, letting your emotions bubble up and simmer before making major decisions, before crossing a spiritual or physical or material path.

Really pausing and getting in tune with what it is you want to be in tune with. And don't forget like that's your choice all weeks. It can sometimes feel like we're being pulled in so many different directions that the choice aspect is lost or not factoring in. It's not true. You always have that ability to home in on what it is you desire. Desire also it's been popping up. I don't know in which spiritual channels I've been tuning into, but it really gets just such a shitty rap. Like, did I get it? Attachment, right? Buddhism, non-attachment, cultivate that. And there's a logic behind that, right?

If you're not attached to things, they can't weigh you down. They can't interfere with the process of what it is you want to be doing. However, those desires give you some insight into what it is you want to be doing. That's why we honor them and we respect them and we love them. We don't push them away as some, you know, distorted aspect of being that's making us cling to some shit that's really not important. Sure, what is important, right? I mean, it's easy to say what material things are not important or vanish, you can't take anything with you. It's true, but like, do you live in the material world?

Do you live in the world where things may actually bring you some pleasure and happiness, even if it's fleeting who gives a fuck. What isn't fleeting? But really, again, being able to cultivate that sense of surrender, letting go, laughing at how, fucking ridiculous everything is right now. There is not a thing that isn't ridiculous right now. Crypto is the apex of the ridiculousness, what's been going on with the meme coins. But again, a reflection of this frenetic energy that is just dominating almost every area of life. I say this from a personal standpoint, but I also know and speaking with others and just witnessing what's going on with other people, this is the vibe right now.

There's very little solid ground to hang on to right now and embracing that as kind of a philosophy that yeah, you're falling through the air. That's the bad news, the good news is you know, I mean, the bad news is you don't have to perish it, perish it, ha ha, parachute. You're free falling, you're like link in the new Zelda, which is amazing, fallen through the fucking sky. The good news is there's no ground. You're never gonna smash into the ground. We thank the wise Cho Giam Trungpa for that quote, Tibetan contemporary Buddhist Mesta, and that's true. So as we continue our free fall through eternity and time and space, you got some time as you're falling.

What is it here that you're really trying to do? What would you like to do that you're not doing? What are the things you're not doing because you're afraid of them? This is the time to focus on that, like truly. And I say this not only as a reminder, but as like an affirmation for everyone to really put this at the forefront of your minds. Let it sink into your subconscious, of course. But really like let it, let it percolate. What is it? What do you wanna do? There's something, there's probably many things, but what is that thing? You know what I'm talking about? What is that thing? And you may not know.

And I wanna be clear, it's okay to not know. There's nothing wrong with not knowing. Now, do you wanna figure it out? Yeah, fuck yeah you do, of course. Don't be a dingus, but it's okay to live in the space of not knowing. That's a really powerful space sometimes. It's also a very loose state of mind, a flexible state of mind that is essential. Beginner's mind, child's mind, whatever you wanna call it. The trick right is to fix your destination in some sense of the word, but to loosely and lightly approach that destination. Not make it this crazy itinerary journey of fucking shit. I mean listen, if that's your bag, if that's what you're into, buy all meats.

I'm not here to tell people how to live their lives, God. I'll let you know when I got mine fucking totally the way I want it, but that's the beauty too, right? Like you ever notice like you really wanted something, you get the thing and then whoa, lo and behold, there's something else that you want. That's the game, if that's painful for you, if that creates suffering, I have bad news. Ah, that don't end. Yeah, you could play the spiritual master enlightenment game. You're gonna fucking go off into a cave there, meditate your way into cosmic bliss, good luck. I wish you good luck and the best of outcomes.

You're probably not gonna do that because the truth is the people I speak to myself we're in the fucking world. We call it the world of the householder, right whether you have a house or not, do you have a family or not, that is what we are doing. Chances are you were born in a country where you have internet access. Oh, hey Zelda. Oh, we're listening to a Zelda music by the by. It's just the by I'm telling you this new Zelda. It's like, it's too good. It's too good. It's too good. And when I say it's too good. I mean, it's too good. It's like painful. How good it is. I know. Tis which it is. Don't know what to tell you.

But yeah, I get like, I just I really do want to remind you that if you're feeling the craziness of the energy just take a step back and laugh at that shit. I've been oscillating. Damn near any given day of the past couple of weeks between utter despair, hopelessness. I don't live in that space for very long. And then just literally laughing at how ridiculous it is. How fucking silly goofy wonky. That's like good. It's good. Like people don't like that 'cause it doesn't allow us to have like that narrative of that. Oh, well, this is the way things work. It's a logical process. And this is why things happen.

And this is why I think you can't do that anymore. Or they want to call it fake news or the distortion of reality or facts or the post truth era, whatever. It's a blessing. Because that's a more accurate reflection and description of what life is. Whatever we call life, that's closer to what it is than these narratives of this is the way things work because that's why the systems are set up that way to facilitate them. People look at economic systems collapsing or straining or buckling, whatever you want to say. And that can be a very scary thought. You look at the thing I was talking about a couple of weeks ago, the AI, right?

Existential threats from AI. Ooh, how scary, how terrifying. You're gonna live your life in fear event? No. It's just like these are things to propel us towards like, what would you do if you knew you only had a year to live? You don't, you have more, don't worry. But let's say you did. Try to put yourself in that mindset without going to a place where you really believe you only have a year to live. What are the things you'd be doing? What are the things you'd be pursuing? What type of relationships would you be trying to cultivate? What dreams have you put off because there's time later to do those, right?

I know this shit is so like platitudes and the hokey and new age mysticism bullshit, but it's not like this is the time for them. I don't talk about this all the time. I don't say these things all the time. I say them now because we are entering and are in the middle of such a transitionary period in the collective in our own lives that to miss this opportunity, to pretend that everything is the same, to pretend that it means impossible, right? But to pretend the status quo will continue forever. It's just you're deluding yourself at the end of the day and play whatever game you need to play to move through that gracefully, right?

If that's computer non-attachment, if it's eschewing the ways of the world and all that comes with it, so you can focus just on your spiritual light body and take in energy by putting your ass at the sun. We know about that, right? The anal, you put your ass in the sun, you get energy that way. But cool, but if you like participating in culture, if you like participating in life, there ain't nothing wrong with that. Don't get caught up. Don't get so caught up that you lose sight of your immediate reality and your relationships. So preachy today, no, Jesus fucking Christ. But you know what I'm saying?

Like just chill, relax, smoke some weed if you can. Do the things you need to do to get yourself in the head space that allow you to see the hilarity amidst the chaos, right? That's what the game is. And things will continue to get more chaotic, right? I don't mean that in a bad way. I don't mean that in like the impending tower is collapsing if we're looking at tarot. But chaos, if we could make a leveraged bet on whether chaos would go up. Can you tell that I've been a leverage trading on mexie? Yeah, I would take that bet pretty confidently. I'd slam the fucking leverage to 200X and say, yeah, more chaos, it's going up.

Chaos, though, is such opportunity. It's such a defragmentization of reality that amidst those gaps, those kind of in between spaces, that's where the magic is, if I can say that. Right, that's where the opportunity is. That's where the letting go of old versions of self exists, those things. So we are grateful for the chaos. We like order, too. I mean, who doesn't like order? If you went to a restaurant and ordered something to eat and they just brought you a completely different thing, that would suck unless that thing was good. And then you'd be like, oh, wow. But for the most part, order is good, too.

We don't shit on order. That balance, that equanimity is incredibly important on the flip side of that is sometimes balance is not what's happening. Sometimes that's even not what's called for. You should try to develop a way to stay in touch with the deepest aspects of your being so you can navigate that, again, gracefully. That's what we're trying to do. You're going to navigate it no matter what. Can I make that clear? Like, you're doing it. My favorite question is, well, how do I manifest? You're doing it. You mean, how do you manifest things that you want that maybe aren't happening right now?

Sure. But you're always doing it. Your imagination is always running. Even when you're sleeping, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Familiar with dreams? It's always running. So take the reins, jump on your fucking horse, set your destination, tell Epona where to go. Again, there's just going to be Zelda references forever. Like, at least for the next month while I plow through Tears of the Kingdom and I'm a completionist. I will get every goddamn Chorox seed that's out there. By the way, I'll be streaming. I'm getting the cables and adapters to be able to stream for my Switch, which is a slightly more complicated process than from, say, the PS5.

I want to have it all set up with the mic and stuff, just because it's fun. I'd like to be able to share that experience. I have a good time. You don't have to watch. I'm not forcing you to do anything, but I am going to stream Tears of the Kingdom just because that's what I'm going to be doing. So I might as well put it on the fucking internet. I don't know, I'm having a good time. Like I said, you know, yeah, and as Grim's Empress pointed out, like, you know, it's, I've been pretty happy too. I would say the highs are as high as they've been, especially in the realm of family. Listen, don't forget to check your chart.

Also, not a big announcement, my sister kind of validated this one for me too. I think I'm moving to Sidereal. I think I'm moving to Sidereal, Vedic Astrology. It's making a fuckload of sense right now to me. I love Tropical. It's what I've predominantly used to look at the charts and analyze the charts. But Sidereal is speaking to me big time. So I look forward to delving into that. Actually, that reminds me, yeah, I gotta get her on. My friend who is really turning into quite the adept in the realm of Vedic Astrology. There's just something, it's tugging. Three, four years ago, normal, quote unquote tropical astrology really like captured my attention.

Right before that happened, I was like, yeah, kind of moving around and playing around a little bit. That's what Vedic Astrology is doing right now. Like clear, loud message, receive spirit guides. Again, to go to the spirit guides, you should be able to have some sense of when that line of communication is clear. And we don't know what I'm talking about. You can actively use the imaginal techniques to get in touch with spirit guides. But, you know, your spirit guides are a reflection of you. I don't wanna make them seem like they're completely separate beings at their core. They're not, but everything is one at the end of the day.

So we know that is just like an axiom that's true. But, you know, you do have energetic beings and helpers. Just as there are people in this world that we interact with and are real, even if it is just kind of a psychic projection of whatever we're doing here, your spirit guides and beings are real as well. So, I don't know, explore that. Things are loose right now. Things are open. Streams of energy are wide open. The portals are fucking, the Stargate portals, like those things are on all over the place. The beings and energies are just flowing through them. If you can imagine that or feel that or picture that, that's the best metaphor I could give.

You know, Stargate, when the fucking thing opens up and you walk through and you go to a different planet, that's in the universe galaxy, whatever it is, that's what's happening right now. And it's not gonna like, it can be uncomfortable. It's like a diamond under pressure type five. You will be squashed down until you go, you know what, I relent, I'm a diamond. I'm not a piece of coal. I relent, I give up, all right, I'm awesome, I get it. That's kind of the vibe. Try to feel your way into that. All right, I'm fucking amazing, I get it. That, you know what I mean? Not like, I'm fucking awesome, I'm the best.

Nope, nope, nope. It's like acceptance that you're awesome. Do you understand like the acceptance aspect of that, that's imagination, that's manifestation. Mm, right, the acceptance. Just like the certain fact that it is so. I am that I am, right? It is, it also reminds me of Popeye. It's like an ancient Vedic kind of, you know, spiritual thing and it's like, I am Popeye. I am what I am, but it really is like, just knowing, right, knowing something. Not trying to convince yourself of something, not trying to trick yourself into believing something, not fighting against beliefs that don't line up with what your desires are, not that.

It's just like a plain acceptance. Like tomorrow is Sunday, right? Hey, you accept that. As a fact that is true, therefore it is Sunday. You can say, well, whether I believe that or not, it would still be Sunday. Okay, what the fuck is Sunday anyway? Someone wanna tell me? Yeah, exactly. What are any of these things? Break it down. What is it? What's time? What's any of this shit, really? Constructs that we use to help navigate the material aspect of the world. That's what they are. And they're useful and we appreciate them and we love them. We just don't wanna get so caught up in that stuff that we lose sight of the transcendent aspects of being alive.

Because that's, for me, that's what's fun. That's what's interesting. That's what's entertaining. It's enriching, right? That word enriching, I don't know. But that's like, I don't know, that's what I like in life. Some people may just like a routine process over and over again, repetitive. And that brings them epic bliss and euphoria and joy. Amazing, truthfully, amazing. I look at sometimes, you know, soon to be two-year-old, he loves trains. He fucking loves trains. And, you know, you look at it and you're just like, damn, that level of joy from the same fucking train. I live by a train station too.

There's an Amtrak comes by and he just goes, "Hape shit." You know, there are things in your life that also make you go ape shit, right? How good, by the way, are these lo-fi Zelda remixes? Especially if you're like a fan of the original music. So well done. I think the, yeah, it's Game Chops. So goddamn good, it's just really amazing. But yeah, that's, try to find the shit that makes you go ape shit, right? And it should be fun to go back to a little bit about the crypto stuff. I realized in the middle of last week, and this directly affects how much money I have and how much money I'm making, how much money I'm losing, is it was not fun.

I was jumping in and out of coins, making money sometimes, losing money. It just wasn't fun. And I realized I was trading my mental health for money or the prospect of money, not even money at times. Dumb move, don't ever do that. First of all, you won't win. It's the worst kind of vibrational frequency to go into infesting or making or manifesting. It's just not good. It's like being on full tilt. You don't win. You lose. So just pull back a little bit when you notice that's going on. But the easy antidote to that is just like, what's your barometer? For me, it's fun, for the most part. If something is, it doesn't mean you, like, listen, I've been having to do a lot of shit this week that wouldn't necessarily categorize as fun, but when you kind of surrender into the situation, there are hidden beauties all around things that you probably don't like doing.

And they just like, Perma exists there for you to kind of access and appreciate. Just, you know, that's all we're doing here. Tryin' out a little bit of fun, right? I mean, there's obviously much more complex and deep and cosmic aspects. Yeah, sure, I mean, that's fun for me, but like, fun. You feel me? But like, do you feel me? Fun, good, fun, good. We like the fun, we like the fun. What is this? This is wild, this is not lo-fi. Do a little lost woods. But, I don't know. What's been goin' on with you guys? We'll post some cards here and see what's goin' on. Anyone have any crazy fuckin' shit happen to 'em in the past two weeks?

It was just me. I doubt it. Now, let's post some cards. So we got here, like I said, Page of Pentacles, Hermit, Metacups. Let's see what we got, huh? Oh, boy. Our fuckin' friend, Ten of fuckin' panties. That's a recognition of something that's been staring you in the face. We like that. Oh, yes. And then, of course. Well, we put these kind of backwards. But we'll just say, we're starting here with the Ten of Pentacles. Again, this is legacy stuff. Legacy energy, building, not just like a dynasty, but like, you're looking back at your life. Like, what did you build? What did you accomplish? And feeling in tune with that.

And it's okay if you don't feel in tune with that right now, especially if you experience any type of loss or setbacks or failures, so to speak. It can really put you into that mindset. Now, coming up right after that, we have the Four of Cups. This is just like, hey man, there's been something staring you in the face. Really, it's right next to your fuckin' head, but you're just not looking at it 'cause you're looking at these things in front of you. Right off to the side is exactly what you've been looking for. And when we find it reversed, it's almost like a willingness to pursue that. A willingness to look at that thing that we haven't been looking at.

That may make our life much more ease, peace, joy, calm, confidence, right? And then we get, of course, our Seven of Cups, right? So this is choice. A lot of people are afraid of this card because there's so many different outcomes, so many possible paths, some are filled with demons and treachery and dragons, oh boy, oh my God. But it's not really like that. It should be looked at like, wow, look at how many different paths and options I have to reach where I'd like to go. So just keep in mind that like that's, these are choices that we get to make. Try not to feel overwhelmed by the choices, but, you know, I get it if you do, especially when there's things just going nuts, scrims express, empress, empress rather.

What's animal sanctuary? We should talk about it like that. It's an interesting kind of three card energy. We'll go the right way this time. Mmm, fairness related to material, thanks. Making sure we're feeding our emotions as well as our intellect. Ah, yes, our untenable choice, two of cups, right? Are we gonna look closer? I don't wanna like lose the frame. There's a crazy glare, right? Hold on, let me see if I can turn that off. (upbeat music) I guess it's just from the monitor. That's clearly not better. Yeah, I think it's just from the monitor behind me. I still gotta get my computer fixed.

I should probably do that. There's some fucking metaphor there for me. The visual aspect of my screen has been off and broken for a while. Where's the connection there? Also, I'd like to look at things in life kind of in that synchronicistic way. When something breaks for you or something's not working like, what is the aspect of it that's not working visually? Or you're not seeing something in front of you? Is your vision somewhat off both physically, but not necessarily physically, but like internally, spiritually? What are you missing? Animal sanctuary, go for that shit. I mean, you know, envision the dream, envision how you would feel doing it.

Also recognizing that running something like an animal sanctuary while incredibly noble and probably amazing and fulfilling probably isn't easy. It's probably there's a lot of stress and trauma even related to that, not personally necessarily, but you know, be aware of all of those things that encompass that and then you will realize it. And you're like, you know what, that shit is for me. I can truly believe. And then you go back to the acceptance thing. Accepted is true. That's what's being asked of you. That's what you're asking yourself constantly. Accept that these things are true. Don't force yourself to believe.

Don't trick yourself. Don't cajole yourself. Don't berate yourself. Just accept that they are true, which can be incredibly difficult when things are not going the way you imagine them to be. Or would like them to be. Judgment are good friend Gabriel. My second son's name is Gabriel, the angel of mercy. Showing people that, right? This is surrender at its core. Surrender to the higher power to your higher self. Naked too, right? Complete nothing to hide. No shame either. We're not shameful that there's vulnerability and nothing to hide, just fully allowing yourself to be taken down to the core elements of your being and who you are.

And being okay with like divine guidance, right? And do not make a God. Do not make a divine presence external to yourself. I will say that every time I mention anything related to the divine or God, it is you and always you. Do not forget that, please. The trickiest trick we can play on ourselves is believing there's some external or outside force that's pulling the strings of our lives. Nope, wrong. You fail the test if you believe that as Neville Goddard would say. You fail that test. And don't fail the test. It's a relatively silency. It's easy to kind of constantly remember that and act from that space, but you should be able to remind yourself of that routinely.

Now, trust me, that'll help as much as anything as much as anything in life, you know? Thanks for the follow by the way. Chaos Orchestra, this is today, an SLPR cell, a CLL. Chaos Orchestra, I love that name. And this is chaos. I mean, we're in the fucking nitty gritty, bo-bitty of this shit, but I don't know, I like chaos. I don't wanna say I wanna live in that space constantly, but you know, like I said, opportunity there. Your relationship to chaos will really reveal a lot about how your life feels that is going. Don't buck against that bull, Jenna. Ten of Cups, oh, but it's here. All right, Ten of Cups, right, Harmony, House on the Hill.

Again, not necessarily feeling that that's here right now. That's okay. And when I say not feeling, it just means actively in your life, right? We heard this one. I mean, I love it, don't get me wrong, but we don't heard it. What else we got, sir? What's a good one? Song of Storms is dope. I actually really like this one so much. I know we heard it before. And then we'll just let Chuff will take over. It just means it might not feel present. We may not see this right now. It doesn't mean it's not there, right? It doesn't mean that it's not there. It doesn't mean that it's never coming. It doesn't mean that it's not literally right there in your face.

So just don't give up on that. It's okay if it's, listen, you wouldn't know when it was there if you didn't know when it wasn't there. Does that make sense? I hope it does, because it's true. Some other reversal meanings though, like if we're looking at that, you're looking for that harmony. You're looking for that connection in relationships. You really like you're seeking that. Now, part of the problem with seeking is it implies that it's not already there. And that's a clue in terms of how to kind of reframe that in your life and hide that door right there. Perfect. So just remember that like seeking is good.

It gives us a navigational sense, a compass of where to be, but it can also kind of make things difficult for us 'cause it's not there, eh. And then right there could be some disconnection going on. And if you haven't felt a little bit disconnected recently, again, I don't know what to tell you. We're floating off, we're basically on like K-holes at this point, just like straight up. Dissociation. Here we go, King of Pentacles. Always there to save us recently. Right. Comfort, joy, ease. Really also appreciating the material aspects of the world and what it has to offer. A big time tourist energy, right?

We like that. Wealth, leadership, discipline, abundance, those are the words that come to mind when we look at the King of Pentacles. And right, like there's a lot of growth and energy and progress, right? We accept that, we like that. That's kind of like our antidote to the Ten of Pentacles. And she's been coming up a ton too, the Queen of Souls. Wise decisions that are made with clarity and swiftly. Again, you know, don't cut yourself off from your emotions when making those decisions. That's what I would say. Which is the downside or shadow side of the Queen of Swats. Right, it's, we don't want to cut ourselves off from our emotions.

Really, really accurate. I gotta say, oh, you're gonna start ketamine treatment. Good for you. I did cut my own ketamine treatment a couple years ago while I was going through a separation and subsequent divorce. I found it to be incredibly helpful, incredibly helpful. Ketamine therapy is obviously a little bit different. They're gonna give you higher doses in a clinical setting and maybe they're just giving you like things outpatient. That'd be cool too. I didn't ever want to do ketamine therapy per se just because I like to explore things in my own way. And I also feel like at least if it's in a clinical setting that would totally fuck with my vibe.

Just if you've done ketamine, you kind of like, you know, it's a wild fucking thing. Not a lot of other drugs out there like it. Incredibly loosening. You will disassociate from your life, from you. And where you go is anybody's guess, but I loved it. I mean, I think he'd give you some really good perspective on life. That's cool, you're doing it at home. Like, is someone coming to your house or did they just like give you like pills or nasal spray or lollipops or whatever? Like, is it a session, like a therapy session? Or is it like self dosage? I know people who do both. That's cool that it's a thing now too, by the way.

Like, that's really awesome. It's a very, you know, I'm very reticent to say that like there are wonder drugs. Like, I don't think mushrooms are a cure all. I don't even think weed is a cure all. Obviously, for some people, it's not helpful. Same thing with ketamine. I don't think any of these things buy in and of themselves, you know, are like the cure, but they can really be helpful. Ketamine in particular, for sure. Have to have a person there, but it is online therapy. That's cool. Yeah, they probably don't want you to freak out. Is it intravenous? I'm sorry for all the questions. I'm just genuinely interested in how this stuff is done nowadays.

I know it's pretty much right. It's like everywhere, especially in big cities. But yeah, is it intravenous? That would fuck my shit up. I don't like needles at all. Like, I couldn't, I mean, it's just like any, even in my, you know, just the ones they stick in the IV and you're like, hand, no way. It's too much for me. But yeah. No, sublingual pill, dissolving pill, cool. Do you know the dosage? Like, roughly? I'm sorry, imagine some 20 fucking questions here I know, but this is really cool. Sublingual's amazing. I'm sure they figured out that people won't fucking needles jammed into their fricking arm when they're going into a K-hole.

It's like, talk about set and setting. This is very cool though. I'm really interested to hear what your experiences are after this. What's LMA? Oh, yeah. (upbeat music) 250 milligrams, cool. I'm not really sure what that equates to. I guess, right? I mean, no one would do a cram of ketamine. I mean, I snorted it, so I don't know what the equivalent is with the sublingual dissolving pill, but I bet you get out there probably going to a K-hole. Don't fight it, is all I can say. Enjoy it, be in awe of kind of what transpires. Two pills, okay, gotcha. So, yeah, I think, wow, 500 milligrams total. Yeah, you're going to be out there in space.

I think it's great. Can I be honest? I haven't done it in so long. I'm kind of scared of it at this point again. I used to do it so casually, but you'll see what I mean. Like, if you do it and then you stop, it's like such a foreign experience. It's so, it takes you out of your mind. And just for me, it's been so long, you know, kids and all of this, I mean, I had kids before, but like, I don't know. I'll probably do it again soon. Maybe I'll join you in the coming weeks. And let me know what times you're doing it and we'll meet in the astral plane. Cool, yeah, I mean, again, I haven't done it in three years, but 17, yeah, things change, yeah.

I don't know how old you are now, but I can imagine you're not 17 anymore. And that's a long enough period of time that, you know, you're probably like, well, but yeah, it's like a little, it's a little scary to think about going out of your mind, 27. Cool, yeah, it's 10 years. I'm really interested to hear what happened. It's gonna be interesting. Oh, you're 37. Cool, I'm about to be 40 in July. It's wild to me. But yeah, I really am a fan of ketamine. I should put my money where my mouth is and do some. Time in place though. I mean, I think for me, one of the reasons I haven't really been able to, you gotta set some time apart.

Even if it's just like a few hours, like you cannot be taking care of kids, you cannot have responsibilities like imminently, like when you're doing it afterward, sure. It wears off, you're totally fine. But yeah, I mean, you gotta have some time to do it. I couldn't be like active dad on duty. If I can do it rails, okay. But you pick a good weekend night, you pick a night where you had a babysitter and you don't have shit to do tomorrow and it's an easy day, for sure. I could see myself doing it. We did these poker nights a couple years ago. If you really wanna have some fun, get some great friends together who play poker and do a bunch of ketamine and nitrous and see how those games go.

It's called just try to remember what you have and how cards work. It's just the war of attrition usually. It was often me and one of our friends, we just usually would make it, we did tournament style and like, you know, you're just, it's just who has the endurance to keep going and play in the cosmic realms. But it's also you do really fun stuff happening, like where you're sure you have this hand and it's a winning hand or you're gonna get this card and then that card shows up, that type of stuff. Kind of like loosening your mind enough so all of like the magical things happen for poker, it's particularly interesting, I would say.

But yeah, I mean, ketamine is good times. Anyway, I don't necessarily know that I necessarily recommend everyone do ketamine in this time and space but it would be a way of kind of getting outside of yourself which I think is just like, again, you know, we gotta try to let go right now. It's all I can say. Fears, even desires, especially if they're not serving you, just you know, let things go. Also surprisingly, when you let things go, you know, they tend to have, it's the weirdest thing. I don't care about this shit anymore, it's not important. Oh, there you go, drew got it. So if you can play around with your subconscious like that in a nice and friendly way, you can do the good old reverse manifestation.

It's when you really don't want something to happen. What happens? It's my leg. Fortunately, these cards have the writings on the bottom so we can't see so I'll just tell you what they are. I didn't think of that. Okay. First things first, we have secret destruction. Talk about ketamine vibe. Talk about letting things go. Totally, sacred fucking destruction. You dig? I think you dig. The alchemist, being able to use the energies around you and synthesize something, anything. Good, bad, neutral, something, synthesis, right? And then the sovereign. And actually being in control of that process, again, it goes back to that thing of choice.

Some people say there's an illusion of choice. There is no real choice. We just think we're making decisions. This is an eternal debate I have with my wife. It's one of our better ones with no clear winner, of course. But I do believe that you can have, like again, take those reins, set your destination. Be somewhat, have some agency. That's a good word, agency over what it is that you're doing. That should lead to some success, but just, you know, it does require to take those reins. So really pull through for yourself and not forget. I guess we can just put them on top. This is mouse spirit. 10 to the small things.

10 to the small things. Don't let the minutiae. Otter spirit, you are never alone. I've also been feeling a big pull to socialize more. Wouldn't say it's a natural aspect of my being. I like hanging out. It's fun. Always have a good time. But I don't think it's a natural inclination of mine. I've been feeling that tugged to kind of socialize more. Maybe it's just the weather turning. I don't think it is. I think it's just like a deeper kind of longer cyclical thing that I personally am going through. But if you do feel that call socialize and you're not someone who does that or is maybe more introverted than extroverted, I say go for it, especially now.

Really like connecting with other people is always, not always wise, but often wise, right? Let's say that cow spirit miracles are endless. I will take this opportunity now to point out, please keep your journals up for fuck's sake, you slackers. Listen, my hit rate has dropped consistently for three months in a row. I think I missed five days last month. I think I'm already up to two in May. Just do it. Play around, don't let it become a chore either. That's the trick. Don't let the ship become a chore. Becomes a chore, you are fuggled. Not permanently, not irrevocably. But you do not want this stuff to be a chore.

This is something you're doing to kind of loosen and enhance your ability to create magic in the world. So why would you turn that into a chore? Oh, I got to do this. Don't make it like exercise that you hate doing. Make it like something that you like doing. Maybe it's hard. Maybe it requires a little more effort than you're used to. But do not give you up. And to end, friends, we will pull a nature's whispers, our favorite toilet paper card. It's my preferred brand of toilet paper, nature's whispers. Adventure. Get out there. See the world. Do the things, have some fun, right? Who doesn't like a good adventure?

If you're afraid of that, it makes you feel like, I don't know, definitely do it. If it's something you want to do, definitely do it, right? We like the adventure. We want that. It's a good times. All right, guys. This has been a fun one. I maybe just might release this as an actual episode. We'll figure out what to do with the music. Sound good? I think it sounds good. All right, have a good one. Bye, boy. The savings are here! Happy Birthday, America! It's America's 250th birthday. We're celebrating Alma Vlog at Nielsen Chevy by giving you freedom of choice. Save up to $250 off service. Save up to $250 off accessories.

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