The 12 Disciples

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It's the morning time. Welcome to Synchronicity. It is, I like you saying, I like I like I saying, this is gonna be a good one. I like that I'm saying, it's morning time 'cause it might not be morning time. When you're listening to this, chances are it's not. Who listens to the podcast in the morning? Are you a psychopath? Who does that? I don't know, is that normal? Who knows? But it is morning when I'm recording this. Welcome, welcome, welcome, welcome. Spending my last couple of days on the East Coast before I head to L.A. How I mentioned, which I love L.A. I know you guys are sick of it at this point, but excuse me, oh yeah, just coughing, all this stuff.

How has your week days been going? I'm recording this on Sunday, I'm gonna put it out Monday, I just realized. But how has your weekend? How has your last week? It should have been beneficent and benevolent because it's Sagittarius season. I did a, one of those things called live stream. One of the kids called those things these days, a live stream on YouTube, where I went over Sagittarius season, pulled some cards, you know, I came up with a new, oh, okay, let me just back this all up. I'm at my sisters and she is the Mescal queen. And I tell people this and I think they hear me and they're like, yeah, okay, probably, whatever, everyone likes Mescal, it's popular.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. No, she legitimately is, like, she probably has one of the top 10 best collections of Mescal and the world. That's not even a joke. Like, it's fucking insane. I didn't know shit about Mescal, if you know me, I'm not a huge alcohol person just because, I don't know, it's okay. I like it kind of loosens, it greases the wheels, I guess, for the psychic stuff sometimes, 'cause you lose your inhibition, that's fun. People like that, people like being intuitive. But, you know, the propensity for abuse, I feel like what has happened is a lot of spirits, you know, they're called spirits have taken on some negative energy over the past few hundred years, thousand years, a couple thousand years, and that really fucks with people who don't know how to guard themselves psychic way when they imbibe alcohol.

Anyway, Mescal, totally fucking different. This is, like, mystic juice. It's like, it's alcohol for mystics, holy shit. Do you guys know about this stuff? It's basically, it's drugs, let's just be clear. This shit is not, like, regular alcohol at all. And I'll have tests, I have tests on an upcoming episode about crystals and stones. I'll have an episode about Mescal, it's fucking insane. Anyway, yo, what the fuck? Do you guys know about this? Do you guys, like, you don't get drunk. And it's really strong, but you just kinda get more clear? I don't even know, it's definitely hallucinogenic too.

It's, ah, yo, anyway, that has been a revelation for so many ways, in so many ways. I mean, and so I had this reading with Valeria, the Mexican witch, go sign up for readings with her. It was fucking incredible. And she told me at the end of the reading, she told me a lot of stuff. She told me a lot of stuff. And she told me to look up Maya Huell. And I was like, I don't know what that is. Maya Huell, okay, whatever, I had wrote it down. And then so I'm going, I'm staying at my sisters, and she's, I was like, get the pattern, get the app the pattern. And she's like, okay, she gets it. And she's like, all right, add me.

And then I see her name is Maya Huell. I'm like, what the fuck? She's like, guys, it's been my name forever. I'm like, why? And she's like, oh yeah, Mezgal, this whole thing, this fertility guy was like, oh shit. Anyway, life gets, let me, let me dispel any notion that as you move on an imaginative, imaginal, whatever the fuck you wanna call this stuff, consciousness, realization that you're God, waking up, popping out of the Matrix. It never, there's always more layers of weird and awe and awesome, but it doesn't end. It just keeps, it's like, whoa, whoa, whoa, gosh. Okay, anyway, Mezgal's good.

So we'll do, I'm gonna talk to the whole intro about Mezgal. Before we get started on the 12 disciples and other stuff, then I'm gonna call for my Twitter as I talk, excuse me. Yeah, what was I gonna say? Oh yeah, the readings, so I'm only doing in person readings for the next couple of weeks, if you're in LA, that is where I will be doing them. You can schedule with me, it's awesome. I can theoretically come to you if you have parking. So I've learned that lesson. So if you have parking, I will be kind of mobile. I like driving around LA, unlike some people, even the traffic. We'll see how long that lasts.

But also I'll have like really nice spots where you could come through and like, it'll be nice. So anyway, those are going on. If you're interested in your in Los Angeles, go check those out. And then I will be reopening the books sometime. I'm thinking around Christmas or no, probably like mid-December, somewhere like that. I just, there's a whole thing. I'm just trying to, it's gonna be good. Okay, that's it. We don't have anything else to talk about before we jump into this. So yeah, just buckle up. We're getting into the 12 disciples. The number 12 in general is nuts. It's not so in the but so, as I would say.

As I do say, often not so in the but so. So it's just, there's so many things with 12, right? 12 signs in the zodiac, 12 hours on the clock. There's just 12 is everywhere. I mean, I don't even remember them all, but I do know the 12 disciples. And as someone who did not grow up with any Christianity in my life, 'cause I was Jewish or I am, I'm all the things. I'm all the thing. I don't call myself anything. How could you call yourself anything? I am Jesus. All right. That just sounded like I said, I am Jesus, which is also true, but so are you. Not in a weird way, we're all Jesus. We're all Christ for real.

When you know that and you realize that and you live from there, it's actually, it's kind of the best. Okay, 12 disciples. I didn't know any of them. I didn't know them by name. I didn't know their function. I didn't know their role. So this made this kind of easier for me to be like, "Oh, that's what the 12 disciples are." Pulling this straight from Neville Goddard. There is a wonderful compilation of books. It's the main one that you'll find when you look on Audible. What is it? Barry J. Peterson is the narrator. And he just sounds like a big burly guy. He's just like, (indistinct) It was the worst impression of anyone ever, by the way.

I just made weird noises. But he's cool and there's a book at the end of it. I don't know the name of it. I should look that I hadn't heard before. And it's incredible. And it's like all this stuff about the Zodiac and Christmas and all this weird cool stuff. Oh, did I not talk about that last time? I guess I can talk about that too. Okay, I'm just gonna keep coughing in this one, sorry. All right, yeah, but the 12 disciples, bear with me. It's early fucking doing this because I'm gonna be on the move tomorrow. So I'm doing it. Just bear with me guys, Jesus, 12 disciples. Here's what the 12 disciples are.

They're disciplines of mind. They are not people. Let me keep repeating this. Even if it, I mean, no one listening willingly at this point is gonna take exception to this, but sometimes I'll say this stuff to people who are like, really are externalizing God and the characters in the Bible and they don't like it. But remember, these are not people. They're qualities of mind, they're psychological states. They are things related to our own consciousness because that's all there is. I am the Lord, your God. You got it? Okay, I'm not saying I am. Well, I am saying I am, but I'm gonna sound like Noah is your God.

I'm saying you are your sense of I am is your God. Mwahaha, all right, 12 disciplines of mind, Simon. Okay, what is Simon? Simon is hearing the word, right? Hearing the word of God, you've heard it, right? You can hear it a million times, it's just the first step, but you hear it and you hear it and you say, oh shit. Wait, is my consciousness, my sense of I am? Is that God? Okay, if that's hearing, that's Simon. Simon is eventually converted into Peter. Peter is faith, this is the foundation stone. This is what everything else is built on. Everything else, remember, this is just one of 12. So this foundation stone is your faith and that you return from Simon into Peter.

This is both their number one, it's confusing. This is, we're still on number one. So Simon gets turned into Peter, you hear it, think about it maybe, and then you're like, oh shit, that's accurate, block. Then you have faith, so you can test this faith, right? This is when we imagine something, believe it, feel it, and then allow it to happen, that's faith. That's why it's the foundation stone because without that, all these other things I'm gonna talk about don't make sense and it's basically like, it's the first hurdle. Otherwise you're gonna be listening to other people taking their word as gospel, gospel just means God, spell.

God's spells, you got it? I am spells, your consciousness spells. So you hear the gospel, you hear all this other stuff. You may not believe it 'cause it's not you. That's the best part of all of this stuff is what makes you believe it is you prove it to yourself. No one is like, I'm gonna tell you something and you're gonna take my word for it. It's like no, you prove it to yourself and that's what you want, that's what everyone wants. No one wants to just be given stuff all the time even if that sounds good to you for this, for recognizing who you are. No, you don't want that. All right, discipline number two, the second disciple, Andrew, Andrew's courage, right?

And again, this is directly linked to your faith, right? Second disciple, Andrew, courage. This is the perseverance, the willingness to test your faith, to really test this principle that your sense of I am is everything and that this is how reality actually works and it's like you can take it in so many different directions, you can, any different model, any different lens, but really it's the courage to believe and test that faith and move forward, okay? So we got Simon who's turned into Peter, that's number one. Then we've got Andrew who's courage, okay? Hearing faith, courage. Hearing faith one, courage number two, okay?

Number three and four come together. There's James and John, they're brothers. James is the just, this is justice. This is the, you know, you look at a courthouse anywhere. Justice is blind, right? Why are we so mean to justice? It's because she needs to be impartial. And James is the just and so what we do when we are just is we are completely impartial, right? We are not influenced by appearances, right? So what does this mean? It seems like now we're getting into duality. We're not, this is all you. Do not have the tendency when I say just or justice to slip into another person and thinking about other people.

This is all you. What this means being just to yourself and being blindfolded is you're not influenced by external appearances. Your senses cease to be your main modality for understanding things. Now, if you're not totally in control and have the courage and the faith to deal with your internal circumstances, this is not gonna feel great 'cause then you're gonna be like, wait, wait, wait, sometimes my senses make me feel good. Sometimes I look at things out in the world and that gives me validation and it makes me feel good about myself when you're miss apprehending that it's actually the thing before that that created that situation, it's inside.

So you don't get influenced by outside appearances. You can enjoy them. You can marvel at them. You can rejoice. You can cower. You can do whatever you want, but don't be influenced by them. So that's James, the just inside your own mind. Remember, these are not people they, you, John, his brother is the beloved. This is the good shit. This is when someone does something to you or someone does something to someone you care about or someone just does something on a big stage and you know, wow, what a hateful motherfucker or someone person is operating from a pure place of hate. There is not a lot of love there at all.

What do you do? Well, you can judge them. You can condemn them. You can hate them back and then you'll just express all of those things yourself and welcome that energy upon yourself or you can actually perform some magic and love. Send love for hate and don't do this in some bullshitty, and I love you because I'm supposed to. It's the way thing to do. That doesn't work. I've tried it a million times. I tried it for people who fuck my shit up objectively. Big time. Just kind of there because they were dicks. Now I look back and I go, oh, this is my story I was unfolding. I can't judge them. However, at the time, I still felt that they fucked me over.

So I judged them. Now, here is a little tip and John also, you only hear the good and which is love which feel when you feel love and that's all you allow in. It's just love, right? So love for hate and you only allow, you only hear that which is good and you only feel that which is love. So that's what you let in. And I just forgot the thing I was gonna say. Huh, okay. Well, it'll come back as is a good one. I remember it. Anyway, so yes, James and John come together and their brothers and it's being just to yourself not being influenced by appearances. Don't let your shit outside in the world.

Fuck your shit up. The beloved is love for hate and you only hear that's which is good. Don't start judging other people yourself. And again, this is all for you. We use the mirror-like world to work on ourselves there. I just remembered it. This is the trick with the enemies. Okay. We have rivals, enemies, nemesis, so we think and you hear this term love your enemies sometimes and people can mess that up. And they're like, all right, you know, I don't like Donald Trump, but I'm gonna love him. Oh, I don't like the way he is, but I'm gonna love him. And it's like that's probably not gonna work for you because if you're already saying you don't like him and you're looking at the bad things, here's how it really works.

When someone does something to you or someone acts a certain way and makes you feel upset and you get them one, one, this is bad, you should be so happy. You should be so fucking happy that you have this opportunity to be pointed out where the little kinks in your armor are, right? Where your little vulnerabilities are. You should be like, oh my God, thank you so much. In the same way, a lover or a partner. Did I just say lover? I sure did. The same way in a significant other or a partner will show you where your strengths are with love. They'll also show you your weaknesses. So will your enemies.

So will your difficult people. So that's how you love them. You don't love them because they're doing some fucked up thing and you think by loving them, they're gonna stop doing it. That's just dumb. What you do is you go, oh man, this person dicked me over. Oh my God, I thank you so much for showing me where I need to tighten up and solidify my own shit. I actually genuinely appreciate it. And that's why when you encounter demons and demons, this is what Miller Rep was doing. And he's like, there's this thing where he's on this song. Where is it? I don't know where he is. I'm in the book where I am right now.

But he's like, man, when I love where I am, it's so pretty. There's these mountains, there's these trees, there's these leaves. Even when it's snowing, I love it. And he goes, oh, when bad shit comes up, I fucking love it. He's like, I love it even more because then it shows me that I can transcend it and that is what is meant by loving your enemies, okay? And that's John the beloved. And I didn't pull that from Neville Goddard or anywhere and I wanna make this, I'm really gonna keep hammering home this point because we're using Goddard as our template, as our launching pad. We don't look at Goddard and say, this is it, this is everything and then just pair it.

All of the stuff he says without adding our own takes on it. And that's what Goddard was trying to tell everyone, I think. And he also grew up in a time remember where he was so influenced by his teachers and the ability and access to information. And most of it came through this kabbalistic kind of mystical, Christian mystic, Judeo-Christian mysticism lens. We have the benefit, the state of being able to look at so many different cultural reference points, right? We have all the Eastern traditions, we have the South American, we have African, we have all of the continents, like the Europeans, like Norse, it's just like, there's fucking everything, right?

So it's fun, it's what I'm trying to say. And don't, don't deatize, right? You can, I guess, but like don't think that like, Neville Goddard is your ending point. He's your launching pad because you do this yourself. Don't make him a God to you that he's not God to you. You're God to you. He's also God, my gosh, that's a paradox. But seriously, I only bring that up because I see what happens to people with Neville Goddard sometimes. I'm really thinking of the subreddit. You know, I check in there every so often and you can just see people getting caught up and stuff and like you'll want to intervene, but then you realize you don't actually say anything because that's not how reality works.

And so I just say it on the podcast where people were actively tuning in. Okay, enough rambling. Number five, there's 12 of these. So buckle the fuck up. Number five, Philip. Okay, Philip is shown the father. His consciousness and its expression are one. This is making the word flesh. So I, again, I'm not really great at the Bible. I don't know the parables, but I do know what this means. But I believe Philip was like crying out. Like I need to see, I need to see the father. Like I don't, I need to see it. You needed proof. And they're like, all right, Philip, you baby. I'll show you. And then so what happened was is they showed him and then what this means is, is that, again, not characters, not characters, it's you.

It's that point in time where you've imagined you're seen or you've set your goal or you felt your feeling. You know it's gonna happen, but then you go, but where is it? Oh, I don't shit, I want it now. Right? Why that's that? And that's, this is like everyone does this so much. Not everyone so much, but people do this. I've been guilty of it plenty of times. It's just impatience. It's like not understanding how the time delayed mirror of reality works. It's not anything more than that. So there is a way to speed that up, but paradoxically it involves not being so, what's the word I'm like, not grasping or avoiding, grasping the thing you want or avoiding the thing that makes it seem like it's not here.

'Cause you're then just reinforcing the state and it's like, yo, don't do that. Like it's gonna be fucking great. Just let it happen, right? So Phillip has actually shown the father, which means, oh shit, that thing I imagined just happened. What the word, the image that I had in my head is now flesh in this world. So that's Phillip, that's a good one. That's like when shit really starts to get weird. And remember, you can go up and down. These are disciplines of mind. These are things that as you stabilize each one of these, you get more control. You basically like, if it's like an RPG, you're getting like a different armor, you're getting like your helmet and then your sword and your boots and your, I'm thinking of Diablo basically.

You get all your stuff and then you're cool and you level up. It's easier to level up with good gear, right? Feel me? Ah, okay. Disciple, discipline. Number six, Bartholomew. Don't have a cow man. Like I thought of it and I was like, don't say it. Don't say it. And then I was like, I'm saying it and then I said it. It was dumb. Awakened imagination. All right, Bartholomew is the awakened imagination. This is when you go, whoa. This is how reality works. Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. Wait, wait, wait. That's a lot of possibilities. That's kind of infinite variations of what is going on. That's amazing.

And it's disciplined. It doesn't like run a muck on you, you know, because that's a big part of, you know, creating these scenes and living from them is you don't want to just be like, whoa, I'm going to carry it away to this. Whoa, I'm going to carry it away. Like you want it to be disciplined. Yeah, so that's why it is a discipline. He is one of the disciples, Bartholomew. And then people can write in and tell me like, oh yeah, part was this dude, he did that. Sure. I mean, like I want to know the story is just because like, it does give you more context for the psychological reality of Bartholomew.

Number seven, love. Number seven, Thomas. Doubting Thomas as he's known. I have heard of this one, had heard of it before. So Thomas, people were like, oh, well, Thomas is a dick. Like he didn't believe in Jesus. He didn't believe in any of this stuff. No, remember not a person. Thomas denies that which is not in harmony with that, which is good. You understand? Denies, he says, I don't believe it. So if you imagine something, I imagine myself to be fearless. And then fear comes in. Thomas goes, eh, eh, I don't believe in that. That I deny you entry into my consciousness. I will maybe look at you.

I will maybe say, okay, that is something that exists there. Certainly seems to be something in some way, shape or form, but I deny you entrance. Now, there's two ways of looking at this, especially if it's fear. You can deny it by just shutting the door and be like, bye-bye. Or you can be like, let me just go right up to you and see that you don't exist. Therefore, my skeptical ability related to fear proves that Thomas most certainly is a doubter. So what I'm saying there though, clearly, or as clearly as I can, is when shit doesn't line up to your imaginal scene, this is very, very much like John, right hearing only that which feels love when something doesn't line up to that loving feeling or what you have imagined, deny it.

Just see what happens. I've done this so many times, it's true. Ah, yes, yes, yes. Matthew, this is a very important one. Number eight, these are the gifts from God. Remember who God is, it's you, your sense of I am. So what does that mean? It means when your desires pop up, that is quite literally a gift from God. You would not be aware of something you didn't have that you wanted if you weren't meant to pursue it. Now, I do believe that you're meant to have it as well, but I use the word pursue because I have found, and this is the wonderful, wonderful, wonderful reality of how this stuff works, is sometimes as you're pursuing a desire, you may change your mind.

You'd be like, oh, you know what? That's not actually what I want. And you need to be clear and concise and make those decisions and not waffle constantly, but you do add that ability. But every single time you pursue a desire, it will most certainly prove to you that it is a gift from your own consciousness, from your God, and it leads to all the things you want to feel, for real. I know that can be like, well, I wanna be a millionaire, and it's like, okay, well, maybe you really do, and maybe that's gonna make you fulfilled, for sure, okay? But by pursuing it, you're certainly gonna learn if it's true, won't you?

And it's totally fine to be a millionaire if you wanna be, there's nothing wrong with it, gosh. Okay, so Matthew, yeah, that's a huge one. Number eight, disciple number nine. Let me make sure I got enough room in this session. Ooh, that was gonna be close, hold on. ♪ Got a move it ♪ Okey-dokey, oops, I made a baby. All right, I'm just editing real time, guys. No props, no props. Okay, number nine, James, son of Alpheus. I don't even know how to spell that. This is discernment, and this is the clear seeing of the mystic, and this again is very much related to Thomas and John, and it's never being misled by appearance.

So you can see how a lot of these are similar in terms of, it's hammering home the point that this world is the effect. So if you're just looking at the effect and trying to gain insight based on that, like you're done messed up. You know what I mean? It's not, you're getting a chance to work through your shit when things get a little wonky here, but if you start being like, oh, this is what's actually going on. You're fi, Jesus, it's spirals, in ways that you don't intend it to usually. So this is discernment, James, the son of Alpheus. So what this means is just be discerning about what is going on.

Yes, that is using your intuition. Yes, that is slipping into mystic states, of course, but it's also just recognizing how this stuff works. And mystic states, you know, there's a lot of ways we can get into them. There's, but it's just clear seeing, right? It's really accurately perceiving what this world is. And yeah, it's okay if you get thrown off a little bit. It's totally okay, but what we're doing here, it is my hope and expectation that by the first quarter of 2020, there will have been a clear blueprint from the first imaginal techniques number one episode in July to wherever we are then in 2020, that is literally a path towards having the clear seeing of the mystic.

Because that's what I've been doing and I've been talking about it pretty much nonstop on this podcast. I've been putting out a lot and I've gone through a lot of these disciplines unintentionally. That's how I know it works. If I like, I didn't know about it, but now that I do know about it, it's my obligation to share it in a practical and real way. That's why I'm doing it. I don't know why I just wanted to the fucking mission statement of what I'm doing, but I did, okay. So just be discerning and what that means is it's not like, oh, I gotta figure out what's right and wrong. It's just like, you know how this world works.

You know who the one true God is. It's your sense of I am, it's consciousness. You know what Jesus Christ is. It's waking up to that realization. We're gonna get there. Okay, discipline number 10. Thaddeus, ah, give thanks and praises. Praise and thanksgiving. This is when you say thank you father and you can go, oh, I don't want anything. Father, that's weird. Okay, whatever. Just say thank you then. It's when you have the feeling of something. You know what's happening and you just go thank you 'cause you feel it so deep. Thank you. Thank you, yes, that's the feeling. When you just accept it because it's an acceptance, right?

It's a surrender and acceptance. It's just like, yes, and you're like cheering. You're like, yay. And you're saying it to yourself and you're saying it to the one true consciousness. And yes, I wanna be clear when I say yourself, I'm referring to the big eye, right? You're also your individual sense, like of I, both same thing, but there also is that distinction of like consciousness being everything, which means you're everyone, everyone is you pushed out, but I don't want you to make it seem like when I say like, think you me. Think you me, you're only talking to your individuated individual sense of self.

It really is this larger kind of embodiment of something. And that's also where I think people can get trapped in their ego if they get too caught up in their individual sense of self and forget the bigger one. And so that's a nice way of loosening that up. But yeah, Thaddeus is just like, yo, thank you. This is just what I wanted. Thank you that that's happened. Thank you. And even if you don't have the proof. Okay, Thaddeus is great. Dude, that a lot. Gratitude, man. Gratitude, so good. All right, number 11, Simon of Canaan. This is hearing the good news, being conscious of an abundant life and preaching the good spell, the gospel, right?

So the good spell spells like we've, gosh, guys, everything is spells, right? We don't, we were like, how do I do spells? What weird ritual do I need to do to do spells? Do I need to get a blood of a lamb and a newt and a pot and a witch? It's like, if you can, or you can just realize that spells are in your mind and you imbue everything, including your actions, your words, your way of being, your dreams, everything becomes a spell. So that's preaching the good spell. It's not like getting up on a pulpit and being like, I know everything, listen to me. It's like, that's a point of extension. No, I'm not a single person.

No one likes that, I'm pretty sure. It doesn't change any minds. If it did, like everyone would have been converted by now by that one guy standing up there and being like, this is how everything works. It's like, no, you preach the good spell by casting good spells, you become a glen to the good witch and you're just like, boom, spells, good for you. Blessings, blessings, blessings, blessings, blessings, blessings. That's true. And so Simon of Canaan is hearing that that's possible, recognizing it's true. I think Simon must mean hearing, right? 'Cause he turned in, yeah, to Peter. So this is another Simon, Simon of Canaan.

And then conscious of the abundant life. This is the awareness and acceptance that wealth in all its forms is ever-present and it is yours to accept, okay? That's a big deal. And I'll talk about this more later, but relationships can, there's a really big thing going on. And I know, the conversations are coming up. If you don't know how to gate yourself, if you don't know how to protect yourself energetically and you're in relationships with people, which you are, because you're a person, yo, you may be picking up on some shit that is totally fucking your shit up. And I don't want that to be a cop out.

You shouldn't blame other people, but in the world of duality, we certainly know other people's energies exist. We can perceive them. So until you figure out how to transmute and preach those good spells, make sure your energy is tight, right? And that's that courage, that's that Andrew, okay? Number 12, my favorite disciple, my favorite discipline. Oh God, it's my favorite. Oh, I love it so much and it lines up perfectly, perfectly with the 12th house in astrology, just making this connection as I'm saying it, this house of self undoing, the subdivision where your ascendant is in astrology is the subdivision between the 12th and 1st house, 12th house being the house of self undoing, the 1st house being the house of self.

So it's this destruction, this liminal boundary between undoing and becoming. What does that sound like, birth and death? Oh, Scorpio, oh, I love it. Judas, people don't like Judas, right? 'Cause he killed Jesus, didn't he? That's fucked up, dude, why'd you do it? No, it's not a person, guys, not a person. Judas is dying to that which you will become which you already are. It is mystic suicide, it is being born again. It is assuming the consciousness of that which you are and would want to be. Let it go. Suicide, detachment, psychic week, killing yourself, colleague, right, killing limited versions of yourself.

This is Judas and it's the best. He's my favorite disciple by far. I don't, I mean, I love them all. Of course, they're all me, they're all you. But wow, when you master, create, destroy, expand, and Sagittarius season, guys, we got a month here in what are we in late November, 2019, sad season here, oh guys, just come on. Get on this, catch this wave, catch this fucking wave, and just start mystic suicide is the best. 'Cause guess what it means? When something pops up and it makes you feel weird and uncomfortable, smirk that motherfucker. Just not, you can kill it now, don't be. Don't run away from it, that's not what I mean.

You fully engage it, you stare it right in the face and you say adiosomego, nomas, see you later. So Judas is, wow. I mean, it's just such a powerful discipline to possess because it's the light switch. The first time I ever did psychedelics, it was 15, it was music, five week music program in Berkeley, in Boston, and I was on a lot, just my first time, three tabs, very powerful, sunshine acid, gosh, ooh, she's. And there was a point where I think things were about to get a little wonky and like rough, and I had this realization that there's this thing, like there's a light switch, and you can just flip the light switch from light to dark, or dark to light, and that is Judas.

It is so powerful that of all the things I've mentioned, I think that's the most powerful for most people today because so many people have their own karma, their parents' trauma, generational trauma, ancestral trauma, and to be able to quickly dismantle that and destroy it is such a powerful gift and discipline of mind that that's why I focus on that. I mean, I'm very open to the raw, feminine, divine energy that allows for destruction, sacred destruction, let's call it, a fucking with it. If that's your vibe, if you're a sacred destructor, and you know what that means, we are on the same team, or we're on the same team anyway, but in the world of duality, oh man, I fucking love it.

It's a vibe I very much enjoy. And then we have the 12 disciples, and then we have Jesus Christ, right? And I've spoken about Jesus, and Jesus is just the realization, the waking up inside of your own mind that, oh my gosh, this is all true. This is not a delusion. I am not crazy. I am actually the source of everything. I know how to bend reality. I know how this works. I now take accountability and responsibility for everything, which means I first stabilize my mind with these 12 disciples, right? That's why he's got him around him, very helpful. And then I start blessing myself and everyone else.

And you do it in a way that is fun. I do not want this to seem heavy for people. It's not heavy, it's super fucking fun. All right, let's see if I have the other notes. Nope, we'll just go to the Twitter stuff then, because I got stuff to say, even if I don't remember what it is, here it is. Okay, let's talk about some more Jesus stuff since we're here. So Jesus, fishing, right? We all know you teach a man to fish. You don't go fish for a person. Now, I do fish for some people, right? Those are the imaginal acts, like if you write in on the website, on the imagine form and say, "Hey, can you imagine this for me?"

I will most certainly imagine it for you. And that is catching a fish, for real. And what do I mean by fish? And what do I mean by teaching someone to fish? You catch a feeling, you catch a mood, or you catch a desire, okay? Let's say it's the one you don't want, right? Let's start from that place. A lot of people come from this place. They want something, but that also implies that the thing that they don't want, that's what they're thinking about. That's what they're feeling. So I don't want this. I don't want to feel anxious. I don't want to feel codependent. I don't want to feel wanty and needy, okay?

So that's a feeling that you don't want. What do you do? Let it go. Just let it go, release it, throw it back. And you can be, oh, that sounds so easy. It is throw it back. And then you cast your net on the other side. And this is what Jesus told them to do. I forgot the exact parable. He said, cast it on the right side. I'm like, all right. I mean, there's clearly no fish. And you know, he got this one. And it's not what I want. There's not even fish on that other side. Do you think on this side there's going to be? That's someone saying, oh, well, you think my imagination is going to create reality?

Yeah, okay. Yeah, whatever. I didn't catch what I wanted. So all right, I guess I'll do it. And so you cast it on the right side. What does that mean? It means that when you throw your net over, you're going to use these imaginal techniques. And you are going to feel and believe yourself into the state, you are going to assume it's true. You are going to say, oh my gosh, this is incredible. This is amazing. I feel it. You have cast your net correctly. As you pull it up, is this what you want? Is that truly what you want? Then it's yours. Then keep it and then just let it happen by relaxing into the situation.

That's teaching a man and women how to fish, right? That is literally it. That's what is meant by that parable. OK, it sounds like, whoa, you know, it's a nice axiom for teaching people things. No, no, it's literally teaching them how to bend reality, pop out of the matrix, do all the fun stuff. Assume that what I just said is true. Assume that anything is true because it is. Assume that it's not true because it isn't. That's how everything works. That's the dual quality of mind. If you assume something is true, it is. If you assume something isn't true, it isn't. And you can say, well, I assume that gravity doesn't exist.

So it doesn't exist. Do you really? You facetious made up prick. But like, yeah, you really actually have to assume it and believe it. And the more kind of facts that exist, the more facts I put in quotes, air quotes, you can't see them. The more likely it is that subconsciously it is seeped in and you're not going to just start levitating out of the blue. Now people do. So it is proof that you can get around it, but that is a very high state of mind. Okay, you're already living the life of your dreams. Now you just got to let it happen. That's the main thing. We want to think we have to do something to get it to happen, just let it happen.

I've been noticing something where the need for the imaginal techniques, although I still use it, not as often, you don't need it as much because you're just like, I'm on track. I know I'm on track. Now I just have to let it happen and just, you know, use these disciplines of mine, my 12 disciples, just let it happen. You know, you may need to make moves for sure, but make them easily with your kayak, you know, just put your ore in the thing, you're floating downstream, just let it happen. Okay. In my experience, my own personal direct experience, sometimes I haven't wanted to hear that everything is effortless if I want it to be.

Like someone could say, well, it's really easy. I'm like, no, it's not. But that doesn't make it untrue. So I'm going to say that again. In my experience, sometimes you don't want to hear that everything is effortless if you want it to be, but that doesn't make it untrue. It is actually effortless if you want it to be. You need to be open to that. You don't need to be. I recommend you're open to that because then shit just gets a lot easier, right? You don't get stuck. You don't get caught up. And if you do, you know, right out of that shit. Okay. Just going through my tweets. Teachers are great, but they're not the way.

You understand you're the way. Teachers are great. I'm great. But you're the greatest. Do you understand you are? Really let that sink in. Teachers are fucking great. I love them. Everything is my teacher. But it's me and it's you. Remember that. You are it. I am is you. Okay. If you place your faith in anything other than yourself, what you place your faith in will ultimately destroy you. Now you can look at destruction as like a bed or good thing. It's not for me to judge. It's all good because you'll always get more chances until you get this right. Your faith must be placed in you always. If it is not, you will be disappointed inevitably.

It may not even be in this life. It could be in many lives from now. Who knows? But it'll probably be in this life because this is kind of the final destination. We'll talk about that more. But anyway, don't place your faith in anyone outside of yourself. This doesn't mean to be nihilistic and have a sense of existential dread. That's not what I'm talking about. I'm just saying you are your rock. You are the foundation stone. Do you know why? Because nothing can shake you then. Nothing. And then you have the confidence in which to pursue the pursuit of the true nature of reality. You understand?

And you know, maybe I'm a ballsy motherfucker saying I know the true nature of reality. Well, test this shit out, buckaroo. That's all I can say. And I know people have been hitting me up and they're like, you know what? I've been doing this, you know, for a couple of weeks or like a month and it's not working. And I'm like, all right, well, you've already acknowledged it and admitted that. So that's probably why it's not working. But second of all, like guys, I had a direct experience for three months where everything was validated and proved to me that I know now today. And that shit didn't click it in for me.

Do you know what I mean? Three fucking months of this state of consciousness and that didn't click it into me. Of like what everyone wants to experience of like the real illusory dimensional vortex layer of this world, three fucking months of that. And it didn't click into me. In fact, it actually reversed me back because I didn't know how I got there and I like thought reality was something different. So you might have to put in the man hours and the woman hours to do this. And you might not. It's just a belief thing. If someone would have told me back then like, hey, here's what's going on. It's actually really easy if you understand this and you can make it effortless.

That would've been amazing and I, you know, my life worked out perfectly, but it would have been very nice. So that's what I'm trying to tell you. Just place your faith in yourself, your magic, your everything. Okay. Let's look at some techniques. On my Twitter, I copied this from Reddit, user Reddit user moonlight sonata. Someone posted it in the Discord. Oh, this is a good time to say for people who are really into this shit. The crypto sync discord is now public access. We've walled off the crypto stuff and everything else is open. So you can find on my Twitter, the links for that. All right.

Let's talk about these techniques. Revision. Revision is super simple. This is when we go back in time where time travels. Travelers, we heal situations. It can be for the day. It can be for years ago, millennia ago. It could be for anything you want. Just recreate the scene, recreate the feeling. Boom, multi-dimensionally healed that part of yourself. Whoop, clicks into the present. Fucking a. I remember when. This is a really good way of living from your states. You say, I remember when, I used to doubt myself. I remember that. Oh yeah, oh yeah, those are weird times. You know, you were living from the state by saying, I remember when you are living from the state.

So embed that into your imaginal acts in just a way of being. Congratulations. This is a scene from someone to you. This is how you use your friends as angels. They say to you, oh my god, congratulations. You got that? You did that? Oh my god, that's so awesome. Great, you hear your friends say this, you hear other people say this. Fast forward. You can move forward in time with the details. So you could move 10 years out. You could have your family if that's what you want. And you could have whatever you want, your success, your career. You can fast forward, accept it, live from that place. You can pin it down in time if you want, or you can just let it happen naturally.

It's up to you. You're eavesdropping, this is a good one. Imagine you're somewhere walking in a house, and there's people in another room, and you over hear them saying, wow. Look how great that person looks. Look how great you look. Oh my gosh. Look how amazing she looks. Look how great he looks. Look at, oh my god, they're doing wonderful. That's a good one. Okay, then here, then now. So you make there here. So if you're in your house and you want to be in Barbados, you think of Barbados and you make it here, right? You can do this probably with eyes closed. That's it. You just move it. It's pretty cool.

Isn't it wonderful? And thank you. This is when a desire comes up like, and you just go, oh my god, thank you, amazing. That's a real quick one. Time isn't real, so you can do it. I am, just repeat, I am. I am, I am, it'll lift you into a state. And then from there, all bets are off. Do what you want. Golden rule, super important. Don't neglect this one. Do unto others. This one can get tricky. Okay, let me just say this because the relationship stuff does come up. If you're in a relationship and you want, you know, something that your partner isn't okay with, that doesn't by default mean you're not allowed to do it.

You have to be okay if your partner wanted to do that thing. And then you need to have a conversation about it. Like, clearly, don't just be a dick. But that is very important. And that's how like when we can say like, well, you know, I think I want this thing and it doesn't seem right. It doesn't have to be used to be like a relationship. It could be a business thing. It could be anything. But you need to be communicative about that. And you really need to apply the golden rule. Am I okay if the person who I want, you know, is that okay with me? Very important. Very important. Great. First principles.

Yep, here they are. Be still and know that I am God, right? You are God. Use this throughout the day when you're stressed, confused, angry, tired, or need a break, okay? That's it. And then how did I? How did I become so successful at achieving my wish fulfilled effortlessly and easily? Right? 'Cause when you're asking how it's past tense, which is thinking from the end, you're eliciting the experience, not seeking an answer. So how did it just become so great at this? Oh man, amazing. How did it become so easy for me in the best possible way? Amazing. So that is what that is. I am getting to the end of this episode I am realizing 'cause I have to go drive somewhere.

Guys, this has been a good one. It's been a pleasure. I will put this out on Monday, early. I will see you in LA if you are there. You will hear me doing lots of fun podcasts while I'm there. Looking forward to it. Hey, I'm saying hang in there 'cause I know this is like the final push. All right, I'm gonna keep saying it every episode until we have clicked in and I get the sense that everyone is just like, and a lot of you, a lot of you. I did this thing on Instagram. I asked people with their dreams, what's your dream? And then, oh gosh, I don't know. Like 100 plus of you probably got in touch with me.

I don't know how to reply to all of them 'cause Instagram keeps popping the screen away. I wanted to reply to every single one, but it keeps like, I don't know what's going on there. But that's a huge first step. When you acknowledge what your dream is, that's huge. And then when you communicate it to another person in a safe space, that's also fucking huge. You're crystallizing it. Everything is liquid light. This world is liquid light. It's crystallized liquid light for real, for real, for real. Okay, that's it for this episode. I will see you sometime later this week. Love ya, happy imagining.

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