Bill Patrick Had A Rough Week

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Not the whole toilet seat. There's a crack. There's levels the toilet is the that's like you got to get carted away in an ambulance Yeah, the the sea cracked and What material is it though? I feel like it's plastic or something. Yeah, I don't think it's like indicative of any like Horrible, you know disgusted with this. I think it's just a cheap toilet. No. No, I mean, I'm sure it's cheap But I'm never having no, it's like a weird moment Like I said, I immediately weighed myself. I was like how fat are you you fucking pig? Like did you really just break the door like do we need to go on a serious diet? Yeah, and I was I'm less than 200 right now. So I'm like, it's fine shouldn't be happening It's just one of those signs. I guess from years. No, it's just an ongoing shitty Happening already shitty and you mark the downward slope when the cops shut down your three track amazing set headed for the And I mark it when the nicks were eliminated You got a roof for a better team Great, I know there's probably two people listen to this podcast that actually there's really sports fans. Yeah, it's weird Okay, yeah, there's a lot. Yeah, the nicks lost in the playoffs and then that Started like a downward downward spiral of bad luck culminating in me breaking a toy Keep going Yeah, I was one of those things where I'm like Immediately I think to myself Do I tell Noah about this or do I replace it immediately? No, and that he doesn't know like no, I gotta fucking Also, like you are gonna replace it immediately. That's the main But I also know you and I'm like he probably won't even notice I might be like this seems a little someone Do you ever see the videos of like the person like is living in like the attic vent of the house And then like there like people are like hey like my shit's like not where I put it Like if this isn't where I put it and they like discover someone's like living in their fucking attic or something That's terrifying that wouldn't never heard about that The videos of the videos of like the people do it's scary, but I would never be able to do that. I have very little Spatial awareness of things changing my environment complete like detail oriented like I'm watching everything That's why when I was Living in Berlin and I I I Airbnb'd my place for the first time ever and I came back and it was just like Scanning it was like this Vaz has been moved two inches. There's oil stains on the floor like you know I'm a little bit OCD about it, but you this teach not broken. It's just a crack by the way So how big of a crack it goes across the oh you like a femur crack For those who I think did we explain that I broke the toilet that is what we're talking about. Yeah, this is what we're talking about You broke my shitty lock no pun intended Yeah, I mean well, let's talk about the the big Kickin of nuts, which was what which was me losing six thousand five hundred Oh on drugs Which is not which sounds horrible people have actually not lost money on drugs for the most part unless they're selling right now But like it wasn't drugs fault. It was my fault You made money on I made money and then I because I am an amateur and a rookie in all of this I kind of Panicked because it was four in the morning, and I saw the price dropping and I just moved everything into my metamask swapped it into US DC and I Should have what I should have done then was just said okay I'm gonna go to sleep. Yeah wake up in the morning and have Noah help me kind of Transfer this into my coinbase wallet, and we'll like go from there, but instead I was like oh I Did the hard part so now let me I'm a crypto I know exactly what I'm doing. I'm an expert now. So now that I figured that out obviously I could just get but then You know I'm an idiot so I was like oh US DC that could drop by eight in the morning for some reason I told me that in the morning you're like someone told me it's volatile. I'm like yeah it deviates from like point nine nine nine nine eight to like a dollar point zero zero zero zero zero two Google like How secures us DC and someone said four out of ten hours like that's it. That's enough info for me I don't need the Google anymore, and so I'm an idiot, and I just transferred it into a coinbase wallet which for those who you explain basically When you drugs which you can buy on Pancake swap is on the Binance smart chain which is different than the Ethereum blockchain or the Bitcoin blockchain And you can't generally transfer things back and forth It's kind of like a pain point for a lot of people in crypto right now, but basically When you send something that is bought on pancake swap or Binance and it's USDC It's a different USDC than the one that coinbase would accept which is the Ethereum ERC 21 So the weird the frustrating thing is too is this is it's there It's actually that it hit the wallet in the way coinbase is just like hey, yeah, we don't have those type Now my hunch is they definitely do it's very easy to fork any wallet and You know essentially access any other blockchain if you want to go through the trouble of it But it is basically burn for your all intents and purposes, which is a that is a kick in the pants It's a kick in a pants. I have a really I have to give myself a little bit of credit I mean, I made 4,000 let's say yeah, you did I made four thousand dollars and That's a good chunk of change and I immediately told myself I Think this is what happens when you are you live a life full of you know Rejection and and you're like and understanding like yeah how to handle Stuff like this where you just like alright you're an idiot and let's let's figure out. It's your fault And there's no reason to get worked up if you can get the money great if not then this is a learning lesson and you're just That's uh, there's nothing you can do about this. There's no point into getting any more Like worked up and stressed out over losing money that really wasn't yours But I mean I lost twenty one hundred yeah Of my own money. Yeah sucks. Yeah, and it sucks as you made that into more and then lost that It's like being up at the casino and like pushing your luck But you didn't even push your luck you just tried to carry it over to the cashier and dropped it It's someone else picked it up. So you get a bucket of course from the slot Yeah, no, it sucks, but I have a weird kind of belief with money where I'm like I mean I've made I've made money that I didn't deserve in the past and it all kind of comes out in the wash. I think I Don't know. I mean I think money is like I'm you know this From living with me here, but like I don't really view it as a tangible physical Asset at best. It's a reflection of something to me. It's basically just energy and if you just kind of have like a Healthy relationship with money is being able to do something like that and not let it like fuck your shit up For a while. Yeah, I remember what I usually compare this shit to is like when I used to I'm an avid dolphins fan and when they would fucking lose I would be devastated for like until the next game That's hard like you're the worst team like it was the dumbest thing But like I genuinely was at a certain point. I was like, you know what?

I'm cool. Like I'm cool. It does not gonna affect me no matter what and I noticed when I kind of really started to embody that mindset It least they weren't as bad like they weren't like the more I cared and like was upset by something Yeah, I was like when they were one in 15. Yeah, the less I cared about it. There seems to be I'm not saying That's exactly what's going on But there is a relationship between kind of how you take hits how you take gains to like I would say this wasn't actually So much an issue of you losing money. If you look at it, it's you didn't know how to handle making money Yeah, exactly. That's what happened because you literally had made a lot you could have just kept it there You would have made that but you kind of freaked out There's both learning lessons and all of this and this if for anyone who like wants to make a lot of money From maybe not like a ton of capital You need to learn both of those lessons because if you want a lot of money guess what has to happen You have to make a lot of money. Yeah, you need to be prepared for that kind of psychologically an energetic But I think psychologically also that you have to have a healthy if this makes sense a healthy relationship with disappointment and understanding that disappointment is gonna happen in your life for sure and When it happens it fucking stings, but I've had enough of it to know like You try not to let it be like now this whole week, of course, I'm Graduating the fact that I've just been it's just snowballing into because it also had like I said a shit We touched on it briefly. Yeah, I had a gig. Yeah, and I prepared Like extensively and tried to put together because my last gig in New York last month didn't go so well for me personally I felt like I Wasn't prepared. I felt like my set was just kind of all over the place musically I had a lot of new music and for those of you who are I don't know DJs or Musicians when you have like I guess When you have a lot of new music and you you have to perform. Yeah in the past I was touring and so my Preparation was the gig the week before or whatever and you can't yes and test it out now. I've had Three gigs in a year So I'm not familiar with the music and so you really need to prepare because what happened was I went up I DJ'd and my my the music tempos were all over the place the transitions were a mess and Listen 90% I'd say 98% of people in the crowd had no fucking idea and we're like at the end We're like you were amazing Wow, and I was like no no no no. I was terrible It was a disaster. I need to do better. Well, they like the songs. Maybe the technical aspects could have been and now and then to top it off There was like a legendary iconic DJ that you blew it that play before me who was who told me I'm going to stay and listen to your set. I can't wait to hear what you play so that on top of Was just like great perfect. So this set I was like I'm preparing I'm gonna come in and Really just like for the first time in many years Have an idea of what tracks go together nicely. I downloaded a program where I couldn't mix and internally Long story short. I get up To the gig the people playing before me were amazing Morgan and OB Set in the vibe outdoor venue super nice beautiful day. The vibe was perfect. I get up there and I mixed three tracks and and everything is going great. The track. Yeah flawless flow There's like a super great vibe and then the promoter comes over the police are here. You have to you have to shut the music and I was like Okay, okay, I I finally put in hours of Preparation and now I played three tracks and it's over so that level of disappointment actually You have to take a deep breath and it's stuck with me for it's stuck for me for the whole night I got to play indoors inside in like a little club But it was different. It wasn't what it was dark. It was sweaty It was like a completely different vibe. I did my job and whatever, but I was disappointed And I still it still stings a bit until I guess the next gig, but yeah that that sucks That type of stuff if you're like, you know, yeah preparing and creatively trying to They are excited about something. So yeah, it's been a shitty couple of weeks. It's not great I gotta say it's not great fucking hot and muggy. I'm sweaty. It's gross. I'm changing my clothes twice a day I'm taking two showers. Yeah, I hate this weather. Yeah, it's not good. It's not no one likes it and everyone in the winter is always like when I tell him I love winter and I think it's my favorite season fall and winter and People are like, are you crazy? Like no, this is the perfect example why I like winter people go to Miami Which to me is like a I was like Maybe for like a few days to like experience that like I remember we went to the Bahamas And that was nice for like a few days and then we were like fuck this We want to go like I don't know I don't I like I like winter I think more than I give it credit for I don't like being cold, but at least you can fix that problem There's nothing you can do. Yeah, when it's super hot and you can't cool it down Well, I went to Mexico a couple weeks ago and I went down to Puerto Escondido to visit a friend and I Would let everyone now do not go to Puerto Escondido this area of Mexico in May It's the worst time of year. It's fucking boiling hot so humid the Insects the bugs start to come out and the bugs are fucking tremendous And it's also the beginning of the rainy season. So it's a complete. It was the worst time to go This probably started actually the downfall shitty luck. So so day one Thunderstorm crazy rolling fucking thunderstorms that come in and because the power grade down there is not so strong Electricity completely shut down for 24 hours. So that meant my friend and I laying in bed in Basically naked just not touching just don't touch me don't come near me just stay still so fast because the fans don't work There's nothing and you're just dripping in bed nothing. It's the worst most uncomfortable. And so I tend to be a little bit On a I could become a diva quickly if I'm uncomfortable I get it cuz I'm 44 and I just feel like you know, I want to be comfortable. I don't want to be living I've always been like that. I just I literally can't once I hit my heat breaking point I'm literally the worst person to be around. I'm like fuck this. I don't care I lose all composure and sensibility of social awareness. I'm just like, you know, like I This needs to be relieved immediately. Yeah, completely. And that's that's that's what happened and I Luckily we've been friends for many years and she knows how to Handle me in these situations, but I took two days, and then I told myself like, okay, all right Just figure this out. You're gonna have to be here for another week hopefully electricity comes back and Pull it back a bit try not to be so much of a fucking gringo diva. Oh, no, I don't think I could overcome that I it's truly like I try not to put myself in situations Where I knock the moon stone. That's bad luck. I Mean you know, I Didn't put myself. I mean that situation. I don't think I had much control over Granted, I knew it was like a little kind of third world Town a surfer town It was at the end of the day. I will say that the trip turned out nice. Yeah, it got better I was reading a book on a hammock by the sea and I was very Chill after that. Um, but yeah, it's uncomfortable. It's really interesting to Push the threshold of like Where do you break?

When it comes to comfort Mine like mine's very low like I know that about myself And I think that's why I'm very grateful and appreciative that I can live most of the time in an environment where I like that threshold Wasn't even tested, but yeah, yes, I mean climate like it's true like there's just the point where it's so fucking hot You just an asshole everyone turns into an asshole and it's like yeah, I get it. Yeah, I see I don't think cold does that That's what I'm saying cold. You're just trying to survive. I feel like yeah, it doesn't turn you into an asshole though It's just the one like sweating and like being Hot and sticky. It's the worst. It's the worst. There's nothing sexy about it. You're sitting there. You don't even want to touch No, no, no, there's nothing. I've DJ'd many gigs in places like I remember as in Vietnam and a girl was talking to me and I was just like Pouring yeah, like I hate yeah sweat and I was like nothing. I say right now is just just I'm disgusting I don't want to even talk to you because I feel like I'm just gross don't even look at me so yeah fuck the heat and I got an email just now actually to add to the insult to injury nice from my old agent Telling me there's a promoter in Tunisia Who's requesting I refund a fee that they sent me I told you that I actually this has been going on for a little bit But they just sent another email Apparently I played a gig apparently I had a gig in Tunisia in 2019 and it was canceled due to like a venue situation But they had already sent the fee and now which I 2019 I don't even remember that was it's hundred years ago. Yeah, exactly. So That money is long gone. That's the old world. They need to accept that. Yeah, that's the way things used to be 2019 BC so I It's got to be it. I'm guessing it's over a thousand dollars You're I was actually and I'm like what do I do about that much. It's not that much, but it's It's enough staff that I just took this hit. I don't want to like And I know the right thing to do is to contact them and maybe do it $1,000 not like you ripped them for like 25k I know it's probably like 1500 or something it's definitely less than 2000 and I just don't want to pay that money back because it's long gone I don't have it and I Don't want to fly to Tunisia for a free gig Right now just be like our pain installments. I'll give you like $50 for the next 20 months. I think you take drugs coin. Yeah, drugs coin. That's what they'll be like. Yeah, we do Brooks coin has been a real lesson in what the hell is going on. So you launched that and I could see Wow how hectic it was I was watching it you were in the middle of it You were watching things that very few people I think were immediately tuned into there's probably like a hundred people or so who watched the launch and it was It was very Unique launch and I'll say the chart does not accurately reflect what happened because of two things one So we collected all of this money and we put it into a liquidity pool. So basically matching a certain amount of drugs tokens with a certain amount of dollars, right, so we added that to the US DC pool and Then one of our team members was like, hey, you know what on pancake swap you should have it in BMB That's easier liquidity. It's how people trade back and forth. We're like, all right. No problem so we pulled it and In that interim, which is maybe like two or three minutes the price ran up where we listed it at what point zero nine zero nine and so less than a cent and By the time I pulled the liquidity To re-add it to B&B it was up to like 25 28 cents and I'm like, okay, that's cool Like hey the private people like it wonderful So I went to go add the liquidity back in with the B&B bear and I immediately noticed like oh fuck Like this isn't adding up like there's not enough They want more B&B because this is so expensive now I don't have enough to like match where it's supposed to be so it's like shit like what do I do?

And I literally just kept asking my team full transfer says like what what do we do and no one at an answer? No one and I'm like fuck I gotta figure this out So it's like alright if I understand this correctly I have to make this number equal this number So we can add the same amount of liquidity because I know the dot and the first thought is is like did I lose everyone's money? I didn't luckily I knew from the beginning that I wasn't gonna be in a position to do that So it's like I'll the money's there. I just have to get the liquidity right So what I did is I started loading in $10,000 then $50,000 at a time to lower the price because people would sell when it's 25 cents Everyone's gonna sell you got it for like less than a cent when it's 25 cents. Everyone's gonna try to sell which isn't a bad thing It's normal. It's like yeah, that's what you would expect if someone made a lot of money from it. So at that point The price I'm bringing it back down to parity. I add the liquidity from there I this is where the question comes in and I've been thinking about this and I brought it up to everyone who I've mentioned this too is I don't know if I prevented bots from Crashing this coin and like totally screwing the liquidity by driving the price up at such an astronomical amount that like it would have been Impossible for people to like not take profits and lose money So basically like a pump and dump or did I prevent the price from going up to like a stable place?

That's higher than where it is now because it looks like from anyone who doesn't know me and wasn't following this coin What it looks like is hey, we just invested in something two minutes after this thing is launched All the liquidity is pulled and they've been talking about how it's locked in everything else. Totally. I thought to myself Wow, this is a bull fucking heist that he just pulled but there's no way he did this So then I was like immediately that thought across a room for like a mill is like with then I thought maybe somebody hacked And it somehow took all the liquidity took all the money No, I was pretty secure I was confident about most of that I wouldn't have launched it if I thought there was like people just to be clear Ten lose money by investing in something and selling when the price goes down that there's nothing like that's a real risk of any investment But I knew that there was no like scams. There was no rug pull So anyway, what happened was is it launched it's sitting like 30% below what it listed at and I think that's primarily because there were some big people people had a lot of money invested in it and you know like five times the amount we put in and which was a significant amount and There the market started going down. They're like hey, I can get out now at break even Let me cash out and pull like what essentially was like a large chunk of liquidity So the price is like 30% below where it launched that I keep buying a little bit more. There's more buys than sells I think the cool thing we're gonna be launching and I think you were around when I first, you know Was coming up with this idea is you're gonna be able to use drugs to farm like LSD MDMA meth K like there's gonna be all these other drugs that you can earn that will have inherent value that are tied to liquidity And we're working out those details should be like next week or so. We have like that fully vetted But it's gonna be fun like I think most people understand that at at core. It's a meme coin It's not supposed to be like some revolutionary World-solving blockchain technology. Yeah, that that to me is What has made this an easy enough and stress-free first stressful as it was is launching a coin Also, this happened right when Aslan was born literally like the day he was born Yeah, thanks. Did you talk about him on the podcast yet?

Just the last one because I said he was he was just getting about to get out of the NICU and so he's fine He's good. He's good. He's super cute. He's super cute. He's a little angel. I saw him. He really is He really is a sweet little angel. He's very easy. I got to say the fact that I'm recording these and being able to do regular shit It's a testament to how easy it is. But yeah, I mean drug squine. I don't know if they accept that for your You can ask them be like listen. I got this hot Joel Madden tweeted about it. I showed you that If you're wondering who that is I thought it was the guy who made shoes Joe Madden Steve Madden I was going all the shoes guy John Madden the football guy. He's he's in a drugs coin He's dead. He's been dead for ten years. I'm and died Pretty little forever in some ways No, not 15 years where no, no John John Madden didn't die 15 years ago. Maybe like five John he was a big guy. He did like this to her duckins John Madden died in Not 15 no way 15 is like Madden was still like I was playing Madden Is he dead? He's alive. Is he alive? I knew John Madden was dead What the fuck he's alive. John man doesn't die. He's like an archetypal figure who's ever last He's like, uh, what's his name? Dick Clark?

He'll be the god. He's still alive. I thought he was I was convinced talking man shit about John now He's never gonna invest in change. He's 85 years old Wow, he's a big guy Yeah Yeah, the the coin It was interesting to watch You technically made money. I did make money I was up to eight thousand at one point and I was writing Noah texting him But I just knew he was in the middle of like chaos It was real and so I wasn't getting a reply So I just had to put on my fucking thinking cap, which obviously doesn't work Just don't put on any caps and I was like shit here. We go four in the morning Break into the mainframe and get exactly like How to hack I was like here we go and Yeah, I fucked it up and I woke up. I woke up in the morning Of course, I was dreaming about it. It's like, you know, yeah I went it permeated my dreams and I I In my dreams that the money was in my coinbase account when I woke up and I was like, yeah, and then I woke up Have you ever had a dream? I guess it's a reverse of like a nightmare Where you know when you wake up sometimes you're like, thank god that was a dream Well, I woke up and I was like fuck that was a dream. I had the money in my dream I woke up I looked at my coinbase and it was like no, I feel like that just a normal life most of the time I think that's basically What's going on? It's like, yeah, I mean The money Will come back in a different permutation once you let it go That's kind of what I've got accustomed to especially like crypto is pretty good for that It does come back in unexpected ways of various times. You've been burned two times twice three times You're out. Yeah, I know I thought about that. There's not only times I've been burned since 2013. I mean 20 no, it's you it's the price you pay like what you're giving up also when you're dealing with cryptocurrency for the most part is A bank or financial institution protecting your money. It's then it's now your responsibility That's the trade-off. It's not like it's a free exchange like oh everything is great. This solves everything It's like now you're responsible for it. I guarantee I 100% guarantee you will never send Cross chain USDC never so, you know, it's I learned so much actually from you and from from out our friend who who actually drew it out for me like like a kindergarten on a piece of paper. He's like this is finance This is a theorem. This is Coinbase. He's like these two don't work together and I'll wear a circle Okay, I get it He's like and what you did was move that I was like, oh, okay, so I'm not getting the money back is what you You lost fucking all your money 88. Yeah, I mean I maintain that there is a possibility given regulatory like advancements that Binance and Coinbase could theoretically come up with cross-chain interoperability for the exchanges in the future which would mean that unless they're going in and Wiping your wallet you fear that will always be in that wallet on the blockchain You can go check that transaction ID and you will see it arrive in that wallet It's just a wallet that you don't have access to because you don't and this also brings up an important point for like private keys and shit If you don't have the private keys to your wallet That shit technically isn't yours. Why can't Binance reverse?

The fucking transaction well Theoretically they can because it's centralized the reason they can't is because you didn't technically do this Through Binance you use their smart chain their blockchain, which is autonomous to some level. It's not fully It's pretty centralized, but yeah, it's basically it's there. It's like having money like in a place like under the couch that you'll never be able to reach but you know, it's there well I'm sure there's a couple of like hackers that listen to this if you want to get in touch of me And you know that you can get them when I'll give you 20% Yeah, I mean no one someone out there how can gain access to anyone that works at Coinbase I really want to be cool like help a struggling artist out. Yeah Yeah, Alp said like there's no way corn base is gonna give give you the keys to that while unless it like really Affects the market like there's billion dollar in there or something. That's really gonna But other not they're like all right. Sorry for your fucking loss. I don't care Yeah, I'm sorry. I'm changing go they tried to steal money from me and tea literally I bring it up every time They're not really to be trusted They're like a bank yeah, they're like a bank and They're like shady like a bank is yeah, also, you know to buy you should be using on the app coinbase Pro the trader. It's the fees are less From now on. Yeah, are you paying a fee?

On coinbase pro pro. Yeah, but it's significantly smaller. I'm saying are you what? What makes it that limit orders? I'm saying are you paying a fee to go to for coinbase? No, it's free Okay, yeah, it's you have an account by default. I'm just gonna take a bit of a step back from crypto for a month After you take a little bit of a hit I'm just like all right. This maybe never maybe don't like Get involved I don't think I've ever had that I think the only time I had that approach to 2018 when it was just So fucking clear that like whatever had happened was like over for a little bit We decided to take a step back. Yeah, I was like I can't look at this every day like I'll tune in often I had the server so I was like pretty clued in but like I wasn't like Trying to figure out ways to like yield farm or like optimize my gains I was like all right. I just saw myself make a shitload of money. I cashed out some I just lost more than I ever thought I would in like a few weeks period of time Maybe I take a few plays off here champ, but you know, I I don't know that we're in that scenario Right now. It's totally possible. We are but I I just doesn't feel like that to me and uh, yeah, I don't know Crypto, it's a motherfucker. Yeah, I also look at it as like this is I'm still I only got in in october and it's been fucking Through the roof since then so I was like all right. You're finally dealing with reality and It's obviously not going to continue to just go up up up. So just if you hold this it will though You know, I know it will go like wow. I'm glad that I held that. That's that's one of the cool things about it is over time I think some of the people who've done the best with bitcoin or any of these other things are people who buy Genuinely forget for like like I made more doing that from 2013 to 2017 than any other strategy Just in terms of multiples like I didn't pay attention every day. What I started paying attention when it was like a thousand dollars I was like whoa, that's a lot higher than what I bought it for but that tends to work for most people Um, it's just we do go through these kind of weird periods of time where it's like hey The more you kind of throw at this shit the higher it goes up because we're seeing some transition But yeah, well, you've been kicked in the pants quite a bit in life In general, no, I'm not saying I had this terrible life. But like I said, I've What do you do? Lessing rejection disappointment and you're just like at this point in at this age It doesn't really affect it stings, but you're just like oh, this is just part of fucking life like deal with it And it's not like something to it's not really Life-altering if it was like my life savings then I'd be like fuck this sucks, but or if I was I don't know divorcing a wife and I had Bigger-ish kids and all this stuff. I did that. Yeah, you did this Yeah You just do it. No, you just do it. Exactly. Um Also, I'm just feeling a bit antsy at the moment because summer has started Yeah And I want to like be active. I think because this is my first summer in america because I was living in Europe for the past 12 years and usually I'm Kind of bouncing around and maybe I know this is going to sound really fucking I'm pretty Madonna, but like I usually am an Ibisa on a beach Or just like how you gonna go beach and seeing friends and doing stuff and now I'm like I'm getting a little antsy. I want to do stuff. I want to see people Dreamlands coming back and I can't wait to to do that um And now I'm reflecting on how much of a dick I sound like about being an Ibisa But really this was like that's fine. There's nothing wrong with that No, I always tell my friends like obviously when you live in euro Jumping to spain is like going to washing dc or philadelphia. It's like a two-hour fucking. Yeah, it's easy. Yeah, it's easy. Um so I'm feeling Anty I am I took I micro dust mushrooms yesterday out of boredom Take a little acid to the mushrooms. I have an intense these these chocolate ones that we got There's euphoric make me feel a little bit like they're I'm on mdma. Yeah um And then I was sweating because it's hot 800 degrees, so I just do you have fun you listen to music and I sat in my room with acon listen to music and uh Yeah, it was good. Um But yeah, I want I also realized it's the middle of june already like this shit is flying by the summer is going to be over and I feel like I don't know why maybe because things are opening up There's this pressure again, which sucks because when things were shut down. There was no pressure in a way I should do what I don't know pressure to perform. It's been over a year now Of maybe like okay a year of chilling and not doing anything and knowing that you can't really go out Was nice to have that break, but I think now naturally I'm and i'm sure a lot of people are starting to be like, all right Let's open shit up. Let's go. Let's do things. Let's go to a concert. Let's let's go fly somewhere. Yeah Let's see let's gather and like do do things and be active Um, and things are opening up in New York So I kind of feel like I don't know. I mean you you're busy as fuck you had a kid. You just had a baby You just launched the coin. I just need to be like Yeah, I want to make music though. Yeah, that's the main thing. It's it's I I kind of feel Sometimes like there are these I don't want to call them ebbs. It's not the right word for it But like there's these lulls or like I want to say like Not obligation in a bad way But things that you know that energetically like kind of have to go through or do to get to Places where there's kind of the upswing from that and identifying those and just kind of like maintaining a sense of like I don't know. I don't know if it's progress or like level-headedness that really comes in handy because I definitely know From all the things that have been going on for me too, which is like, yeah I'm not a ton of free time for doing anything I want to do You just kind of keep in mind that like you do have enough time to do all of this shit You really want to do there's no obligation. I also imagine a lot of people feel like that Like it's you know things are kind of being lifted. There's social pressures. There's you know responsibilities. There's Interactions if you're introverted you have to now go be extroverted again. It's a whole thing so I think that it's not going to be as Difficult or like it's going to be bumpy But it's not going to be like horrible turbulence for people and then you just think oh, yeah, we hang a game This is great. Like there's a reason people like to hang out and gather in groups is because it's fun Like you know what I mean? Like maybe people like that in varying degrees, but like I don't know. I think I think dreamland's going to be nice just because There's a nice group of people who are just into like kind of relaxing and having a good time Which to me is a priority. This was a big reason why I moved up here. Yeah, just to have that community um So yeah, I'm very much looking forward to that happening and in general things kind of opening up and Going on in the city going down there for a little bit, but yeah, yeah city school. I miss the city I've been there probably the longest time since I moved up here. Yeah, it's been like at least six or seven months. Yeah, shit Yeah Yeah, well, it's just opening back up. I don't I don't sense that your arc of downward luck is No, I've been through this many times. Yeah, and it also I'm I'm I'm realizing like I am focusing and exaggerating on things that The toilet seat crack. That's amazing though. That's good. Yeah, you have to those are the things where you have to like literally Recognize the like ridiculousness of it. Yeah, of course To like snap you out like everyone has that like where you're just getting you taking it on the chin over and over and over again And then you're just like this is too ridiculous. Yeah. Yeah, it's just like all right enough This is like a comedy of errors now and you're just you have to laugh at it I had a situation like this and many many moons ago in Argentina at a gig Where I It's a I'm not going to tell the story. It's very graphic and gross, but as it was happening It was the one of the most at the time. I was 23 or something. Yeah I was terrified at what was going on from like a basically I was With a girl at her parents house and I was up for three days. It was near as even Argentina. I was up for three days partying and it was Disgustingly hot because it was summer down there and um, I met a girl and we we were like hanging out It's a party blah blah blah and then she had to go home eventually because she's not Fucking lunatic like me and she went to sleep and uh, she was like, I'd like to invite you to dinner tomorrow I think she said out my parents, but at the time I just didn't really I just all I heard was dinner Tomorrow and I was like, let's do it. Yeah, so I proceeded to stay awake like an idiot and The next what drugs are you doing? A lot of ecstasy. Yeah. Yeah and cocaine. Yeah. I was gonna take cocaine I was like, there's gotta be cocaine involved. Yeah, there's Argentina. It was amazing cocaine actually um and uh She called me the next day And was like, hey, so dinner is at like five And meanwhile, it's like three in the afternoon I'm at an after party somewhere in Argentina and I'm like, holy shit I gotta get my stuff together and take a shower or whatever. I roll up to her house And it is her Her mother her father her three sisters her brother and her grandmother What the fuck and none of them speak english. I am sweating profusely like Completely drugged out thinking what the fuck did I just walk into how long did you have to stay there?

Well, this Jesus so Cut to the dinner. I'm also I'm like, I'm not hungry. Of course not you're on cocaine Don't go dead. I'm not hungry. They lay out this like huge. It's stravagan. Are you travelling in Argentina? Stakes. Yeah, like steak steak is the last thing that is going in my body right now This is so and it's also they don't have a see they have one little tiny fan blowing It's really like a hundred degrees out And then I just start panicking and um I next thing I know I'm in a different room and the whole family is surrounding me. I'm on a chair You fainted? I fainted. I passed out I passed the fuck out fainted and then here's the fucking here's the fucking Wow I smell something and I'm like, no, I'm like, oh no, I farted. No, you didn't know All of a sudden I'm moving my chair and I'm like, oh my god What did you do?

No, I know but like what I ran and here's the thing I had shorts on So I ran up. This is a disgusting story. Sorry, but I ran up. I was like, don't they abandon you And you had to hold the shit. It was it was down the leg. They saw down the leg There was a trail leading up to the bathroom And I went to the bathroom was like, what is happening? What are you doing right now? Do you just shit your pants in someone's house? And this girl's house in front of a fucking grandmother like what is wrong with you? And then I Was like you need to clean up and get your shit together and run run for the fucking hills And so I just went to clean up and I was like I just Gagged at how disgusting was I threw up in the sink Which is the worst place to throw because it's like yeah, you can't clean it. You can't swallow drain in Argentina anyways I went shower. You really I watched I washed myself off And I looked at this small little window in the shower and I was like just climb out of it And run like don't face them. You don't want to look at them in the eyes like this is they know Desecrated their home. They know that there's duty on the fucking floor the carpet leading up like you need to Run and never be seen in this town again or country and um But as it was happening there was a moment of like This is the worst thing that ever happened to me in my 21 22 years of age But fuck this is going to be a great story. I can't wait to tell people this As wow 20 years i'm talking about it on a podcast, but I told many friends at the time Afterwards and they were this was like a story that you were like Gather around you went out the window. I don't know well well then insult to more injury i'm more insult to Injury she is knocking on a door and she's like are you okay? Are you okay like do not come in?

Do not open a door Puke sitting it was disgusting and then I I finally like after an hour in the bathroom. Was it like diarrhea? Oh, yeah, it wasn't like it wasn't though like like a salt. No, it was like three days of drugs and It was a crime scene Jesus Christ and I was like I need some pants or shorts and her brother who was at the time probably Five years younger than me and like a hundred pounds skinnier I gave me a pair of soccer shorts that were like Nut huggers so I had to put these on I come out of the bathroom just defeated Absolutely the speed just like don't look me in the eyes like please And she's like come lay down. I know you got sick light like lay down Let me get you some water and she took care of me this this angel And um I laid in her bed while her parents. I didn't look her parents and yeah, I don't know how to be honest I think I blacked out after this because I don't remember how I left I was just so in shock and it was one of these like all I could say that this was easily the worst most kind of like Of all the years traveling and DJing and in living life. This was the worst thing I was like what's murdering someone like accidentally killing someone maybe like Getting to an accident, but this was this was the worst and this was at a young age I mean that That is Fucking insane, but that's the type of thing where you're like how do I I can't imagine any one of those things happening All of them all of them. I think yeah, I mean when you walk in there Yeah, I probably would have done the same thing I mean, you just kind of try to tough it out and then probably just fuck and this reminded me because The the tiktok you just showed me which the perfectly Your fans tell you to it and it happened to me once and it was um never again never again I mean, I I didn't have any control over that uh, but this was uh at the time traumatizing and Bless that girl's heart. I forgot your name, but you're somewhere in Argentina and you are Sweet angel who took care of me and I apologize to your parents and your grandmother Because they were probably like who the fuck did you bring into our house? Like who's this fucking gringo that just Like drew up and shit all over the place. Yeah, that's not okay. I mean, it's not okay I'm trying to think if someone did that in my house I mean, I guess you would just be more concerned for the person than anything else because it's such a No one would do that like on purpose. I know it's like so much of a mess They're like, you know, let me let me toe the line here I really got to take a shit and pew but I'm just gonna come over I had no Urge to shit prior to fainting trust me. It's just I fainted. I lost control of my Everything um and I will say I will also you know Touch on the fact once again that was 21 years old, which is somehow better than 41 Yeah, it's a lot better if that's a story from like a week ago My good. That's bad. Yeah, you need to seek help so Yeah, I think I guess this goes back to just knowing when something so bad and stupid as having where you're like Would some people maybe never tell that story and be like, let me lock this down push this down and never talk about it You have to have to be like this is so embarrassing And may and just ridiculous about you think there are people out there who have had things like that and we'll never share it Totally. So people who's so insecure that Something like that would I think the thing is is that if you tell a story like that and you're already kind of like a bit of a A weak person. You're gonna get made fun of But I learned at a very early age if I make fun of myself before anyone else can it's usually a good Usually like a good defense, but it's just it's also outrageous I mean like the thing is is like There's no like you can't make fun of someone more for that like that is the most Situation that you can be in I mean I I only put my pants once and no well like once out in the world I was running with my friend. I hadn't worked out in like two years I was like 20 and I was like, you know what? Let's go to the YMCA It's like fucking 50 degrees unless run around this track a bunch 50 degrees 50 degrees cold as fuck so like Running around this track like a few times and like you know after the third time What I can only describe is like my body felt like it was shutting down Like it just was like going into like some mode I didn't know about I was like turned like pale Started feeling really queasy and weird and I was like I have to shit And I had to like run to these bushes and just like shit like uncontrollably And my friend was like dying laughing at me He's like what's in that?

And I was like I just had and I didn't even feel bad about I was like worried about myself because I was like, what was that? Like my body just literally was like, yo, whatever's in you now is coming out Well, this is normal with people who run marathons. You weren't running a marathon the length of a marathon No, but it was like I was at a shape and running like a round book to my body was probably the boss in the marathon Yes, well at least she had bushes Yeah, it was and no one was out there really except my friend because it was uh, so cold Killed for a bush that day. Yeah, that's no yours is another level. The the puking and the sink too That's also so disgusted with myself and the situation and what I saw But it's just the same yeah There and it's like but the thing is somehow I had I think I had taken a couple bites of steak And that's what came up which clogged the sink. Sorry. This is this gross. It is gross It is gross, but it is real The the like eight-year-old soccer shorts was really the Kicker. Yeah, I was like great. I've got these like little fucking Diego Dinner with her parents. What is she thinking? She was I was 21. I would say she was probably 18 Okay, she thought you were gonna get married. No, this was like a normal thing in Argentina She lived with the parents. She lived with her parents And she and I guess we had such an amazing time. She was like, please come to dinner at mine Not and she probably not on drugs. What preference? Yeah, probably I forgot to say that with my three sisters with my parents and grandmother. I would eat uh Completely I was uh an embarrassment to her and myself most of all, but yeah, well I hope you turn your life around bill I don't know if I could say that but yeah things got better Yeah, and I mean it's just only up from there I do think like there's a lot just Collectively going on now with people feeling like what the fuck am I supposed to do right now?

Should I be doing more? I want to do more Not just even weather dependent like people people don't even really know if they can be out like people are still wearing masks You know what I mean? Like that's still a thing up here. They don't know like the level of socialization. That's acceptable So it's like and I'm saying this as someone who really paid I wore the mask, but like I didn't I wasn't bound by The pandemic. I didn't feel like I couldn't go places and do no way I was thriving. Yeah, so yeah, I loved it I don't know. Maybe they'll bring it back for like season three season three, you know, there's got to be some They said bird flu is coming now. Great. No, I'm I was uh I had openly talked about how I was really Thriving in the pandemic I I felt like creatively we were doing some good stuff They didn't feel the social pressure of going out and making small talk and or getting on a plane and having to like go to a gig and Deal with like a shitty situation there and I was like wow, this is great. So Having said that. Yeah, I am looking forward to getting back out there a little bit and seeing Shortly after how I want to crawl back home and not go out and aspect of your life. Yeah, I get it Well, we'll see what happened Uh, what else you got? Are you still doing the podcast? Oh, wow. Yeah, I'm a little bit Disenchanted with the podcast to be honest. It's another thing like You have to prepare for it. Well, my you know Their levels to that preparation and evidence by the job. My partner Austin bless his heart is just Always prepared always has really good Stories and I feel like I if I just did a little preparation like a DJ said and I went into it with like okay here's some shit that I um Like all of these stories I should have been telling on my podcast. Yeah, so anyways, yeah, yeah, it's going It's going we just started a video um, we just recorded video of the last one that let's go up on twitch. Nice. Um, and on Seth troxler's twitch channel dream access dream axis tv tv and um Yeah, we're going to see how that goes, but now that's another Level of editing that I don't want to do like I don't want to edit video. I don't want to like be talking to ya. Yeah. Yeah, so I think the thing is is like it's with all this shit You have to make it fit into your life that doesn't mean you don't change or like learn a skill or something to like Make that mold be a little more like fitting but like Yeah, like don't do shit. You don't it was it's completely unsustainable like there's a reason I don't add things to this podcast that I'm like reducing it just because if it doesn't fit in to like what I'm naturally Gonna have time and space for and energy for that shit is never gonna work. It just doesn't Yeah, I think also from a creative standpoint, you know with with music and There's instant gratification and like oh, okay This song sounds great that we just made or this this DJ set the crowd was great with a podcast It's really hard to gauge. It's a long tail like what's going on and people listening I see the number is people listening But you know there's not a lot of feedback or there is but it's just like it's not really fulfilling Me right now in a way that I'm like I want to record another podcast. So Um, I think that also has to do with what I was talking about with to you last week just Ebbing and flowing yeah in the creative side of things. Yeah multiple allen. Yeah, so that's but uh the podcast is called unwell and it is great. I just need to Get motivated to do uh Another one also our schedules are hectic as fuck at the moment somehow. It's hard. He worked He's working at the Soho house. The place that we record is uh the fifth house and they're busy now with uh Events so it's been hard to kind of get in there, but um, um, and I also I live up here He lives in Jersey. So things are going to pick up though About really selling the podcast everyone. How's the podcast doing? It's doing great. I have said I'm still doing it Someone he's still doing it. Is that things still going on?

I had someone asked me that the other day. They said are you quit podcasting? It's like Jesus Christ. Fuck. All right Wow, no one has said that to me about DJing but I would imagine if that happened. I feel like it's come close Oh, yeah, DJing you still doing gigs? Yeah You know, wow No, you're you're pretty active though. I got a say for for everything that's going on It's not sure it's not that uh and you have the radio show chaotic neutral Which you are pretty good at this thing out regularly this I have to be good at because it's uh a deadline Um, which I find yeah good that you know when we were when we made our hour long Yeah, we said we had a deadline and it was like okay. We need to finish this by this date And so things I I guess I work better with deadlines. Maybe some deadlines. Yeah Yeah, but yeah the chaotic neutral that on on open lab dot FM and that is uh my radio show with like all sorts of music and then I'm hoping to Start this label, which I think the label idea started when we were really You know in the studio making music and things are like flowing now. There's been a bit of a hiatus so so uh The label has taken uh, you know, I think we can get some solid work done this month Because her mom is there With him like on nights and like that's really to be taken advantage of it's like just even like four or five nights Yeah, I was also doing I think from a work standpoint. I need to be better at like Just the technical stuff, which I I suck at admittedly like I don't know how to Get into ableton and do all this stuff and I think what program did you download for DJing for the set?

Tractor. Oh sure. Yeah, but that was for not DJing live. That was for internally At home listening to I gotcha. Yeah. Yeah um but uh I felt like I was in a good for there were days where you were like Ghana was on uh on the synthesizer I was on I was playing the drum machine and I was yeah, you got to stay out of it. It's the whole thing It's really not like riding a bike There comes a point where it is but It may take you a few days to get back on the bike and like learn again, but yeah, it's it's It is a I mean the thing with like most What we would probably call successful musicians They do that every day for the most yes for the most part even like pop stars You're like probably like they're not that talented like that's their life Like they're pretty much serving that as a vehicle for how they're expressing themselves It's good. I find when I have periods of my life where that's what i'm doing for like months If not years at a time is very fulfilling rewarding. So I i'm looking forward to that You know being a bigger part of what's going on. I've been saying that for years, but i've also been like You know getting divorced have another kids getting remarried A lot of shit. I feel like those moves are probably done for the immediate future at least. I feel confident in that so Um, yeah, man. We'll get back in the studio. Good. I can't wait. All right. Good episode. Yeah. Thanks for having me. Yeah, man Yeah Oh Thanks for tuning in until the end of the episode hope you enjoyed that one it's pretty good fun conversation Uh, go check out the patreon if you liked it this far. We do more stuff over there We're doing a few live streams every month. We do the tarot stuff the readings the weekly readings There's fun stuff. The discord is probably the biggest selling point That seems to be what people enjoy the most. It's fun times There will be a point you have heard this some of you will not join the discord And it'll be like a few months from now and crypto is gonna be gold crazy again You're gonna call man. I should have done it then just do it now It's cheap the lowest tier. You can leave you still get access little wink wink not not there for you Okay, that's it. I'll see you soon. Bye. Bye The world's biggest soccer tournament has arrived and you can trade the entire tournament on calcium Argentina is currently trading at over 8 percent to win at all meaning a hundred dollar trade pays out over a thousand dollars if they win soccer's biggest prize On calcium you're trading against other people on a live market. No house no wants makers for a limited time Don't want the calcium app and use code hoops to get ten dollars when you trade ten klsh Calci trade the beautiful game Any less only restrictions and eligibility requirements apply event content trading involves risk and may not be suitable for all investors Prices values and available markets may differ from those mentioned for more information see calcium.com slash regulatory We have the tech to get food delivered in 15 minutes, but we all have horror stories about buying tickets the game time app gives fans the advantage get amazing tickets in just a Few taps fees are included So what you see is what you pay and the game time guarantee means authentic tickets at the best price every time Take the guesswork out of buying tickets to concerts sports comedy and more with game time Download the game time app and create an account for $20 off your first purchase term supply