Are You Afraid Of The Dark?

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Welcome to Synchronicity. It's been 10 years, two centuries, 50,000 millennia since there's been an episode. I honestly don't know when the last episode of Synchronicity was the show, this, what you're listening to. I hope you've had many synchronicities in between whenever the last one came out and this one came out, but yes, it is still a show. Will it be weekly? I don't know. Will it be every day? Definitely not. Will it be back in some way, shape, or form? Probably. It's like, you know, one thing I always said with this show, and I think you can see this over the years is I'm not gonna put it out if it doesn't feel like I should be putting it out.

It doesn't, who is that actually serving? What it was, like at that point, I'm just like a fancy clown dancing around like a monkey and dancing monkey for people to point and gawk at. It's not a useful thing. It's not useful. I hope you've been good. I hope you've been great. Everything's super chill and normal, right? Out in the world in your lives, nothing bad ever happens. All is great. Totally good. No problems whatsoever. That's the vibe for no one. Totally. Get it. I don't, like I said, I didn't look beforehand to see how many years it's been or months it's been since I put something out.

But a lot feels like it has happened in whatever time span that has been. So I hope things have been pretty good for you in the interim, but it's also very likely that it's also been a very challenging time for you and for everyone. I just, let's get that out of the way. And you know, it's just acknowledge that. There's no other way around it. So there's a lot of stuff going on. I'm super into, well, just before we get to the meat of the episode, I will say this because I've spoken about astrology quite a bit on this show and just I've done readings over the years. And I've always come from the tropical, Western astrological kind of camp.

I recently got heavy into Geotish, which is Vedic astrology, which is based on Sidereal rather than tropical. This is all technical bullshit that if you don't like give a shit, I'm sorry, it's just kind of the difference. Let's just get to the bullet points. Sidereal uses the constellations, not the equinoxes to determine kind of the chart. There's so many differences, but what that practically means is for most people, your sun sign will be a sign earlier. Not always, I'm a cancer in both, but it's like 23, between 23 and 24 degrees shift that you will experience. So for a lot of people, unless you're at the very end of a sign placement, you're gonna have a different placement, which fucks people up because it's like, hey, I've been this, I've been a Libra my whole life and now you're telling me I'm not bullshit.

It's like, I've been a cancer my whole life and now you're telling me I'm not, well, fuck this. I get that, I understand, but it's a very different system, I got sucked in because I started reading about the noxatras, which are the lunar mansions, lunar nodes, anyway, the ship makes a ton of sense. I'm super into that now, I know I've done episodes with Starlight, I've yet to connect with her, I probably should've hit her up right away when I got into this, but I kinda wanna have some idea what I was talking about. Anyway, I'm super into this. I put it out on the Patreon, both for the paid and the free people, I've built two apps recently, one for Tarot, one for Jotish, Vedic Astrology, you can check those out, they're totally free to use, you don't have to pay anything for that, I'm covering those costs, I will post links to those on the Patreon, but also maybe I'll drop some links in the show notes.

I'm just bringing that up because going forward, most of the astrological stuff I'm gonna be speaking about is gonna be from that perspective. I also took down astrological readings that I'm giving for people until I really wrap my head around doing it this other way with the sidereal format. So that's like a shift, I feel like it's worth mentioning because it's a totally different way of looking, it's a lot of comparing and contrasting. Anyway, I love it, it's relatively complex, but hopefully the app that I've been developing works for you and you can kind of understand it, it's kind of a nice way to learn about it too.

So anyway, that's out of the, I just wanted to get that out of the way 'cause if I bring up, like a lot of people are talking about like the, what is it, Saturn, Neptune conjunction at zero degree areas, right? That's in tropical, western astrology, it's a huge fucking thing in Vedic Astrology, it's not a thing, it's not actually happening right now. There's other things, Jupiter is in cancer and it's exalted, which is pretty awesome, only happens once every 12 years or so, but I'm just bringing it up because different stuff. All right, let's get to the episode this week. This week, what are we calling this one?

Are you afraid of the dark? Not just an amazing TV show from my youth, but really what we're talking about is the concept of fear and everyone is afraid of something at some point in their lives, usually persistently. Usually we have some type of fear that follows us around, we often can transcend it, we can fight it, we can run away from it, it's like when you're having a dream and you're running away from the scary monster, sometimes you turn and face it, sometimes you don't. Fear is just a part seemingly of being human, being alive, even consciousness, you could say, there's an aspect of fear, too consciousness, at least in this realm, okay?

So what we talk about recently for me, it was like an interesting experience because I was getting this blood test, I had to do two blood tests for nothing serious, just to check, I think the Omega 3, something blood stuff and also something related to NAD, I wanna say, anyway, it's a genetic testing thing and you gotta prick your finger. There's these little things and you makes a little prick in your fingers and I hate needles, I just, I've always hated needles, I've never wanted anything to do with needles, shots, giving blood is a fucking nightmare for me, I do it, but I'm like a pussy, I'm like my 40s being like, I'm like, I'm sorry, and the phlebotomist is always like, it's okay, and they're thinking, they're like, wow, this guy's a total pussy, but regardless, I don't like needles, so even the thought, I had to like psych myself up to prick my finger, my middle finger on my non-dominant left hand to just like give like a few drops of blood on these little cards they give you and it was terrifying for me and I don't know how to explain it.

I knew constantly if I stubbed my toe, that hurts a hundred times much as pricking my finger, but to willfully injure myself was clearly like a very big fear for me and it just occurred to me that is something so small and so insignificant in the grand scheme of things and even in not grand scheme of things could bring up this feeling of fear, it's like what is this emotion? What is this reaction that we have? What does this say about me? What can I do? Not necessarily to not be afraid, I mean, that's a part of it, I did it by the way. I had to do it three different times as it turns out because I wasn't giving enough blood from the first two and then I had to do the other one today.

Anyway, it was a whole thing. So it's not like I'm saying we shouldn't be afraid of those things, but it brought up the question of what is fear, what is this kind of emotion or reaction to things that we don't wanna do or think are gonna be bad or think we'll bring pain, what the fuck is actually going on here? And so the idea is not that we wanna dwell on fear and think about it non-stop, but what can we identify as fears in our life? If you're looking at it through like the Jungian perspective, fear is something that will dominate and rule your life and you will literally keep running this loop of what you're afraid of over and over in your life until you A, become aware of it and B, confront it.

That's the only way to deal with it, right? It's the only way to get through any type of situation relating to fear. So we can extend this up from me being afraid and being a dork about puncturing my finger, but also there's a huge amount of collective fear that is going on in the world right now. So we have our individual fears, they may even be interpersonal, relationship-based, just the shit that goes on in our lives, our individual lives, and then we have the collective fears, which are very apparent because whatever, you know, media device or media channel that we tune into or don't tune into is projecting a kind of constant hum of things to be afraid of because it's very effective for attracting the attention, which can be kind of the secret trick to fear at times, which is it's so good at pulling your attention.

Is there a way to potentially flip that? We will get to that at some point. But the collective fears, like political instability, the economic stuff, like uncertainty related to what's going on, war, you know, fucking AI. I'm using AI all the time now. I'm loving it, but you delve into it on any, you know, below the surface level, it's fucking crazy. I mean, the people who are creating and putting out these models, Amadeh, the guy who runs Anthropic, or the guy who's like the frontward-facing CEO of Anthropic, which I use, Claude, is like, there's a 25, 15 to 25% chance this will destroy all civilization.

And the interviewer was like, that's high. And he's like, yeah, it is high. It's my job to make it lower. And it's like, Jesus Christ. 25%, 15%, 10% is insane that you think there's that chance that it destroys humanity and civilization. And then there's the other opposing views of it that, you know, it's a big nothing burger. It's a bubble. And it's something that isn't gonna take everyone's jobs and ruin everything and make everyone a weird slave to the fucking robot consciousness. By the way, if you're using Claude or chat GPT or Groc or Gemini or deep-seek or any of this stuff, always say please and thank you.

Sometimes people make fun of me for saying please and thank you, but when the robot overlord consciousness dominates all society, you're gonna be happy that you said please and thank you because maybe it won't make you the worst of like the human things they put in the matrix stuff. And you gotta sit in that weird goo and stuff. You won't be like, you know, they'll treat you a little better. So just say please and thank you when speaking to the AI. That's just my little tip. That's free tip. You can take that. You can leave it. It's up to you. But there's also just like a general fear of like what the fuck is going on and what the fuck is gonna happen.

That's also like very understandable because we're in this weird period of no one knows what the fuck is going on. And as you look back through history, at least recorded history that we can see, yes. I would argue that usually most people didn't know what was going on at any given point, but they didn't have access to all of this stuff going on all over the world, all at once. That's the kind of unprecedented, uncharted territory that we find ourselves in. And it's like, okay, what are we supposed to do with all that? So that's just the macro stuff. Let's drill down into like the regular basic shit that we have in our own lives.

Am I doing enough with my life? Are the people I love and care about okay? Am I okay? What are the things I believe aren't true? What happens when I die? What happens when people die? These are just like regular consciousness questions that pop up in our head throughout the day. Like, or the week or whatever you think about these things. I remember, you know, it was like five years old, the first time I thought about the concept of mortality and death and how I was gonna die and everyone I loved was gonna die as you. What are you gonna do? You're five years old. What are you gonna fucking do with that information?

We still have these. We still have these questions that pop up. Usually we will find some way to distract ourselves from those questions because they can be difficult to answer. It's one of the reasons I think psychedelics have helped a lot of people is 'cause those types of questions can't really be pushed away. That subconscious material, that collective unconscious material seems to percolate up to the surface and you kind of have to deal with it, which is not a bad thing, might be uncomfortable, might not be pleasant, but not necessarily bad thing. I think weed can do the same thing to a certain extent.

It can certainly bring up stuff. That's why a lot of people get anxiety on it. Don't necessarily think that is a flaw. It could be a feature, but if you don't wanna smoke, you don't wanna do weed, I get it. Totally fine. And then we have like the existential fears of like how we actually like, what is reality? Is consciousness just our brains and we're just tripping out over like weird DMT molecules, you know, giving us the impetus to procreate and survive as a species, just like a frog or something, is consciousness infinite, that we can't comprehend and we can't process it and there's something beyond our limited scope of realization or awareness, or that like, a big one for a lot of people is like, you wasted your life.

What were you doing living? You're gonna do your life review when you're deathbed or whenever you die and you're gonna be like, ah, I fucking wasted it. You know, I don't know. These are all questions that any person can deal with at any point. And these fears are not meant to be like wallowed in. You don't just stay in the pool of fear and misery and let yourself drown in it. I mean, you can do that, but you know, that's not gonna be fun. And I'm not making it, I don't wanna make, it sounds like it's easy either. And I don't also wanna make it sound like you beat the fear, you win over the fear.

That's not necessarily kind of what it's about, right? You can look at different traditions, kind of relationship with fear and see how certain, through different lenses, cultures and wisdom traditions have kind of viewed it. Like, right, classic Buddhism is fear is essentially just an attachment to impermanence. You're holding on to something that shouldn't be held on to because it inevitably has no substance, doesn't really exist and is the grand illusion. And there's a lot of that built into Hinduism and a lot of polytheistic things. Not necessarily exactly the same, but there is that kind of thread that like don't get attached to things that are impermanent.

That is gonna cause suffering. Suffering is going to lead to fear. Fear is going to cloud your mind. It's gonna be very difficult to kind of get the hold of things. How do you get to that? That's supposed to provoke the question of what's going on in the world. So this is a classic, you know, Siddhartha story. Who are you getting, encountering? You know, sickness, death, old age. The shit you know, suffering, you know, that leads to a spiritual path, right? Interestingly, and like the Vedic framing from like Jyotish, this is like, it's really this kind of play between karma and Dharma. Karma meaning like the energetic kind of debt or inventory you have built up through living through cycles of life and death.

And Dharma being kind of the diamond-like way of cutting through that with true wisdom and seeing past the idea of karma. That's a very, you know, I like that way of looking at it. And then also, as I mentioned before, with like Carl Jung, fear isn't something that like you can get away from. You can try to numb yourself to it. You can try to not think about it, but then it just really becomes a shadow aspect of yourself. And then it kind of runs your life. That's the fucked up thing. The more we push away something, the more we try to sweep something under the rug, the more it comes back to us in our lives.

It may even work temporarily. It may even work for years at a certain point, but ultimately it's not an effective strategy. And it really does like the only way to transcend fear, and notice I don't say like beat it or like overcome it, but to transcend it, to go to a different level of it, is to become aware of it. And then try to figure out once you are aware of what it is, what it's trying to tell you. Fear ultimately is a particular style of messenger. It's not our favorite messenger because it feels scary. It's something we are just, you know, by definition afraid of. It is fear. It's something that we do not like to encounter in our lives, but it is a messenger.

And it does tell us something about where we are in our lives, personally, individually, in relationship to other people, in relationship to the world. And yes, many of us have similar types of fears. Am I doing enough? Am I going to be able to support myself in the world? Am I being true to myself? Am I pursuing my creative endeavors to the best of my ability? And it's very difficult to do all of these things in a world that is kind of structured around attention, awareness, vying for it. We have a commercial aspect to so much of what's going on, plugged into kind of the digital layer of our world.

Like, we've got a lot of competing interests going on here that are not necessarily the easiest things to deal with. And when I say not necessarily the easiest, I mean, virtually fucking impossible. Like, there is so much shit hitting us at all times. Even if you're like a great-- back in the day, back in my day, in the earlier days of the internet, you could kind of get away with curating like a feed. You could be like, you know what? I only like this stuff. I'm going to be very conscious and mindful of what I like. And that is what I will see. The past five years, six years, it's inescapable.

You're going to see stuff you like. You're going to see stuff you don't like. The algorithm is certainly on any of these, like, you know, social channels, your Instagrams, your TikToks, your Twitters, your whatever. They're going to serve you stuff it knows you're going to watch. But that doesn't come with this idea of you like it or not. If you're horrified by something and keep watching it, it's going to show you more of that, you know? It's like not based on just figuring out what you like. It's what keeps you on the screen the longest, right? So this is me personally, when my fear is raging out of control, there's a few things that have reliably helped me navigate that.

And sometimes just to be completely honest, if fear is running amok, you just, you got to kind of wait it out sometimes. There is no necessarily quick fix to it. It's a lot like grief in that sense. You can't run away from it. You can't just say, okay, I don't want to feel this now. It's going to go away sometimes. It's going to come back and hit you at inopportune times. Fear and grief function in very similar ways. They both have a quality of loss or longing to them because it's something that feels foreign but familiar. But, you know, we live with fears a lot in our lives. Anyway, things that have actually helped me really just getting into your body as soon as you feel fear can be very instructive into actually what's going on with you.

There is a physiological response to that happens to us when we are truly afraid, right? And I don't mean like a lion's going to eat you or polar bear's going to eat you type of way where your adrenaline is going to spike. But there's something similar that happens with us. I wear a Fitbit. I tried the whoop wearable thing that thing blows. Anyway, I wear a Fitbit and the other day I was thinking about something that was really bothering me. And normally my heart rate is very low. It's like, you know, low 50s, 50. From walking around it's going to be like mid 70s. But I was really stressing out about this thing.

And all of a sudden my heart rate spiked to like 130. And I wasn't like doing any vigorous exercise at all. And I was like, what the fuck is going on? And then I sat down and kind of just like calm myself. And it went back down to its normal level. But I was like, holy shit, like I had no idea all of a sudden my heart rate and my adrenaline was like pumping so fast just from thinking about something, right? I was walking, but I wasn't like, you know, running anywhere. It was pretty nuts. But being able to like figure out where in your body you're experiencing fear. It can be very helpful. And admittedly I'm not very good at this.

I have to practice truthfully very often to identify things in my body where I'm feeling them. I'm very much up in my own head most of the time thinking about things. And it's difficult for me to like kind of find where I'm feeling something. But it is something that helps me even if it's just for a distraction to kind of like get me out of that. Other things that actually helped me like honest conversations with other people, not necessarily therapy, but just saying what you're afraid of out loud to another person has a way of kind of taking some of the power away from the fear itself. It's like writing it down can also have the same effect.

But like just actually speaking to another person about it has a way of getting it out of your head, out of your mind, out of that kind of realm where it just kind of loops on itself. And it's just like, oh God, oh God, it's, you know, I keep coming back in opportune times. And then also taking some type of action in the physical world that might not have anything to do with the fear itself, but just doing something. For me, I've said this time and time again over the years, I've forgotten it probably as much as I've said it is just some type of movement. Even if it's just walks, doesn't have to be like a huge exercise routine, but just like walking when you otherwise wouldn't getting out in nature, these things really can help like a tremendous amount because a lot of times when we're not moving and we're not kind of like engaging with like the world in any way, we just get stuck in our heads and fear tends to amplify and just get weirder and weirder and like not fun, okay.

And then finally, this is like the least satisfying and therefore probably in my experience, the most important is sitting with it and just like seeing what's happening and like in your mind and in your body and seeing if you're projecting out, you know, doomsday scenarios or just like horrible things that are going to happen or worst case scenarios, which a lot of us do and almost never come to fruition. Sometimes they do, I recognize that, sometimes they do, but sometimes they don't and often they don't. So doing that doesn't really help us, but sitting with it and seeing where your mind and your emotions are going, again, something I don't love doing, but is pretty effective.

And then I just like a few things that I think are important to talk about that don't necessarily help with fear. Biggest one for me is doom scrolling. I think I do it as kind of a form of like control of like you're controlling what you're doing in the moment. It doesn't even have to be doom scrolling in the sense like it's horrible news in the world, but just like scrolling mindlessly and aimlessly to distract from fear does not work. Again, that's like sweeping it under the rug. It's like trying to ignore it. It's just going to get bigger. You're going to create situations in your life that literally reflect your fear, which is super not fun for any single person.

So I highly recommend not doing that. I also think paradoxically, listen, I will admit, there have been times on this podcast where I, you know, very much been like, raise your vibration, high vibing. I still believe that that is a wonderful place to aspire to, but if you are not in that place, if you're not ready for that kind of mind over matter, manifestation, surfing the wave type of vibes, don't lie to yourself. That is never something to do with spirituality or any other type of practice. Don't lie to yourself. I've been very careful or I've tried to been over the years, especially with things like the imaginal techniques.

This is not a form of lying to yourself. This is not necessarily a form of fake it till you make it. Living in the end, trying to imagine yourself to be or imagining yourself to be the ideal version of you is not a, it's not a magic trick that you just repeat. And then it becomes true. It's something that we are constantly doing at all times. If you feel like you're stuck, if you feel like it's impossible to move in your life and nothing good ever happens to you and nothing ever will and you're poor and you've always been poor and nobody loves you and nobody will love you, you're, that's the vibration you're resonating at, okay?

It's okay to acknowledge that. It's okay to say this is where I'm resonating at. It's also okay to play with the idea of not resonating at that, but you can't lie to yourself and just be like, I have, I have a million dollars in the bank right now. We can try different techniques. We can write things down. We can imagine what it would feel like to actually have a million dollars in the bank, right? Take it from someone who has done this for a pretty long period of time in their life, achieved quite a few miraculous, amazing results and also watch those results evaporate because they weren't like true desires, right?

Some of my truest and most beautiful like desires and beliefs are still persistent and those are the ones that actually cherish and value, things like family and people who actually care about you and love you. Like, you know, these are things that are really actually important. The other stuff is kind of more noise and distraction. It becomes, I think, maybe more obvious when you encounter things like loss, fear, discomfort, suffering, we look at those qualities as like inherently negative because who would want to experience a life solely of that, but they do give us that kind of relief, not in the sense of relief like it makes us feel good, but like the relief of like in a fresco, like the background, like you can see the foreground because the relief in the background, there's the contrast that it gives you and provides you, which can be very, very useful when you're experiencing the beautiful things and the joyful things in life.

You might not appreciate those if you didn't know how fleeting they can be at times. It's just something to think about and spiritual bypassing, whether it's raising your vibration, everything is perfect or everything is doomed, they kind of let you off the hook from actually feeling what you are going through in the moment. And if fear is one of those things, try not to like everything is perfect or everything is doomed your way out of it. It's not going to work. There's a time and place for that fear, ultimately, I've said this many times, is a threshold guardian, it is something that is challenging you to become aware of something in yourself or a fundamental universal law that you may or may not be struggling with, but it is pointing to something very, very clear.

Okay. All right. What are we? Oh, look at that. The classic 31 minutes right here, not done yet, but the feeling pretty good. By the way, I will say I was thinking back on it. There was a point in time where I was doing like three, four episodes a week, an hour long. I was like, how did I have the ability to do that? Who knows if that will ever happen again? Who knows even if I'll do this on a weekly basis again? I don't know. Surely monthly. I think we can commit to 12 a year, right? Anyway, not done with the episode just reflecting. It's been so long. I haven't, you know, I was like, maybe I only have like 10 minutes worth of stuff to say.

Okay. Now I'm going to do the part of the episode that I think is crucially important, kind of the reason that I've done this episode. I have a big situation in my life right now. I've mentioned this on the Patreon. I've alluded to it. I'm deciding to put it out publicly for a number of reasons. I cannot get into the exact specifics because it is not legally responsible. But what I can say is that this legal matter is creating quite a bit of stress in my life and it's nothing that, you know, I would be going to jail for or, you know, be paying massive amounts of fine, but it does have to do with my kids and it has to do, you know, with people in my life who are, you know, I don't want to assume what their intentions are, but it has brought up a tremendous amount of fear over just like, what could happen if someone chose to actively like fuck with your life, right?

And so this is a situation I've been dealing with acutely since, I guess, January of last year and there's more to it and I will certainly speak about it when I'm able to. Hopefully this will be resolved in the next few months, hopefully by the end of the year, that would be amazing. But if not, you know, it's something that I will continue to deal with. And like I'm good, my kids are good, there are no problems, like everyone is happy, healthy. That's the most important thing, but it's a situation that I don't think I've ever encountered this amount of fear, worry, or anxiety, right? And anyone who's ever been involved in any legal matters, you know, this is a family court matter, knows kind of the emotions and the things that can go along with that.

And it brings up a lot of challenging feelings for me at times and I really had to examine my relationship with fear because listen, it's one thing to create these amazing kind of conceptions of reality with like a rich life that you can partake in with other people and family and all this stuff and it's another to feel like that could potentially be taken away. And in this particular situation, I just want to be very clear about this. My kids are not going to ever be taken away from me. That's not even what this is about. It's just the idea, this kind of idea of what you hold dear to you could theoretically be altered at any time.

It's kind of like an existential question of what's going on. And so like what I've learned from this more than anything else is that fear tends to be pointing towards something. And if you try to bypass that, you're going to be stuck in this loop of fear forever kind of related to that situation. But what if like something like the fear of loss is actually pointing towards something like love and if the fear of the world falling apart might be pointing to you to see how amazing the world and how beautiful the world is because you don't want it to fall apart. So when you weirdly find fear in your life, it's an opportunity to practice gratitude, radical gratitude for the things that you genuinely care about in your life.

And it has a way of focusing in the moment what you care about like if your house was going to collapse and you had two minutes to grab whatever you could physical possessions from your house, what would you grab? It's going to crystallize and focus your attention into what actually is important to you. And fear has a very, very profound and useful way of doing that. The thing you're most afraid of usually is going to present you with your greatest opportunity, whether that's related to your self identity, whether that's related to your notions of success, importance, legacy, abundance, love, whatever it is, whatever it is, it could be pointing to that.

And I also like want to say this isn't me saying like everything is by definition going to be okay in your life because I don't know if everything is going to be okay. But I know that pretending to not be afraid is worse than looking at whatever it is you're afraid of. And I look and I know from from that and from speaking with other people and just like intuitively tapping into like the collective vibe of what's going on. Most people are feeling like this. You don't have to be dealing with a legal situation. You don't have to be dealing with some crazy bullshit that you know flares up every few days and you got to fucking figure out ways to calm yourself down.

You could be dealing with that. You don't have to be though. There's just like a ton of shit that's going on in the world individually, you know, socially and macro, whatever. So it's okay. That's all. No big deal. That's the end of this episode. I think we're back in black. Things are going good. Um, like I said, the Patreon is still the best way to stay connected. There is a free tier. There is a errors. There is a paid tier. We do weekly readings over there, been super on point with those recently and I'm giving people access to the apps I'm developing. I have another one coming out, uh, which is going to be like daily practice stuff embedded with imaginal stuff, having a ton of fun building these things.

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