Wet For Change with Adrienne Airhart

[music] [music] Welcome to Synchronicity. My guest this week is Adrienne Earhart. She's been on before. She's the coolest. One of my favorite people to follow on social media. She's just, she's authentic, right? So I've been saying in a lot of these readings that, you know, if you see the color white in the tarot, it's representative of purity. But really what purity means is authenticity. And it's hard to find some of the more authentic than Adrienne. And if you tune into her, you know what I mean. So that's fun. We talk about a ton of shit in this one. The divorce. Ayahuasca. The divine feminine.

Sacred destruction. Getting perspective. Weed. All the stuff. It's amazing. Adrienne. Just so you know. Not just the cool person. She is a comedian. She is a cannabis professional. So you can see why we're friends. It's pretty obvious. And she has a new podcast coming out in a month called Glitchin. I wonder if we can get a home for that on my pod. We'll see. This is easily one of my favorite conversations I've had recently. I actually came here to LA a couple of months ago and we were going to record something. And I referenced it at the beginning, which is why I'll bring it up here. You know, Adrienne was not in a place to record a podcast and was like, "Adrienne, we are not recording."

Because we're going to wait until you're doing a lot better. And she's doing a lot better, guys. She's doing great. It's fucking amazing. So you're going to enjoy this episode. I know it. Let's talk about some of the stuff that's going on. Like guys, the Patreon, it's going well, starting to put out these readings. I lied. I said I do one a month and I'm doing like two, three a month because it's fun. That's why we're doing it. I also want to be clear about something that is likely to happen later this year. I'm going to most likely ramp down the number of solo casts that I do for a variety of reasons.

One is, listen, guys, I know I know I'm effective at speaking about this shit and making it easier and accessible. And I'm going to continue to do that until I need to. But I want to be very clear about something else. This is just one of the things I do. I don't really have grand aspirations to be a spiritual teacher or a life coach or someone who's writing books on this stuff. I'm going to continuously put out stuff that's helping me and it's my true pleasure to share. But it's not going to be like this forever. So I just want to say like if you're into that, if you want to kind of get a little deeper into this, the best way to do that is the Patreon.

That'll become clear over time, but that's genuinely, I just want to say that for everyone and nothing's changing immediately. There's nothing weird going on. I just want to say like I've been here in Laurel Canyon making a ton of music and as I've been doing that and kind of just like plumbing the depths of my soul, like it's very clear to me that that's my main thing. It doesn't mean I won't do this other stuff. I have a lot of things I want to do in life. But if you kind of want to want the more in depth, intimate stuff, the Patreon definitely is the place for you. Also, I've radically changed the way I've been doing readings over the past three, four weeks especially.

I've found that the shorter they are, the better they seem to be. Some of these hour ones like I'd be at the end and I'd just be like, you know, still be good stuff, but I'd be drained. So the main ones you can do now are 30 minute ones and I also offer 10 minute ones, which usually end up being 15. So those are also much more affordable because they're shorter time. So if you want to go check those out, sinkpodcast.com/readings, like I said, I'm constantly experimenting with the prices to find the happy place between what you guys want and what's best for me. So I think this is, I'm feeling pretty good about this, you know.

So I've experimented on Instagram doing these short ones and it's just been a joy. So those are up and available. Now you don't have to complain about them being so expensive and unattainable. There's all sorts for all sorts of people. Okay, I think we're good. Oh, let's give a little, a little tip before we go. So a lot of people have been asking like, you know, they'll do an imaginal act, they'll do this thing and then they'll immediately negate it. They'll hear this little voice in their heads that that's not true. That's not going to happen. So I want to give a tip on how to deal with that.

So whenever something comes up that feels like a problem or self-defeating talk or self-limiting, just say to yourself, how did I solve that problem? How did I do that? Or say, if you feel poor, if you feel poor, say I'm rich and you say, oh, I'm just lying myself. This is nothing. This feels wrong. Well, that's sure, sure, sure. But think of it kind of like you're kicking soccer balls at a really good goalie and that goalie is your subconscious, not letting things in because of beliefs you already have. At a certain point, you're going to kick one past the goalie. If you just keep doing it, no matter how good he is.

So just keep telling yourself that you are, that you desire to be, that's what you are. Just keep trying it persistent. This is for my logical and analytical friends as much as anyone because the real way that we summon forth all of this stuff is emotion and feeling and logic and reason can get in the way of that. So anyone who has any tendency to be logical or rational at the exclusion of feelings and intuition, this is the year for you to get in touch with that, okay? It's a big, a big, a big thing that you're going through. I have a little cold, I haven't gotten a cold in like eight months. I made a commitment with myself that I would only be getting one cold a year.

So I guess I'm getting it out of the way early here. It's pretty good. It's weird. I thought it was allergies at first because I was like, why, why, because I feel really good all the time. Now when I get a cold, I guess like I feel good, but I just have like the symptoms, it's like recognizing them like my eye waters and my nose is a little stuffy. But anyway, things are good. Things are really good. I hope things are great for you to just just relax. That's the key word of this month and next month. It's just relax. Settle into it. It's not a big deal. Whatever is going on in your life, don't react to anything and you'll be good.

All right. Let's get to this episode. I know you're ready without further ado, here is Adrienne Airmen. Do you know how to put this out? Like that? I'm just letting you notice. Yeah. Cool. That's actually the best way to start. But the dick was good. You know, isn't that kind of like half the battle? Oh, that matters right now. Really? Yeah. I mean, it is a time to feel good. There's one thing I've learned. It's that. Newly single, all I care about is if the dick is good and if they're not mean. Oh, come on. And if they're not mean. Yeah. Not mean is also important. Yeah. Yeah. Mean is bad. Mean is bad.

Well, it's optional too. You don't have to. You know? Yeah. I mean, I had mean a little bit in the last one. I don't think I want to tolerate this. I mean, the dick is good, but how good? Not that good. Adrian, welcome to the podcast. Thank you. Best, best opening I've had. That's what he said. Yeah. Yeah. That is what he said and meant it. So what's what's new with you since we last spoke two, three, four, maybe years ago? Two years ago. I don't even know. Something like that. Absolutely. We spoke. I wasn't. I don't think I was married yet. Oh, you guys just about to get married. Yeah. And now I'm getting divorced.

It's like nothing ever happened, right? Little book end. Oh, shit. Back to square one. So you probably learned a lot through that. I've seen your Twitter, seeing your Instagram, going through it. But it's good. You know, sometimes when people go through this stuff, it can be sad and scary. There's something about the way you're doing it that was like very authentic. And like, I know for you, that's probably foreign. You're like, yo, I just saw myself spazzing out and continue to see that. But trust me, I've seen a lot of spazz outs as you have online. People just, you know, sometimes they just flame out.

It's a burnout. Yours is like a controlled burn. You may not see it like that, but it is, it's good because like, you know, relationships ending, however they end, in your case, relatively traumatic and you can get as into it as you want to. Yeah. I'm an open book. Yeah. It's obviously. You follow me. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. But you learn a lot and you also just said something and I don't want to lose it in the beginning here that, you know, our last conversation, we definitely spoke about ayahuasca. Yeah. And I spoke to you and him separately and it both had a profound impact on both of you. And I just did ayahuasca on Saturday for the first time, but you said you just discovered something about it and I'm interested to hear what you've learned since this is kind of like the thread that ties all this shit together.

It is, isn't it? Second Alex. Yeah. So I've done ayahuasca twice and the first time was, I think, 2014 and then the second time was 2015 and air subtle is my husband, almost ex-husband. And I'm just going to say his name. Sometimes I do a fake name on a podcast. I just don't have the energy. Puzzle, like it's not a complicated puzzle to put together. Right. Yeah. Googled me. Yeah. You'll find him. I did hide everything as much as I could on my socials, but you can find it still. And we did ayahuasca together. We did everything together for eight years. And he was like across the tent for me and this was a monumental session for us because I saw in my head the world ending, like lava, earth cracking apart.

I don't know if you ever saw the land before time. Yeah, of course. Yeah. Great little foots watching like the world just like end. That's literally what I was seeing. And I felt this pressure in my hand. And I was like someone's holding my hand right now, my left hand. And I could just feel it. And I remember like touching my hand and being like, okay, in real life, I don't have this. So this is like, I have to go back in and every time I would open my eyes and I could feel that pressure in my hand, I was like, I got to go back. And it was like the anxiety that comes and it shows you all the things you did bad.

And you know, mother ayahuasca always talks to us differently each time. And then at the end of it, it was like the sun was coming out and I was looking at all this destruction and I could still feel this pressure in my hand. And I looked down and I see it's a man's hand and then I look up and it's Aristotle. And he's not smiling or frowning or crying or anything. He's just looking at me and I took it as the world ends and he's there for me and that's like why I decided to marry him. Like he said he saw something similar in his head that like the world was ending and I was there. And he said the message he kept getting from mother ayahuasca was you inverted the time was she's she's she's the one for you Aristotle and he's the one for me twin flame and what I had a revelation of couple days ago I was just out loud talking to a guy dating actually about why I decided to get married and I was like it was ayahuasca blah blah and I was like and then I realized the hand holding was the pressure was holding me back and the world ending was the result and I was he was watching it happen to me knowing that he was causing that to me and wanting to let go of me and I see it now I see that I wanted to see it the other way and I chose to read it that way and really I should have like followed my heart my instinct which was that it's equating him with the destruction of my world.

In a way though that also I'm sure you're starting to see this or see it in a productive way if not painful right I mean you do see what you're learning and have learned from this relationship was just what I was talking a little bit before offers like we now actually get to determine how painful we want these things to be which which seems insane that seems crazy that we would actually have any degree of control it doesn't mean we control the situations and it does but it we don't we can control how we respond and react and see things so I think you'll be setting up some smoother situations for yourself and I know that but yeah your world did get blown up so did his right both ways yours wow and you did it because yeah don't they say don't make major decisions based on visions in ayahuasca at least like for a few days I didn't know that we don't like immediately it was like it in play it in septed four months later I would have accepted you yeah you knew it like when you had that resident perfect you see that it was perfect do you see that yet okay yeah I mean we didn't have any doubts the whole time before getting engaged and then being engaged like neither of us ever once said maybe we shouldn't do this did you ever feel that there was something energetically off yeah for sure okay see now that's different yeah so there were there were doubts you may were just ignoring I mean he was like no kids right and I was like okay oh I love you that much okay oh no that's not how that works I know and but I had decided and like to this date I mean I froze my eggs recently this is you can watch my Instagram so yeah shoot myself in the stomach with hormones I just honestly I didn't know how hard it was and I think more men and and people should understand what IVF is what a woman goes through because it's fucking insane what about birth what about being pregnant for nine months I mean you're if you're lucky and you get to that point but like just saying the whole thing yeah it's a lot being insane and men don't understand it no shit but I went through that and I and I made that like now I have an option I have 16 eggs on ice chillin for waiting for me if I decide to have a kid I might still not want one you know and I know I don't know if I'm thinking about having a kid because my mom wants grandkids so badly and I feel the pressure I know so I'm like this is what I'm learning as a codependent person as a as a possible love addict I'm trying to diagnose myself with everything I'm getting outside help I'm not just diagnosing myself like I have to make decisions on what I want and I have to try really hard to figure out what I want and I don't know I don't know who I am are you sure are you sure about that you don't know what you want I don't know what I want okay it took me 35 years to figure that out that's how old I am okay it took me 35 years to figure so maybe I'll figure it out this year well you can say maybe the easiest thing to do is figure out what you feel like you don't have right now something you want like a desire mm-hmm anything money you wanna hear something crazy yeah that's what I started with I just had another kid when I found all this shit mm-hmm I didn't start with like let me be a holy awesome person imagination is reality do whatever I want like I need to move on money I need a skrilla now and furthermore I wanted it without having to go like do stuff for it I was like I want recurring stream and I didn't want I didn't embed this in but I also didn't want it to be elicit all I would have taken illicit let's be honest but I wasn't ruling anything out but it wasn't illicit um so I started doing this shit I started doing these imaginal techniques and uh money started coming out of nowhere YouTube started just feeding me all of a sudden and then all these other magical things started to happen so you can start with anything that you want in life there is no don't do that because that's not holy that's not what you're supposed to use it or it's a neutral thing all of this stuff okay just harm none right do what you will do what you will yeah I mean exactly the only ethical framework that I advise people to use on this path is the golden rule mm-hmm just do one to others now the golden rule is a little more slippery than people maybe think it is um but it is the one ethical and do everything lovingly for yourself and for others if you just keep those simple things in mind you're good to go do whatever you want you have as much money as you want especially if you're loving about it you're going to be generous you're going to give it to people you're going to make people's lives better you should have the money you're going to have the money mm-hmm as people understand that they'll start to see it flows into their life but anyway you can use this shit for anything what were we talking about that led me to this you were saying you don't know what do you want so you said money yeah good what else sex sex okay great great sex okay it's just weird that this is exactly the two things I started with um so well companionship like a homie who I'm attracted to ah see you dive in a little deeper okay companionship which involves great sex mm-hmm which involves respect respect trust mm-hmm trust is the gonna be the hardest one for me because of how my marriage ended correct um if you want it to be I'm trying don't try okay I'm so annoying I'm like fucking annoying Yoda like annoying you're like don't try you're like do order not just fucking super annoying um I'm weird about the syntax shit because it's indicative of where people are when you accept that you're just like you know what I'm done with that shit you're done with it like for real and you I'm too wounded well that's because that's what you believe and feel right now mm-hmm if you go and use the mirror technique um with the event did I you talk about that the mirror thing so okay let's talk about that in a second but if you use this technique um and you just give yourself not being wounded uh-huh you're not wounded anymore and you'll you'll you'll do this thing um so five months after my husband leaves me for a 24 year old I'm not gonna feel the pain of that anymore if you don't want to I am quite serious everyone keeps telling me two years minimum that sounds like bullshit to me that sounds awful uh it sounds also like something that people are telling you and you're believing and if you understand that it could literally be like a few days if you do this and start building up your own self-confidence and you remember who you are and you understand what the fuck this world is yeah you could be totally cool not only could you be cool you'll whip this whole thing into like the most positive thing you basically transmute suffering and pain into abundance and fucking prosperity and love I'm ready to transmute dude oh it's best sometimes you gotta release sometimes you catch people's vibes and you can't transmute that because they want to go through some shit yeah a lot of people are from up bonding is what I just did with the last guy and I'm not about it I'm not into it anymore sometimes you know and you know one of the things you said is true like sometimes in relationships you can process other relationships and that's a very healthy thing to do but if it turns into kind of like a pity party you know where people are just pouring their emotions and sex into that's what we did yeah that's a thing that's a vibe fuck three times a night talk about how sad we were and then I'd go home and not sleep over yeah that sounds about like a dream in a nutshell oh shit we're still buds of course because there's actually a function to that too it is in a weird way a connection that is healing yeah you may not feel like it at all times I mean the word bond is in there for a reason yeah we bonded well bonds can be like Chinese finger traps too you know what I mean yeah there's there's bonds you don't want to be in sometimes get rash on your finger yeah just like you're stuck in that shit you don't realize you gotta push it together to get out push it together to get out you can't fucking resist and try to get away get away yeah you can really get over this shit whenever you want I am very careful about who I say this to when I say it to them because people like you know when I would have not said this to you the last time we were gonna have a wreck you would have fucking probably punched me in the face if I was like yo yeah you do it you be like dude I don't know what you're on but I will take some but I don't think so but any energy I don't even honestly remember what I was like you're a different person you're a different person was I sad or mad you were shell shocked yeah you were straight up it looked like Pearl Harbor just happened you were chilling with your family everyone's gone and you're like I don't I don't know I don't know what this what is this you weren't I mean like I don't even wouldn't like there was definitely sadness but it was more like just what the fuck just happened yeah yeah yeah there was a lot yeah I've come a long way since then and that wasn't that long that wasn't that long ago you know but yeah you uh you can do whatever you want in this world when you want to so but getting back to I think a really important thing and I want to just talk about this because I know a lot of people who come to me for readings and ask questions about this stuff deal with this like I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing I don't know who I am I don't know so you do everyone does like Socrates proved this or Plato talked about Socrates proving this when like people have this inherent wisdom they just need to have it be teased out of them so you know kind of these big things that you want we're good that's the first step then you use the tech that I can tell you any of these techniques yet I don't know I don't think so okay all right let's just do remedial techniques over medial it's super remedial English for Adrian you're gonna love it you need everyone needs remedial until you until you come and you're like yo I'm in charge of everything and I fucking know it no I'm gifted right so here's the gifted class bootstrap thank you that's lesson number one all I have is my smarts okay wrong lesson number one though is ego is great anyone who tells you ego is bad and that you should smash it and get around it and it's not productive doesn't understand what they're talking about because I don't understand what the ego is that's number one love your ego anything you attack try to subdue push down is an assign that you have an unhealthy relationship even if it seems like something like objectively bad you shouldn't be a statistical it's a nebulous term that means very different things to a lot of different people yeah ego and it's positive sense get shit for you yeah it's like a buddy it's like a fucking wolf that you're like yo go get that from me and it's like yeah but if you let your shit get hungry and fucking out of control it will attack anyone who comes around it and it'll attack you so just be cool do it just so you can feed it feed it but feed it nice and like pet it and love it and cuddle it's great okay here's the technique you now have two things that you want right money and a relationship we won't qualify that too much but there's some aspects there that you identified okay we're going to use two different techniques for each of those we'll use for the money the imagine you're helping me figure shit out here this is great for the imagine technique the first one that I started talking about we'll use for this okay here's what you do money you know what you want now it's a desire as you're going to sleep tonight or any night you don't even have to be asleep I like to smoke weed for this you can do it in real life real life oh my god you can do it in this waking life if you want but as you're going to sleep you're going to find this liminal boundary between going to sleep and being asleep okay a little twilight sleep area it's a little I hate that area oh no no no I'm gonna fall oh yeah you do oh you're not actually falling everything's rising up yeah it feels like falling but it's it feels like falling but things you're sending okay you're like the fun dad that takes me away on the weekend everything you know is wrong yeah it's kind of true everything your mother told you is wrong yeah that's kind of like yeah yeah that's what my dad did a little bit so basically in that space you're going to be relaxed it's referred to as a state akin to sleep but it's a relaxed attention not some holy state you could be drunk you can be high you can be on anything if there's no like pure holy state to be in it's just that state relax the tension you're gonna construct a scene in your imagination can you visualize in your mind's eye can you do that yeah I asked because some people can I know I can talk about it yeah okay I was like they're like I can't do that like I only can hear I'm like whoa so there's other ways to get around it you don't I know you can imagine wonderful okay you're gonna construct a scene about five seconds long or shorter it's gonna have as much sensory vividness as this world mm-hmm all the senses that you can build in great and it's gonna imply that what you want your wish your desire has already happened so if it's money it's not gonna be how you're gonna get the money it's not gonna be the things you did it's gonna be the money in your bank account or conversation with a friend being like oh my god right it's gonna be from within your own perspective you're not watching a movie of yourself you're watching it from within your own perspective and the most important thing is you're going to feel how you would actually feel if it were true okay okay five seconds short repeat the scene in this state that state that where you're falling I mean if you're falling you don't even understand how quickly this is gonna work this is great keep doing this okay don't do anything else the first few times to make what you desire have happened don't take any extra steps this is very important especially for you the reason is is what will happen is that scene you imagine and felt and accepted you'll probably drift off to sleep all good you'll notice your consciousness starts to change things you used to react to will seem a little bit different if it's money if you lose a lot of money or like you had a big expense you won't bother you big huh no big deal weird that's weird usually I freak out if I have to like I just recently lost like close to a thousand dollars and normally I'd be like what the fuck and like I can't really afford to lose a thousand dollars but I'm watching myself be like this is fine like I'm either totally crazy and then as I do that more money starts coming so anyway the point is this you're gonna construct this scene things are gonna change and then whatever you use that technique for and the feeling is the whole thing you have to feel how you would feel so I'm gonna give you an example also of how this would look practically let's say you worked a nine to five and you wanted a promotion okay so the technique you would use that the practical employment of this would be in your mind's eye you construct a scene as you're going to sleep of someone shaking your hand at the office or someone giving you a hug saying congratulations on the promotion we play that five seconds five seconds if your mind starts to wander snap it back to that start to expand this name snap it back to that just do that until you go to sleep what happens is you eventually walk into these scenes and you walk into them with enough matching up that you're like what the fuck like this is not how things are supposed to work the first three four times has happened to me I was like still doubting it I'm still like okay now like this is something going on but fifth time I'm like oh fuck oh shit this world is not what I thought it was this is not how things are supposed to work so that's technique number one use that one for money at first then use it for state's consciousness use it for fearlessness unconditional love security safety harmony balance equanimity clarity start using it for that what do I use for orgasms okay so orgasms are easy oh my god you don't even know you don't even know I know this is right I don't they're very hard oh no especially on prozac okay well maybe that I don't know about that but you know prozac you can figure out with these techniques because you know I'm gonna get off of it don't worry it's whatever you want it's whatever you want I don't I don't encourage people to do or don't do things that they don't want to do yeah orgasms all I can tell you is when I started using this stuff I started recognizing that by saying I am and putting any state after that or anything that it seemed to to actually come true pretty quickly so I started putting things down like I'm amazing at sex like I'm low and behold not many days after that my sex life got incredible like to the point where I'm like what the fuck just happened not just the connection and the actual sex my stamina shit was happening I want to get too explicit here but like really like 10 minutes later no problem lasting hours at like multiple orgasms forgotten like what is this so that's it's child's play really I know you were awake what do you mean I'm sure I was definitely awake it's a real thing yeah I've had that recently too it's fucking awesome it's crazy yeah this is a more common thing now is people kind of wake up to who they actually are because who wouldn't want that and the sex life you know that's what you want it works for literally everything now I'll give you the second technique this is this is a good episode because I've never talked about them together the mirror technique I found this out a few weeks ago radically changed my life that imaginal stuff works but we still have a tendency to maybe react if it doesn't happen quick enough like if you imagine money and then it doesn't come and like the time frame you wanted you interpose yourself into it and then that is reflected back to you that's because this world is a time delayed mirror mm-hmm like if we look at the mirror there easy to understand there's a boundary around it it refracts backs back light if we stand in front of it we see a reflection if we move out of it we're no longer there super easy to understand this world also a mirror the boundary is sleep in altered states of consciousness but it's time delayed so this makes no sense to us we're like no this is real this what are you talking about there's no mirror this is actually a real place but it is and it's energetically and the way to think of that is your consciousness your sense of I am who you are your imagination that's like liquid golden liquid light it's golden liquid light this world is crystallized liquid light it's hardened into something but before it gets hardened it's liquid and we basically let it out picture into this reality okay the way we prove this to ourselves that this is a time delayed mirror um is like this and I'll actually let's go with the underpinnings of how this works okay so let's use money as an example again if I look at my bank account and there's only a few hundred dollars in it and I go I'm wealthy I know how imagination creates reality I have hundreds of thousands of dollars in my bank account immediately my sensory input says you're fucking insane like you're actually a crazy person you know you need to watch out you're not mm-hmm furthermore if I use the imaginal technique I just gave you to do it and I'm pretty sure I'm feeling it my consciousness is changing money start to flow in all this stuff but if I react to it and I start to believe oh maybe it doesn't work like that maybe you know it's back to scientific materialism logical analytical boom boom boom this is where the time delayed mirror comes into play that energetic reaction is reflected back to a sooner than the previous imagined state so there's a way to circumvent this I'm just giving you kind of something I've noticed as people experiment with these techniques they another weird thing can happen if you use that imaginal technique the opposite can happen and people freak the fuck out like their world starts to collapse and they're like what the fuck I'm like what did you think was gonna happen you're gonna be the same person with the whole new life and it's not okay but to mitigate even that use this technique and I have one after this we're not gonna talk about this tonight because I'm still flashing out it's fucking crazy but this one is great and it works about in my experience 12 hours mm-hmm to three days okay yeah don't use it lightly because it's fucking potent okay in your mind's eye the same imagination thing from your own perspective you're gonna imagine yourself in front of a mirror okay and in the mirror anything you want you're gonna give to yourself in that mirror this is the way to use it for a relationship if you want a partner who's unconditionally loving you give yourself unconditional love if you want a partner who's hilarious you give yourself being hilarious if you want a partner who's unconditionally accepting you give yourself in the mirror you're watching yourself you're giving yourself these qualities you're feeling the qualities in the mirror each thing five ten seconds no it does not have to be this whole long fucking rigmarole just give yourself whatever that's it you're done a minute you could work through like as many things money I caution against people I caution against putting people in the mirror until you're very sure energetically that's a match and gonna be harmonious and productive in the ways that you want it to be the reason is sometimes we can get fixated on a person and the qualities from that we're picking up sensorily in this world and energetically here and there's something we can imagine that's actually what we're supposed to experience so just give yourself the qualities of first don't put people in the mirror I do recommend that for now later you can do it when it's more clear why but anyway here's how this works this world is like base level lower deck reality okay it's just baseline the imaginal realm that first segment gave you is a higher dimensional reality than this world it's like dream space actual space the mirror world you and the mirror is a higher dimensional reality than that world you're creating an abstraction of an abstraction right okay for some reason we don't have a hard problem we don't have a hard time at all accepting the gifts in the mirror like we just accept them we're just like yeah whatever this is even me whatever I'll just give myself unconditional love in this mirror world no big deal here's what really happens you're not attached to the outcome this is a fun game it's playful it's not a big deal you're giving yourself in a mirror that reality cascades down into the imaginal realm which then cascades down into this realm so this shit that it feels like it's not really that big of a deal when you do it for real it happens real fucking fast and in ways that are unpredictable you cannot imagine the means you can't imagine the the ways that it happens that's impossible as far as I can tell nor would you want to that would suck for everything for literally everything now if people are like hey well what if we all use this for a million dollars here's what would happen unlikely everyone would get their million dollars what would happen is is a large subset of people would have the abundance that they imagine a million dollars would buy them come into their lives a large portion would have the exact opposite happen temporarily probably react to it and not get it then a portion of them would realize that they never wanted the money in the first place they wanted something else completely different get shown that pretty quickly and then go that because no one really wants a million dollars as a thing it's just paper it's a value it's number they want the things associated with it security comfort stability so if you just start with those things you'd be surprised how you're also allowed to have the money yeah also allowed to have the things that validate that these two techniques the only time they don't work is when people don't try them that's it okay fucking I'll try anything dude you're at the point I'm single I'll try anything once that's a bold statement but yeah basically that shit works for everything like for everything in life use wisely because you pull the rip court on some of these big dreams on some of these big things when you start to understand what this is you surf those big waves you want to make sure you're you're uncomfortable out there heart strong core make sure yeah exactly because if not you it's cool to get knocked off a six foot wave a 10 foot wave even a 15 foot 20 foot wave when you're on like a thousand foot wave you don't want to get knocked off that shit you know it's cool to get knocked off to learn at smaller things but you can't drown either you don't drown in this shit you just fucking feels like drowning so you don't want to get knocked off yeah it's the best so use that for your money and relationships it what else do I have love sick what else is new work trying to figure out what I want to do with my my day job situation and my podcast is coming soon cool I actually have like serious gears spinning for it amazing yes amazing just manifested that shit and I'm writing a book cool what's it about my life that make sense and it's so weird the day that we broke up I'd had a meeting with a manager who told me that I was fascinating and I needed to write about my life and I was like my life's not that interesting and then I came home and my marriage ended it was so weird it was the Lionsgate isn't it weird like when things are so on the nose and you're like yo people wouldn't believe this if I they would be like you got to rewrite this I know that's how reality actually works because you know why it's funny and it has a sense of humor because we have a sense of humor now just to be clear that's not how it works for everyone sometimes those marriages just come out they're not linked directly to like hey life story this is what you're supposed to do right yeah you seem to be pretty kind to yourself which leads me to believe you're not gonna have trouble I'm kind to myself yeah yeah like I'm not punishing myself is not at all no one's punishing themselves number one number two you're perceiving most likely or a lot of people do their problems quote unquote as like vexing troublesome things they're not they literally exist to show you that you can transcend them effortlessly and easily and when you do that for big things quote unquote in your life you become indomitable you basically can't be stopped dominoous no man right you can't be stopped yeah I get that I get that vibe I want to be content but not so much that I rest on my laurels and I want to be happy and I want to be helpful I want to like bestow knowledge on people and keep building like that's my favorite thing to do at work is like build up other women and men too I'm not gonna like you know not work with them but like they don't need as much extra help I don't know I think they need more help or if you met men I've met men you think they're doing good for the most I feel like the white men are doing some some are I mean you ever dig a little deeper I never turned down helping somebody so if someone asked for help them regardless but women I go out of my way to offer challenging your professional and kind of energetic inklings at all men I hate men yeah men men um and I love them of course men are have been operating many of them from a very unconscious place for the past few thousand years and it's been a masculine age and when the masculine age is in control and you have unconscious masculine age it's pretty rough for everyone men and women this is shifted dramatically people have felt it and the feminine is like she's been running the show for a little bit before people actually thought but it's becoming very apparent right now and men who like I got a equinox I joined equinox I love it it's just so bougie I love it I fucking own that shit and it's the best but at equinox I'm a 24 hour fitness bitch oh I love this shit I love it I never thought I'd be the super person I just fucking and I'm so comfortable there it's so disturbing oh my god they had the little here's a little equinox tip I've learned this now every equinox has a little subtle incline step up and you don't know where it is but it's at every single one of them I've been to them in New York and LA now and it's to show who knows what the place is you don't stumble because you get used to you look like a jackass that first time you go that's where the step is so they always know the people were coming for the first time it's like this weird psychological thing that like not 88 compliant it's fucking in every single one it's so freak interesting but I love the equinox but when you go there you do run into bro bros like bro bros and now if you get there too late if you're not there early it's not the high powered executives and people actually want to work out it's like people want to be seen and man I feel I used to judge these people real hard I used to be like yo but I feel it is is rough out there if you don't if you're not sensitive to energy in this day and age you are just getting slammed slammed you have no fucking idea why these people who we look at who we think are you know have their shit together those people are fucked up in the head they're fucked they don't their reality is falling apart every day probably for them and they don't know why I only bring this up because I think a lot of this year is this reconciliation of and it's the balancing of these masculine and feminine energies and I have a a hunch part of what you're going to help women with is how to navigate their relationships whether it's with other women or men in an energetically balanced way that sounds pretty clear that you're going to be doing that balanced yeah yeah balances the name of the game it's am I balanced is that why I can offer that yeah when you understand who you really are you will be pretty happy I want to you you do you just have to allow yourself to fully remember it and accept her and accept her and love her that's the best thing when you start unconditionally loving forgiving and accepting yourself that's the hard part no it's not hard it's not hard to me never been able to do it do it in the mirror and I'm disgusting and I hate myself Mary okay well that's ridiculous I'm a comedian this is how we are no no see now I know okay do you know why I'm lucky in this position for comedians I know a lot of comedians I know a lot of comedians friends with a lot of community of them love themselves yes and some of them are in the process of learning how to love themselves and a miss apprehension from a lot of comedians is that if they start loving themselves it'll suck the humor out if they're wrong that's a belief that some people believe and if that's what they believe facts whatever you believe is true the people I know who are doing the best comedy of their lives are truly beginning to love themselves there's a stick they can still run you can still do the self-deprecating stuff but you can do it in a way that like it's clear there's a love there too so it doesn't like suck your objective awareness and comedians are amazing for the same reason poets and musicians are like they're showing you the subtle shit underneath the surface your humor and your comedy humor horrible word your comedy doesn't go away and your ability to be funny doesn't go away as you love yourself it gets so much better like what I mean insanely it's effortless to you don't have to dig this mythos of like having to put the artist put themselves through shit to get the art there's some validity to it like I've done it objectively and I do it to some extent but just dip your toes he's in you don't got to jump in the fucking waters of suffering and live there forever you just jump in get what you need okay got it funny joke funny experience boom got it keep it moving actually happy and fulfilled trust me I know comedians like who varying degrees of success varying degrees their success is based more on their belief of them being successful than it has to do with their like some of the best comedians I know are pre they're like they're not even on the cusp of like D level you know but they're the funniest people I saw this happen with my buddy Vic Burger who Tim Heidecker plucked up out of everywhere like I remember him on Twitter and we have like 50 followers I'm like this is the funniest dude I've ever seen they blew the fuck up because of course he did it's like the funny shit so yeah man you you get funnier when you start to love yourself you have to know that though if you don't and you run this program that like as I start to love myself and become fulfilled I'll get less funny that sounds like a lame program you right you right you know what I mean right but you're naturally funny it doesn't go away oh a lot of my natural funny is pain though okay it's an awareness of pain it's an awareness of pain but it doesn't mean you have to live in the pain to have an awareness of it I'd like to stop living in the pain good that's the first step to say you're ready and then it happens you say I'm ready to not do that and then boom I'm ready I'm wet boom yeah boom that's what it is just get super wet for change I'm wet for change but it is wet for Hillary should have been wet for change well politics did you watch any of this shit not dude I don't have the brain space for that right this minute isn't I'll catch up this weekend I will what is there I just got I have a lot going on right now I feel you I tuned in for about five minutes last night and I'm like yum good I'm good whoever I my friends my smart friends who I like and respect they keep telling me Bernie I was a yang gang guy just like the novelty of it I'm still undecided I don't give a shit I voted for it doesn't none of this matters is this world is not real correct yeah correct not in a detached totally detached way but what world is real is the one in front of your face every single day yeah that's real and prove to yourself that you can stabilize that and then if you want to be one of those people goes and changes the broader thing because you're into it and you love doing that by all means there's nothing wrong with that either yep yeah yeah there's it's a lot I'm working on myself in every way that I can right now I was pushing myself too hard I burn out tore something in my hip yeah I have to go to physical therapy now but I did ballet for 20 years and then like started running because my I had a really hyper dog that just recently rehomed and I was getting up every morning at 6am and running him in like the weather changed to get cold I wasn't really stretching I was sleepy and like I fucking tore my shit and I'm suffering now they think it's labral but did they look at it and say for sure it is no I haven't gotten it Mariah let me tell you a little story okay you can take this for what it's worth this is true so my wife after she gave birth had excruciating hip pain excruciating to the point where she couldn't really walk anymore okay don't you're gonna like the end of the story okay this is about the same time I started getting into this imagination shit right oh yeah I'm telling her all of these things about imagination she goes to a physical therapist they tell her from that meeting two months they think it's this this is this all these things blah blah blah blah I said listen she was devastated she was like oh my god I can't believe I have to do all this stuff I said Alexis I've been experiencing some weird shit you've been objectively watching a lot of weird shit also specifically related to my health like I don't get sick anymore I'm around toddlers and shit I don't get sick it's weird I know why so I'm like listen just imagine using those techniques I give the first one where you imagine a scene that implies you're good she had the scene running with with our toddler she did this I think it took in total and she fought fought it but when she was at her lowest I think it took nine maybe eight days hundred percent hundred percent better what now that's one story and she'll tell you this here's two another two other how okay I'm trying to tell you that when you understand what this reality is I just think my hip pain away it'll go away well you have to actually know how this works first you have to believe that that's possible I could subjectively I do this for people I love and they know I'm doing that you can heal other people if you want but they have to be willing to be healed it's better to heal yourself it's a much better thing to do because you can prove it to yourself our babysitter had chronic shoulder pain she had surgery on it she had gastrointestinal problems I gave her some books spoke a little bit about this stuff ten days later all of her shoulder pain was gone she had had surgery on it all of it her she was gluten intolerant what was eating gluten happily I kept checking in with her I'm like how are you like every week every week god never been better I don't know what's gone it's freaking me out truthfully truthfully truthfully this world is a dream you have to understand it you have to throw chock or shit you know and letting go universal secrets is trying to keep you down but try it for everything in your life all you need is an open mind there are things that make that easier but just don't buy into the narratives like you gave a very convincing narrative of why you had hit pain whether changes lack of stretching lack of you know activity 20 year history up I will point out my my wife was bet did ballet for about 20 years like for real for all of those things you believe those things they sound convincing when you know they're just narratives and stories that you're making up and obliterate them as actual reasons and get to the root level which is your belief creates this stuff and you start accepting that whether it's a technique or just effortlessly watch what happens in your life okay just watch what happens and I'm not saying your life gets utopian you still deal with changes like the one of the first things that happened to me it sounds like you already did this in reverse order is my kid got very sick my two-month-old like very very sick in the hospital sick and my initial reaction and response was just to like lose my shit I went home that night I had a drive an hour to get to the hospital every day just use this imagination stuff went into the hospital felt differently the vibe of the room started to change cuz I felt differently put my hands on my son a little bit he was supposed to be there three weeks with RSV was out in three days three fucking days and people be like no you know that shit happens there's no correlation okay I don't give a shit I know how I felt I was on the fucking floor the day before every other day I came back I was fucking beaming light of positivity and he got out in three days so I don't give a shit you can tell me correlation or causation or not it's irrelevant to me I know how I would have reacted I had a kid you know a three and a half year old at that point every time you get the sniffles I'd lose my fucking shit I'd lose my fucking shit neurotic do his dad right lose my shit not anymore they're good and you can do it for yourself you start with yourself just uh you'll start to enjoy the existing problems you have you'll know a that they're solved number one and number two you'll enjoy them because you'll be able to transcend them you'd be like oh my god just saw them I fucking hit point now listen if you crack your fucking femur I'm not saying you imagine that it's being healed now truthfully I am if you can actually do that but most people are not going to be able to transcend that level right but if it's like this one of these weird kind of indeterminate we think it's this we think it's that we can give you a narrative that makes sense and satisfies your logical mind just challenge it a little bit and see if you can get around it the other ways um I can do that yeah and let me know what happens it's uh I'll let you know I'll let Instagram know you let Instagram know you can just spread the gospel because this is this is real shit and I it'd be one thing if it was just me and my life and anecdotal but I've been yakking about this shit now pretty religiously for eight months and then the shit people send me like you don't even like it's the most it's the craziest shit that I couldn't even imagine mm-hmm not just like physical but just like deep fucking shit that's just effortlessly the next day they did this shit and it's all change and you know they'll even only months after that being like it's staying what do I do am I allowed to feel this good I'm like yeah you are like this is actually the point of being alive it's not to go through all this shit that's just a test for you to transcend those things um yeah it's pretty sweet mm-hmm it's pretty fucking sweet yeah it sounds like it you're gonna love it yeah I mean you're you're doing it you don't you don't end up here without being open to this shit sure I'm open oh yeah I'm open as fuck yeah you get fucking blasted down to your fucking core and those people are being pretty open yeah I feel you um I want to get blasted down again yeah man yeah like I think I will when I get off these SSRIs I think that the real Adrian will come back and I'll have to kind of deal with some grief in a different way because I just what I could not function I had to get on something wrong with that I could not function but I don't want to be else forever you'll have a natural SSR you'll have a natural mood stabilizer for yourself I was on lithium for five years I was diagnosed as bipolar for five years I knew I wasn't but I took it um I have OCD I mean everyone has what they think they have until they realize I have a really under control these days it doesn't run my life the way it used to I just decided I wasn't gonna let it there can be a point if you allow it this is a OCD is a very specific energetic manifestation you just get rid of it if you want that's a point you just be talented pretty much pretty much I mean there's some things that I'm struggling with the counting and the tapping and like some twitches that I have but like as far as the perfectionism I'm able to like let things go the psychedelics definitely help with that and uh I let sometimes I intentionally let my room be messy just to test myself this is what I'm doing lately this is you know what this is the biggest thing in my life right now I just realized I'm putting the silence around my own triggers anything that upsets me I'm like attacking head on welcome to Capricorn fucking energy you're right on pat you're right on the path this is this year yeah keep going keep telling me that this is the best like the other day I drove by this furniture store where Aristotle and I almost bought a couch and we decided not to because he wasn't making enough money to pay for half and he didn't want me to pay for more of it because it was a masculinity or whatever and um I haven't gone to that place since it's been like eight months and I was driving by the other day and that that morning I was in my new room in my new apartment with my roommate which is huge and the guy that I'm sleeping with um was picking his clothes up off the floor in a like a part of my room and I was like I should put a chair there and you can like put your stuff on it and he was like yeah that'd be cool put my shoes on and shit and I was like yeah so I'm driving this morning and then I saw the furniture store and I just like pulled in I walked around the store for ten minutes openly weeping the guy was far enough away I was processing I know that he wasn't I was crying home to you all the time too but um yeah processing and uh I like stopped in front of this chair and it matched my room and it was the vibe and it was not that expensive and I was just like hey man I want to buy this chair and like this so this this woman comes in walks around for ten minutes crying for trying I'm sure he knew but like trying to hide it stops and says I want to buy this and then he was like wow you know what you want huh and I said maybe I don't know can you carry it to my car for me I have a hurt hip holy shit so I bought the chair and I stood up at work and I told my friend I was like uh I bought a chair to my car she was like great that's awesome so it's like shit like that that I'm and I'm not just Aristotle things like my my stepdad was one of my abusers I'm probably the worst abuser and my sister inherited a bunch of his shit when he died because that was that's her dad and I have this framed picture of um Jim Morrison and it's got his name my stepdad's name because he apparently took the picture um in 1973 I don't know if I believe this but whatever it has his name on there and I took the picture from my mom's house this uh last weekend and I was like I'm gonna hang this in my home and she my mom was like Varro and I was like yeah I'm gonna hang this in my home with his name on it and it's in my in my dining room now with a picture in front of it because I can't quite hang it yet but like I'm gonna fucking hang that in my home and walk by it every day and be unaffected by it so uh now I understand why we're friends um yeah this is for people who understand that this is what you're supposed to do now just on like everything you've ever wanted in life is literally through that fear and resistance and everything psychedelics will show you this this is why ayahuasca was so gentle and I'm making the mishap range and she'll always be like that with me but she's flamager around sometimes yeah I might have heard from my friends too um but she was fucking chill because if you do the work if you face those fucking demons down if you go towards the fear as a habit every fucking thing you've ever wanted is right through it every fucking time that's what's so crazy it's not only does it not exist it was just in your mind it's all the good shit is behind there and we do it for to ourselves because like you need to know that lesson to get the good shit you have to break through those barriers because trust me people don't want to hear this I didn't want to hear this you don't want that good shit unless you know how to break through fear you don't want it'll probably fuck your life up because you will miss apprehend that this is something that gave you these qualities gave you the confidence give whatever it is and you do beforehand and that's why you get it so you blast through your fears sometimes they take longer than others for sure for sure there's no denying that I will say also a choice everything is a choice time really doesn't exist I know that it does I know I have children I I age although I am aging in reverse recently but it doesn't exist which means that things that are hard or take a long time traditionally don't have to now there's a certain level of belief we have to inject into here like again I don't believe really on one level I believe I can sprout wings and fly away right now but on most other ways no so that's not something I don't devote a lot of time to it probably take me decades like really do I want wings that bad is that where dragons come from someone just wishes hard enough for years and years news so this book you know and all these dragons stuff so everything is real because we're real the creative force the sense of I am right Buddha Krishna God source that's our imagination that's what it is so all of these things like dragons in these fantasy creatures they're real because we withdraw them we take them out from us project them out into a realm it is this one but you know we don't see them here and they're real so yeah that is kind of where dragons come from you know all that George RR Martin stuff I listen to all the fucking audiobooks that's just all real somewhere yeah it's like not just I get it there's no fiction it's not a real thing which is a mind fuck which is why when you write shit down realize like when you're writing your book like the shit that hasn't even happened yet you can do that on the side like see what happens start writing your own life in advance and see see how it starts to match up it's fucking freaky at first but then you're like oh I think I see what's going on here that everything's happening very quickly oh yeah I feel like in five months I'm way more healed than I thought I would be especially like week two I thought I was just gonna die and I'm I'm shocked I mean October my best friend she gave me this ring for my wedding to like stack with my rings and she asked me in October when I was there in Portland if I would keep this ring and wear it and when she said that to me I started to answer her and then I burst into tears and I was literally two months ago and then a couple weeks ago I was pulling the rings out because I'm gonna list them and sell them and stuff and I put this one on from her and I put it on my right hand and I was like I'm gonna decide that I think of her and not him transmute when I wear this transmute and now I have and I bought a moon stone which is a grounding rock that I'm gonna try to wear with it so that it kind of grounds me and this is like the biggest trigger in the fucking world on my fucking hand right now it's a trigger for you mm-hmm that's why you leave it there mm-hmm that's interesting and it is becoming from her now huh you know it feels I feel very powerful that's what I'm trying to tell you is like and when you're saying you're surprised at how quickly you healed in five months I'm sure now you see that people who are telling you two years is bullshit it's not yeah I think I'm I'm think I'm nearly ready for another relationship yeah no I'm telling you like when you really when you when you start knowing this intuitively but also using those techniques just to be clear about those techniques like they're like a little magic tricks they're like David Blaine shit it's not they're just things that grease the wheels that show you like when you have a thought if you effortlessly accept it mm-hmm that's just gonna happen in both directions that's what this world is it's a reflection it did happen I had a thought of whom my husband would lead me for three years ago oh always happens and it was her always happens and that's why he's happy in a relationship right now because he's been in a relationship with that bitch for a long ass time well well maybe or no I'm proofing I know this I know I'm not saying that he's not happy that's what I'm saying I always ask this question who is the stronger imagination me so who's in charge of the situation me I manifested that I made it happen I put them together are you happy you did that or upset now I'm happy good for you but I wish I had done it sooner and differently probably God I wish it hadn't ended like that but honestly if he hadn't torn me apart and told me that my body was gross and uh let me think that I was disgusting and unlovable and unworthy I would never have gotten back into stand up and perfect it's perfect like all the things that I'm doing now are fueled by rage that's good that's good which is dissipating like every day it's a it's a little less and I am afraid of it going away don't be I mean I haven't looked at your chart but my hunches you have plenty of energy to draw from I have so much energy people have always told me I have the energy of three people in one I'm very interested to see your chart at this point um yeah you're good to go you sense your power you sense kind of what's going on I'm wet for change you're wet for change I mean that's the best at such a good way you should name that my episode I'm wet for change it's literally the perfect name it's exactly what's going on um when you understand and fully realize not even when you will soon if not now how quickly and effortlessly you can whip shit into what you want it to be for yourself first and then your reality you just have so much fun it's the most fun thing ever and you'll be funnier you'll know that like that rage that you're worried about you're I think you might be um there's a correlation for sure there but that passion that fire so this is the first card here I pulled you to talk a little bit about it king of wands right wands in the tarot is fire there are four suits in the tarot do you know anything about the tarot no okay so there are four suits in the tarot wands cups swords and pentacles and they correspond to the four elementals also in astrology also letting everything wands are fire fire is passion movement ambition can be aggression king of wands we can see he has the wand in his right hand makes so much sense it's definitely your card um wand in the right hand right hand is the hand of logic rationality fixed to the ground wands are passion right so this is your passion is very logical and analytical but he's the king of wands we also see the ouroboros and the lion leo the lion here um and ouroboros here it's making it simple yeah right salamanders fire signs red so color in this form of color yeah of course right so red is passion um green is growth so your contact with the world is a platform of growth like this is what you're doing this is your contact with the world it's growth mindset you have the cape right the yellow cape the yellow cape is creativity and that's what you wear comfortably but you also again have the green around here around your chest growth minded and golden crown on the top creativity really just like fueling everything king of wands is gazing out over his kingdom his world your world and harnessing his passion in a logical and analytical way but also understanding with his left hand resting comfortably and at ease that his intuition is really what's doing all the magic comfortably just letting it do it and that's the analogy for the imagination your resistance here is this your your your there's definitely some questions about whether this is possible for you um ten of cups for people listening um yeah I mean it's family but it's really this is balance it's a completion cycle with a ten it's harmony it's I mean it's pretty obvious there's a literal house on the hill it doesn't have to be the platonic family or the you know the nuclear nuclear family easy for me to say um but it does have to do with an internal sense of balance healing the inner child children as well for yourself that's what I'm working on yeah so that's what you're working on it can flip ski whenever you wanted to you just do that revision stuff we're talking about super easy take a minute in your future before you cross the stream to check in with your emotions your emotions and your feelings are quite literally what's some and forth your reality that's what happens your knowingness and your emotions are like the two levers that you pull just balance balance check in with yourself take a beat before you move forward if you have any doubt about what you're supposed to be doing um nature or get into nature do whatever you need to be avoiding her I don't know why it's everywhere here I'm there's so many things in around here I moved to East Hollywood and I don't have like grass under my feet anymore or trees I know but like I've been so wrapped up and trying to stay busy and trying to do the shit trying to fuck all the time it's like oh okay here's what you need to get a chill yeah I need to go to the big day off yes now you're getting it look where's this guy on the beach right maybe a river or something oh yeah alright so water things started happening to me where I'm listening to this book this channeled book and it's like opening up to your intuitive gifts alright so I can literally is gonna sound a little weird I can feel your pain in your heart right now um it's fine it's gonna be okay like just know that it is totally fine it's a necessary like it's like a purge that's going on um one of the functions of a broken heart is it allows light into the cracks and it strengthens it and reveals the actual heart you can let that you can let this go whenever you want you don't have and there's nothing wrong with holding on to it too don't judge yourself for that man I didn't think this is gonna be true if you go deep with this shit it gets fucking weird is all I'll say like you'll these gifts will start popping up and you kind of just gotta be cool I believe it with magic stuff happens around you remember the last time we were hanging out I was dating that guy and I drew you and I said I don't think he even likes me yeah and then my eye watch flicked and it was him saying hey what's going on what you doing tonight yeah I do and I was like damn I guess he likes me um so you're good though like yeah definitely get into nature um relax oh I'm not good at that your tendency to do stuff is not helping you I have not relaxed since like 1989 but you can I don't know that no no no you can mm-hmm you probably feel relaxed after sex yes okay and watching great British big off oh I mean who doesn't love that also can we talk about how someone chose the name Paul Hollywood I know that's his birth name sure I know that it is but like someone down the line was like you know what Hollywood like there's no way that organically is like a gift no one's name is Hollywood right well someone who was murdered her name was Hollywood that's where the name has come from it's just weird is Paul Hollywood I know he's like classy guy for you basically the guy that I'm fucking we've been watching great British yeah together for a while and the other day he was like he wanted to have sex again and it was bread week and I was sitting at the literally sitting at the edge of the bed just like enthralled and bread week and he was like hey I wanna he was like you know what you want to still watch it yeah and so he just hit it from the back I watch bread week it was the best thing ever I was like I think I might have just fallen in love with you dude it was a that's a good partner it's a good oh my god I'm fucking whipped on him now like I wasn't already Dick Matai you're gonna pull this shot man that's just function and he's funny and he's hot fuck you get out of my house yeah I can't do this stuff that's good stuff and it was bread week I mean it was bread week I know he really rose to the occasion for that he proved himself he butted my bread yeah he proved yeah I'm with it you gotta prove it yeah over work all right we're gonna wrap this up just because we can mm-hmm oh right on time three questions we end with then another one let's see if they're the same I bet they will be interesting to see what's your favorite color red what's your favorite number eight what's your favorite animal wolf oh okay uh that was fast answering there was really good yeah a practical tip that has helped you in your life that you could share with people listening could be anything if you want to know what someone's gonna do look at what they've done mm-hmm I have to think about that one I'm very algorithmic and pattern based and I do believe people can change but invariably patterns are there for a reason and you can plug in different variables but the outcome is likely to be the same I just tweeted out that I am an algorithm program to wake people the fuck up mmm so I agree boy uh Adrian mm-hmm I'm really happy to see you doing this well me too great awesome thank you oh yeah so you'll see yeah I feel your love yeah yeah so you'll see yeah yeah Thanks for listening to that episode or a reminder you can go check out Adrian at cradrian dot com c-r-a-a-y d-r-e-e whoa Jesus Christ let me spell it right c-r-a-y d-r-i-e n-n-e dot com cannabis professional comedian go check her out she's the fucking coolest I'm sure we'll be hanging again soon uh that's it rate and review this podcast you know what to do uh there are surveys all over the place join the email list patreon all the stuff state connected shit's getting fucking crazy in 2020 and beyond you're gonna want to be connected if you like this ship all right that's it and I will see 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