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Welcome to synchronicity, just a little scheduling change thing so we can have this more regular and understood. I'm going to, as I'm thinking, I'm going to move the podcast on Monday release time. I will probably end up recording them Monday so we can expect hopefully around this time every week but if not sometime later in the day on Monday so it's not going to be like first thing. Obviously, if I have guests or something like that and I get a bonus episode, I will put that up as applicable but I think also I'm not sure but in an effort to really show some love for the patrons, I will probably start posting a lot of guest episodes there, not exclusively on a gatekeep content but I do want to throw those guys some rewards as I steady the ship and get it together again.

You know, it's like if running a podcast is not as easy as it may seem. You have to, first of all, the hardest part, just the, I want to say the hardest part because sometimes it's not that hard but I would say the intangible aspect of it from what I can tell. I listen, I listen, I listen to a lot of podcast now. I do and you really have to be able to talk for a long period of time as like a monologue. That's not easy. It's like you're trying to talk for 10 minutes straight. Sound like a lunatic. Granted, I also sound like a lunatic but hopefully there's some semblance of organization behind the chaos.

That's what we're going to hope for. Okay, big episode today, I want to start it off, the overarching theme of this episode will emerge. I haven't quite pinned it down but I have stuff I want to kind of talk about and go over it that I think is probably going to be appropriate for you if you're listening. But I want to start with a comment in the Discord under the imagination tab because that was the channel, Jesus, panicking the Discord, you know what I mean? That is kind of what's going on there just from one person, you know, there's been some very thoughtful responses but this is based on the last episode I recorded where I was like, hey, you know, maybe imagination, imagination, imagine something for someone in your life or some other person, right?

Imagine something good happening or them telling you the good news, right? That's like the best thing you could do for them, even better than overtly helping. I think I had a dream about this last night. It was super weird. I don't really remember it but it was like I was helping someone there like definitely don't help that person like this way. Imagine them actually being better. It was a very meta dream anyway. This comment in the Discord was based on that suggestion. So I'm not going to get the person's name, this anonymous. But it's I tried imagining my mother as a normal person and not a narcissist.

As it turns out, now she's stealing money from my dad who is suffering from dementia. So yeah, it isn't working. Let's break this down. First of all, lots of love to you who posted that. I'm spending time on this because I do want you in particular to understand that but this will be useful for anyone who's going through this situation, which is like, hey, I imagined this thing, right? I felt it. I really like, I nailed it. It felt natural. And then it got worse. It not only is that not changed the thing that I was intending to change. There is now worse stuff happening. So I conclude that this is not working.

All of this is painting the picture of something which you firmly believe the hardest. I don't want to say the hardest part. What can be challenging about this is you genuinely have to change your belief structure until it feels natural. And it should be to the point where if someone all this stuff is coming into your life, right? Worse outcomes, not working. You have to first accept that as something that you believe, right? And then determine it is not working. All you're doing, I just want to give you a quick little analogy. Say you plant something in the ground, right? You plant this tomato plant.

You're really excited for it, special, you know, Cherokee purple tomatoes, you're super psyched for it, right? And you plant the seeds and you water it and the sun's out, it's hot weather, it's perfect for tomatoes. And you know, like a week or two in, you're like, man, I see some mold in another area that's close to it, but I see some mold on a plant that's growing there. I don't know, a basil or something. You then dig up the tomato seeds and you go, fuck, it's not working, right? So it's definitely not working. I've dug up those seeds literally are the husk there. It's the thing that grows into your experience of what's going on.

Just to be clear, what we're kind of doing here is you're going from a state of innocence where you're just like not totally grasping, not you particularly, everyone, we're always doing this. Trust me, always, it's annoying how always it is. It's never not always happening, which is very annoying. You know, you got like, I've been doing this like a health dance for the past, it feels like month and a half, you know, between the COVID and the kids getting sick. And I'm like, I don't want to do this anymore. Can I just have a good, can I just be like super healthy? Super circumstances need to arrive, arise for that to happen.

I am now appropriating that state. I'm fed up with it. That's usually how it happens for me, by the way, I just get fed up with the state. I'm like, enough already. It's those states where they kind of creep on you and you really start to believe it and you don't notice it that can be particularly pernicious. But in this case, here's what you do, right? So your mom, right, you have this belief of her based on her actions, most likely and based on your feelings around those actions, which may adhere to the clinical definition of a narcissist, which I would just like to point out is a label and a term that is now wildly, probably misappropriated.

I'm not saying it is in this case, but it's just a, it's an observation of certain behaviors and admissions, potentially from that person. And then we go, well, that person is very self-obsessed. They only care about themselves. They only work for their own self-interest. And we go, okay, that's who that is. A lot of people, you saw this happen when like Trump was elected. People just saw, they reacted to this borishness of him and they're just like, that guy. That guy is the worst of the worst. He represents what's not good. Anyway, all you're doing there is creating a story. It's like, so I've been watching House of Dragon.

I got a couple more episodes to go. Seventh episode in, I still like it. I'm into it. I listened to all the George RR Martin books, you know, on tape. They're fucking amazing. I highly recommend them. But like, I'm into the lore. I get it. If I'm not like just wanting to see action all the time, however, I did realize like seven episodes in, it's just kind of a soap opera with dragons at this point. Like legitimately, that is what's happening. And it's, in fairness, that's what a lot of the books are too. It is this intrigue and like political drama and like interpersonal stuff, but it is that.

So anyway, back to the point, I'm not just diverging to talk about House of Dragon, although I did come to that conclusion. We'll see what happens, right? But anyway, you're writing a story and a character for your mom who she is now bound to. Now, this is where it gets very annoying and, you know, depending on how you look at this stuff, you can people, this is victim blaming and I don't want to make it seem like if you're living a shitty life, it's like you fucked up and it's your fault. Just likely that is going to show you how powerful the change and transformation can be when you kind of take the reins of your own reality and you're like, all right, if everything is just kind of a projection of, it's an objective realization of a subjective state.

So the way I feel is then out pictured into the world, you then have to like, you kind of have to fucking own that, it sucks, it sucks, it basically, this is really what it means. Number one, if you have any faith in like any external factor I toasted by a whole episode on this, right? You get it. That's your, you're, you're not, you're kind of just playing like a three card money with yourself. You're hiding the thing under the cards and like, oh, it's not me. I guess it's not me and you're like, nope, it's actually you. There's the thing. There's the queen. That's what you're doing there. So annoying, I get it.

I'm not saying it's your fault. You've had this relationship with your mother in a sense. I am saying it is your responsibility to recognize your impressions of a person and fundamentally change those or find a place that allows you to change them. Does that mean you have to forgive and forget and like, just totally be delusional? No, that's also not good, but you do recognize that this innate power is yours. This is what the rest of the episode will be about. You claim that and you say, okay, I now get my senses and my organs are telling me organs a weird word there, I guess, but my, my senses are telling me through my physical attributes that this is happening and this is the psychological conception of what that means.

And I accept that you're then just basically letting the outside world reflect back to you a sense of kind of like disharmony. I imagine suffering and you don't want that. Your desire is to not have that. You had a clear intention. The beautiful thing about this is that like you know on one level what this kind of desire is pointing at, which is like your springboard to getting over like having a difficult relationship with your mom who's like, you don't want your mom to think of your mom as a narcissist. I also just kind of imagine a lot of people there's listen, being a parent as many people know is fucking insane.

It's just crazy. So you just try to do the best to not fuck your kids up. I think that's the general idea and still some sense of virtue and awareness in them. But like the easiest thing to do in family relationships, I know it's difficult. I have not mastered this myself, I'm not some fucking enlightened sage like family life is always harmonious. There's never conflict. That's not what family is for. Family is really to kind of show you like close expressions of yourself, but just how a few factors can really kind of you know change potential things. I always think about like families. I don't know if they exist.

We're like it's just all good all the time like they that doesn't exist like even if that's what you see on like Instagram or TikTok or whatever like that's not a thing. Like I know there are those like weird couples who are like we never fought in 72 years and it's like all right well you're a lunatic. That's not a real thing to aspire to. I mean good luck holding yourself to that and interpersonal relationships. Now granted could you imagine yourself as one of those people yes and I do think that's what we're moving towards because the best way to not have conflict with people is to just basically like be like no not not doing that my if your perspective remains the same on the person or even deepens into what you believe that's not it.

You want a fundamental shift your reaction will tell you where you are it's your litmus test we're telling you where you are in terms of like whether you believe this shit or not or whether it feels like a real thing okay so I just want to point out like persist number one that's my first piece of advice if you're imagining something and it's not going well persist. This is like a potential this is like what seems like a cop out for the like the the kind of reasoning behind how this stuff works it feels like kind of an out until it works and then you're like oh it wasn't an out it wasn't like a trick you will achieve what you believe your life is a constant affirmation of that so this is just how it goes like it's I still like some some like thing that you can't be proven you will prove it to yourself so the persistence in the belief that you know you want the relationship with your mother your parents or whatever you are really going for there emotional security love whatever it is you know that's achievable you just have to actually watch your reactions to see if that's how you feel that they're acting also just the the idea of what normalcy means to you is something to be examined I have absolutely no idea what normal is I know what like when someone's being like a nut and you're just like can you be normal I know what that means for me in any given situation but maybe define some characteristics that you would like to see in the positive or the way you would react if someone was acting the way you wanted them to how would you react to that that's the state to go for leave the other person out of it ultimately because they're just kind of a projection of you and it's you creating that as like a creator and like infant I guess like the kind of the hard part of this like totally we can't fully comprehend it is like if this is true right it means you really are God right and imagine what you would be doing to fix yourself in linear time and be able to move your perspective up and down to experience different segments of reality different realities in and of itself it's astounding but it is a real phenomenon nevertheless the idea here here is to get familiar enough where you kind of awaken yourself from the dream of life right I was he permanently like that's not really a thing but enough to the point where you're not ruled by your external circumstances which admittedly in a world predicated seemingly of on content remember when we didn't hear the the word content I started mentioning content because it was part of my job as like digital marketing you know for like nonprofits and stuff and trying to get the word out and so like I remember just content entering my lexicon I'm like alright I'm going to start saying this word because this is the easiest way to find it and now it's like everyone's just talking about content like we gotta create content we gotta have content gotta go ahead should mean content should mean that we're getting a little bit more from it but you just don't want to be swayed by content too much allow yourself to experience an emotion and if it's lovely by by all means go for it but don't like let it shape your world view this will become increasingly important as I think the natural reaction there's always a counterpoint there's always a counterbalance to any energy otherwise that would be like totally boring it was just like we all can senselessly agree that this is awesome it's the best you know do not really tell boring and static that would get over time not saying we want violence not said we don't want violence the reaction of violence is always a misunderstanding of how to use this internal kind of power that always literally always it's violence is not really an elegant way of expressing it's a thing it's a vibe there's a reason that like people watch it in entertainment and we like like that and we're I would say like it but are like drawn to it it's a vibe it's a state you can totally like get with that but it's generally looked at as kind of like all right I mean I would you choose that of all the infinite possibilities of how to react to something violent seems like a little lower on the bank don't want to make too many judgments about violence violence you're okay by me I understand your function I'm just saying maybe you know not to always tune into that but if that's your natural reaction if that's something that's being projected out to you into the world which I imagine is a theme we are working on given the state of the world don't be swayed by it that's it don't be swayed by it it's not that big of a deal all right let's talk a little bit we're gonna go back to the Bible stuff first of all just wash all the literal conceptions of the Bible from your mind like do not look at this or anything for that matter as inherently as a literal thing that is that turns way too many people off from being able to identify with like listen for something to last as long as the Bible which is you would regardless when you think it was really written you know thousands of years hundreds of years whatever don't worry about the linear time I it is a profound work that there's such a reaction to it and this is something that I think is somewhat there's something there right so it hopefully you could understand that you're not going to be taking this literally but you're going to be looking at it from a psychological sense and you playing all the characters it's fun just try it out anyway so I was reading in one of the books by Neville Goddard that he starts talking about how where the biblical Mary and I always get interested whenever there's like feminine aspects and mysticism that are like outwardly just a dress or acknowledge it's relatively rare which I think can be a turn of like it's always our father this or father this but there's a reason for that it's not just the patriarchy rearing it said I used to think that was like you know it's fucking patriarchy it's always the father of this bullshit it's like no there's a reason that the father and the creator in one sense are identified it's another there's another reason that the mother and the creator are identified there you have different functions right different functions there's a polarity there there's not always polarity sometimes there's unity but in this there's duality so we just just cool anyway I do get interested when people are like what you're the biblical Mary I'm like what the fuck is this guy talking about he's like here's the deal Mary had a virgin birth right there is no dad what that's stupid doesn't make sense that's how we know the Bible's fake that's not the point it's not literal there's not a woman named Mary being like I'm pregnant Bob here's Jesus Christ that's not a thing that happened if you think that that thing happened or you think that other people think that happened you're getting caught up in the drama of it don't worry about it but Mary being a psychological state of version of you who is capable of this action right comes up with an idea or a desire and then birth that desire into the world so Mary here is water right this is like the psychological truth of the mysteries right the things that actually create and construct or allow things to appear is probably the best way to say it into our physical reality right so you stay faithful to that desire right so the Holy Ghost my conception of literal Christianity is not that great and you will consistently hear that and my takes on things about the Bible but my psychological understanding of it is adequate I don't want to say it's great it's adequate but the Holy Ghost is your holy desire right why is it a Holy Ghost you can't see it you see ghosts around you all the time was last time you saw a ghost hanging out like even if you're a ghost hunter or like someone who's in touch of spirits you're seeing them out in your world no you're not so it's a ghost it's your holy desire those things unify oh lo and behold you get your christian state your state of realization that thing is experienced so again from this age of innocence to imagination to experience that's the journey and again the goal here is just kind of wake up to this to the point where you feel comfortable with it it doesn't want to have to be like this I was gonna say like you gotta talk about it all the time I put out this podcast because I realized at some point there's I didn't want to like this stuff can get over complicated or get like a really religious of the people can get very serious about it I found it was useful when talking about this with friends or otherwise be like this is just the thing that happens it's not like you don't have to be weird about it we can talk about it in a way hopefully that makes sense so you can use it because the goal here is you're consistently changing your sense of self right this version of you does dead right we're in the world of death we understand we have to use the world of death and dying we die to previous states we create new states we we don't create new states that's not the way to put it we move to those states we move through those states right the states exist as ideals you can think of them like platonic ideals right there are states that exist infinitely an infinite number of them and we as an eternal being encompass and embody those states so they're there just because we leave them doesn't mean they're not there we move and to and through those states how do we do that we do that again with our imagination which we would call god which we would call the creative principle before there was anything there was this then we incarnated with this kind of forgetfulness amnesia quality here it's like a game but you don't want to treat it like as flippantly as a game but you kind of want to take it not so seriously does that make sense it's somewhere in that thread is how serious you should take this so think of your imagination right we're gonna talk about this cross again vertical line is the cross is the part the line of imagination right it's limitless there's nothing you can just it's just you're moving up and down in terms of your conception and what you complete it's your imagination it's that's the limit right horizontal line is time I don't think I mentioned this in the other episode horizontal line is time right so that's intersecting where you are at any given point and what you're experiencing so you're moving up and down you're creating like this wave if you really looked at it like you had a graphing calculator I never really know how to use those to be honest I played drug wars on that and yeah so the I just you know you basically want to just understand that your conception and belief of where you are is that vertical access you move up and down that what you experience in time projected out into projected out into your world is dependent on where you are in that access and what you believe if you think everything sucks things are not working out you're poor you're unhealthy you're probably lower on the line right that's all that's the anti-Christ by the way it's not some fucking evil mother fuck I sound like what's his name Charles Manson I haven't seen the domber stuff yet I I go through phases I feel like most people do with the murder stuff I used to give you know really into the murder stuff it's entertaining I get it but at the end it's I got time right now to watch Dom right here they make him sound very cool which is great because it's nice you know we want that in the world that I'm sure people appreciate that but I hear it's very good so maybe I'll watch it I don't know who's got the time right but anyway where you are on that state on that vertical access right again your objects the objective world objective world objective say that clearly what you're experiencing out there is always reflecting back your subjective states of consciousness right so desire again this is like your hidden identity this is what you really want and feel and yearn to identify as that's a desire right how would you achieve that desire this is how you would do it the goal here even though this is a neutral principle you will find you tend to believe things that genuinely make you feel fulfilled and feel good in a different way than if you're just like I want this car and that's all you can totally have the car by the way I just want to be clear about that it's not about not being able to have the car that's a thing that's allowed it's just that it usually it's to prove a point to yourself that oh my gosh look at this I imagined driving in this car and people saying how good this car was and how I reacted to that and how I'm driving this car when that experience transpires you cake enough for those on even if you fall back into oblivion and just completely start reacting to all external things without regard for anything else even if that happens you'll be like oh yeah remember that time I imagine that stuff and then it happened oh shit am I doing that now and is that why my life the way it is is the way it is oh should I just kind of take the reins and you know self-affirm what I want to be happening and see how it happens and not react to the outside thing maybe denying that at any given point and just see how that goes for a little bit of time probably worth it because I think it worked before so again there's this remembrance of how things work there's this ability also to go back and you know reframe however you want to say it revise you know past incidents which can be very useful for freeing up what feel like energetic knots in the present if that's something you're into you're just learning and teaching your things about how to kind of use the ultimate creative principles that makes sense in that sense I guess it is like a school it's not like and it's as fun as you want school to be but it's not like you have way more freedom like you can skip school at school and experience that reality you know what I mean you don't have to like go through boring classes maybe you do maybe you want that maybe you like that but you should know whether you do or don't and you should realize you have an option of when to experience them potentially when not to experience that so again always test your reactions to what an imagined state feels like entering that state feels like right if you're reacting also just in the world let's see we're having beef with someone you're like I don't know really fuck with this person they're kind of like I don't know not that cool and the way they're acting seems pretty obvious that they're kind of piece of shit okay boom that's a regular baseline reaction you do an imagination thing doesn't even involve this person fuck that it could have nothing to do with them or you're imagining you're living in the lap of luxury doing whatever you want to do hanging out having a good time okay then you imagine this person again at some point you can have a conversation with them in your head and you go oh you know what you know I see that this guy maybe I don't want to be hanging out with them maybe I don't need to you know be constantly in you know involved in what they're thinking and how that relates to me but I just feel like I don't this person has a nice thing if there's that shift there doesn't have to be that dramatic doesn't have to be any but if there's a shift in your reaction to things that would have normally like really geeked you up and gassed you up then that's good you want that shift so test your reactions to things if you also like I found I don't know why it happened but like I would say like a week ago because the dolphins were recently weekly dolphin stuff they beat the Steelers they lost to the Vikings it's just been injuries to his back we win defense seems to play better they're an average team right now like half of the NFL is average if not more it's the press you can tell my enthusiasm that we won the game well what was cool was a guy know Igg but not any caught the final kind of in game and in play I like the little mystical wink of the guys name being no also he's just been truly before this game like a total liability like he's been on the team for three years he's a high draft pick second round pick and he's not been able to get on the field now we literally just don't have cornerbacks we're putting out like fucking federal I'm out there this fucking short little white guy special teamers playing corner back was the last time about you saw white corner back by the way see one archuleta there's no white cornerbacks let's tell you something about the athleticism and skills of that position white boys aren't even trying good for christian McCaffrey happy for him we're just doing football stuff we're just going to turn halfway no three quarters of the way into the show we're just going to change this into an NFL showed really just a fuck with the people who can't stand it right anyway dolphins go dolphins they're four and three I don't know they just slowly kind of suck the life out you just win this is my real test is when the dolphins when the super bowl you know I am peaking peak imagination just laying that claim there if the dolphins is super 100% my my my doing okay cool anyway it's just you have to deal with it at this point it's just something that that has to happen anyway your reactions you want to observe them you want to make sure that hopefully they have changed in some way that should tell you that you're on the right path you're you are feeling this in a different way it is the feeling right it is the feeling right to go back to that merry thing you really do have to have that conception in mind right conception holy conception you really do have to have this idea this desire clear in your head right that's like go through that as much as you need to and then just note your reactions afterwards once it feels natural once nothing can sway you can go wow it doesn't look good now but you know I know this is happening so and you don't want it to be stubborn like not stubborn to the point of like like I said like no nanny nanny boo boo but kind of nanny nanny boo boo kind of basically like hey I know this is really something that works I've experienced it before I absolutely recognize its validity I know that some of this if not all of it is predicated on me maintaining kind of agency over my internal reactions to things that's a large part of it now I remembered what I was talking about so I noticed like a week ago or so like I was just getting like reading these articles in the news just like basic stuff like I should have no reaction to it that's normal state like no reaction you know just like okay sure okay but I was getting angry at like various things and I'm like what is this and it was like two and a half days and whatever that was it didn't last but that was like a clear indicator for me that something had shifted it didn't feel like in a positive way it wasn't like based on like a thing like I don't think you want to be living in the vibe of being angry and swayed by external things that's that's usually a good touchpoint Kanye West we can thank for this amazing gift of if you get all riled up by Kanye or yay let's be respectful yay if you get riled up by him if you trust me first of all it's not worth it totally not worth it you're just gonna be confounded and confused and upset because this is like a fucking spray attack it's just not you just don't worry about it even if you're Jewish I'm Jewish I self-identify I was both my parents are Jewish do I celebrate all of the holidays and stuff no not really it's a lot of work sometimes and I don't really believe necessarily in the ways that I was redoish in terms of like the literate literal interpretations of what these things and conceptions mean right that's all no big deal but I just don't be offended by it just like that's the best thing you can do is be like all right that guy's crazy also if Connie puts out another album 100% listening to it and it's probably gonna be amazing so like what are you gonna do there we're really starting to have to answer these questions I was like what if Hitler Hitler made dope beats what if he just had the fucking your favorite beat what if Hitler made that how do you feel about that beat now the correct approach is you know obviously we don't want Hitler making dope beats that's weird it's not a great by the Hitler on the beats we don't want that as a thing but if it did exist you know you got to be how to parse that you got to be like that is a dope beat but Hitler you shouldn't be mass genociding people that's not cool but it is a dope beat can you can get to that point you're doing pretty good because you got to be able to recognize a dope beat you do it's just like wow it really grooves that's fucking amazing can't not not bob my head to this you don't want to deny that in yourself but you also want to be like hey maybe not the mass genocide not so great so Connie is just kind of like you know a couple gradients but apparently now he's fine he's also like his sense of humor like I don't know it's not like I don't want to like say it's not the best it's just like it's a type of humor right it's like and it is really something that I would see most people don't find very funny but a lot of the times he's trying to be funny and like he does probably have some conceptions about reality better misguided on some level but we don't have to get bound him bind him to that state right we don't have to do that we don't have to imagine him going through a mental breakdown so therefore he that's not cool just imagine be like how you'll turn this around if not what a ride and thanks for the entertainment and your music's good so you know that's a place to get to you do want to kind of get back there again because we're just gonna hammer this point like you have to stay faithful to what you believe in and overall I do think you want to believe in a world that is you know good for as many people as possible if not all of them and while that sounds like a very far off impossible ideal if everyone did believe that was true we would experience that now the trick is is to recognize we're kind of doing that anyway there is a perfect balance to how this reality works it can feel more nefarious and violent and chaotic than we would like and if we want to kind of not chill in that vibe it's up to us to kind of raise that frequency of our awareness to kind of stabilize that that involves some work and effort for sure so just be aware of that again also like again terribly inconvenient terribly inconvenient to have to be an omnipotent being not cool no no omnipotent being would not have a sense of you like you you have to have a sense of humor to actually recognize how fucked up that is like come on really everything is because of that I can't give shift any responsibility away we're gonna create things and you say no you don't have to but you're doing it so it does imply some desire to experience that therefore just like you know imagine check yourself as much as possible really when you're like when you are getting thrown to and from to and fro throw to and fro I don't know how to say that that's getting brain frog total brain frog out here like I don't know it's just the vibe I'm just trying to enjoy it as much as I can and really just sit into the states and focus on objective states or subjective states that feel right for me right now it's a good time to really refocus on what you want I would say that's kind of we'll do the next episode maybe I'll sneak one in before November we'll just do November on the patreon or something the energy preview it is at least for October it's been just like really time to just focus on what you want and apply this stuff as best you can right it's just getting shaky sometimes in a lot of ways for people and you don't want to get too shook I myself get shook I don't want to give the impression I do not get shook I totally get shook it's important to admit that if you never get shook rest assured I don't want to say this in like some menacing way something will shake you it may be good shaking but something will shake you no one wants to live in a state of like pure comfortability comfortableness for too long you think you do and then you get bored and boredom is not a state sign of something being wrong then they could be a turn you know hundreds of years of just complete comfortableness but you probably will then forget some aspect of your ability to create states because it's relatively static we like dynamic right not all the time but it's nice to know you can do that anyway that's this week's episode Monday I'm gonna try to stick to that schedule just so we're all on the same page readings are open I think yeah I mean we're getting there next next month I'll open up those Christ Consciousness ones those are the longer ones and the more in-depth and moody ones I'll try to do that every December at some point and I'll let people know beforehand patients will probably have first crack because they've been asking at various times when those are available other than that everything is cool patreon is still there we're doing stuff I'm going to just put more content that I record there like I said with guests and maybe we'll move those energy previews that feels like a patreon thing right it does patrons you agree it does yeah it's like we should be putting that stuff there energy readings now behind patreon gated sign up and give me your soul I do I will say this especially with this last crypto cycle where I just spent like a fucking maniac when I had it which I do think is a good approach in crypto because that's it will go down again so spend that money you make there really is something to be said for the exchange of money as a medium of understanding things so I nothing is priceless and we're not raising patreon prices for inflation should I do that just like up everything up 10 percent 8 percent based on fucking consumer price index every month sorry patreon is now 22 cents more because inflation because that's a real thing yeah okay so we're it I just do think there is that's why the discord is gonna the pay and get in thing rather than uh you got to keep paying to stay in that feels not cool so you can always do that other than that things are cool we're having good times hopefully I'm gonna work on my health that would be good maybe some wealth maybe some harmony maybe some peace and creativity I think we'll just well that's enough that's enough right now we don't want to be greedy we don't want to be greedy just those eternal states oh that's all okay that's it I'll see you next week bye bye [Music plays]

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